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This is common because OCD is a doubting disease. You can doubt everything in your life if the OCD deems it an open spot to attack. It's our brains at war with other regions of our brains.
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I also have feelings of not sure if I love my husband and it feels so horrible. I haven’t spoken with a counsellor yet about it. How do I know if it’s rocd or not? Sorry you’re feeling this way!!
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Ok I will get a therapist to talk to. Thank you for sharing!❤️
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Yes it is torture! We will get better and will look back later on and this will all be a memory.
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Yes me too!💜
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Ok thank you. Just wanted to make sure this was a normal thing.
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I'm so sorry you have to go through this. My therapist told me I will know it's rocd because that's the form of ocd that attacks the most important relationships in our lives. You relationship with your husband is important to you so it may be that causing some distance in your mind. Just like my relationship with my son. I hope you find the help you need and deserve. No one deserves to suffer this way.
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Oh ok well that makes sense!! Do you do rituals or anything when you get these thoughts because I don’t do any rituals. That’s what makes me think what if it’s not rocd. Do you have any triggers or are you thoughts just there like always in your mind? I hope you don’t mind me asking you this lol.
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Of course I don't mind. Any way I can help. I had rituals but after starting exposure therapy I found out they were doing more damage than helping. I have some triggers like when I'm trying to remember a good memory from when my son was smaller and can't remember or when he's at a sleepover and I feel like I don't really miss him. Those tend to make me think "well maybe you don't love him". If those happen I try to get on here and do a quick therapy session or try to sit with the thought until it's gone. Just sitting with it and watching it fade takes the power away from it. I would suggest that you find a specialist that works with ocd. Mine has helped me so much.
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No problem at all. I hope you get through this. Like I said no one deserves to suffer through this torture.
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That's right we will!! That's gonna be a wonderful day! I cannot wait!
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Please read this. I’ve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. I’m 21 with 2 kids and i believe i’ve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. I’ve been thinking if i’d intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). I’ve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. I’ve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like i’m a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I can’t hold my daughter right. I can’t change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because it’s either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldn’t be more thankful at all for them. I’m just so lost and stressed right now that i just don’t know what to do anymore
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Please comment. Just say if follows along the OCD pattern or not. I don't need reassurance per se! My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt/a**aulted her that I might as well do something else to hurt because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it because my mind told me I had hurt her already ("my mind literally made me question what to do and I guess the only thing I could come up with was using my elbow) and causing another feeling but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side/thigh area. Which caused another very unwanted groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. And I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me but my therapist says it's all OCD. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD? This has all caused me a great amount of anxiety. I feel like a terrible person and mom. I just need help knowing if this is OCD. Not wanting reassurance. Just wanting to know if this lines up with the POCD I've been diagnosed with by my current therapist.
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Just a little side note: I know this post has been made MANY times by me. However, I had a therapist respond to my post today saying that I need to reach out to my therapist on this because the context was not clear. This made me more stressed and ruminate more. It's not the therapist fault; but not I wonder if I'm really the monster. I'm a Christian mom who feels like I've ruined my life. My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt her that I might as well do something else because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it and causing another feeling (I literally had to question what to do during this and the only thing I could come up with was to move my elbow) but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side area. Which caused another groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. Then I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me. PLEASE tell me if I am a monster. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD?
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