Why do I feel like I’m going through something different to everyone else on here. I used to relate to everyone’s posts so much and now I just don’t. Everyday gets harder but none of it makes sense, I genuinely feel my sexuality has been altered by OCD. I was perfectly happy and content with my life and then bang the ROCD and HOCD kicked in like a huge brick coming to ruin everything. And the worst part is it makes me feel so convinced, like I want it, sometimes I can’t even tell if it’s made me happy or depressed, sad or angry, anxious or excited. I feel like I’m in the deepest denial

I just don’t get it. I never asked for this, I was so happy in my relationship, had so many plans for my partner and I to spend our lives together and now it just feels like I can’t/don’t want it. Because I keep thinking in this new way, I don’t like it. But it’s just well it’s just confusing, everyday just seems a little bit harder I feel like I’m holding on in a hurricane and some days I don’t even know what I’m holding onto anymore.

i feel this but just with rocd :(

i understand, i used to suffer from this. it gets better and goes away eventually. no, you are not in the deepest denial. it’s just part of your brain trying to convince you’re something your not. or something you don’t want to act on. you’re not gay. like yeah you might think someone the same gender as you is attractive, doesn’t mean you’re attracted to them. deep down in your heart u know ur straight, it’s just your brain messing with you. try looking on Quora, it’s a good space for different types OCD and has ways to overcome this problem at home. hope this helps !