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Welcome Kathy! When you said 4 years of therapy, did you see an ocd specialist? I went to almost 20 years of therapy which helped none until I started seeing someone who specialized in ocd. Now I am starting to see a light at the end of the tunnel...
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just keep going! We are all here for you
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Hi P, no, she was a general psychologist. Not to mention she always had to remind me that she also majored in music and some other thing that I lost interest in. Her main focus would be telling me what I was doing wrong in my daily routine. ie, listening to the wrong music. ?
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??? wow you stuck that out for four years??? At least we know you’re persistent! ? Have you been formally diagnosed with ocd then? I would seek out an ocd specialist and speak with them (get diagnosed if you haven’t been) and have them work with you on ocd-related stuff. I think ocd and anxiety and depression often come hand-in-hand. You’ll find many of us feel that way. But for me at least, working on the ocd first and foremost has helped with the depression and anxiety. Sometimes depression gets in the way of therapy and that needs to be sorted first, though. But I think a good start would be an ocd specialist. I listen to heavy metal. I wonder what she would have said about that mess!!
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P - that would not have been approved musical therapy. I took in my iPad once so she could have a look at my music library. I have everything on there. Metal, classic rock, punk, hip hop, country, classical, opera. She told me my brain was probably in overdrive trying to figure out what was soothing. Yes, I have been diagnosed with all that I’ve listed. I just want something that will turn off my brain from time to time ?
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Haha well she sounds like a dud ? try a new therapist. There’s a bit of trial and error involved!
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