I've seen people give the advice to embrace the anxiety that intrusive thoughts bring me and feel whatever comes until it goes away. I try to do that, but it sometimes feels like I'm doing a compulsion to hold the intrusive thought in my head to feel it more and like I'm actively searching for intrusive thoughts sometimes to test myself and to recover faster and not fear the intrusive thoughts anymore. I know I'm not supposed to avoid triggers or thoughts, but sometimes it feels like I can dismiss an incoming intrusive thought and be better off. Should I always try to sit with an intrusive thought even though it feels like rumination?