i feel this but just with rocd :(
i understand, i used to suffer from this. it gets better and goes away eventually. no, you are not in the deepest denial. it’s just part of your brain trying to convince you’re something your not. or something you don’t want to act on. you’re not gay. like yeah you might think someone the same gender as you is attractive, doesn’t mean you’re attracted to them. deep down in your heart u know ur straight, it’s just your brain messing with you. try looking on Quora, it’s a good space for different types OCD and has ways to overcome this problem at home. hope this helps !
I just don’t get it. I never asked for this, I was so happy in my relationship, had so many plans for my partner and I to spend our lives together and now it just feels like I can’t/don’t want it. Because I keep thinking in this new way, I don’t like it. But it’s just well it’s just confusing, everyday just seems a little bit harder I feel like I’m holding on in a hurricane and some days I don’t even know what I’m holding onto anymore.
Brad, you're speaking to my soul!