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This is common because OCD is a doubting disease. You can doubt everything in your life if the OCD deems it an open spot to attack. It's our brains at war with other regions of our brains.
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I also have feelings of not sure if I love my husband and it feels so horrible. I haven’t spoken with a counsellor yet about it. How do I know if it’s rocd or not? Sorry you’re feeling this way!!
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Ok I will get a therapist to talk to. Thank you for sharing!❤️
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Yes it is torture! We will get better and will look back later on and this will all be a memory.
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Yes me too!💜
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Ok thank you. Just wanted to make sure this was a normal thing.
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I'm so sorry you have to go through this. My therapist told me I will know it's rocd because that's the form of ocd that attacks the most important relationships in our lives. You relationship with your husband is important to you so it may be that causing some distance in your mind. Just like my relationship with my son. I hope you find the help you need and deserve. No one deserves to suffer this way.
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Oh ok well that makes sense!! Do you do rituals or anything when you get these thoughts because I don’t do any rituals. That’s what makes me think what if it’s not rocd. Do you have any triggers or are you thoughts just there like always in your mind? I hope you don’t mind me asking you this lol.
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Of course I don't mind. Any way I can help. I had rituals but after starting exposure therapy I found out they were doing more damage than helping. I have some triggers like when I'm trying to remember a good memory from when my son was smaller and can't remember or when he's at a sleepover and I feel like I don't really miss him. Those tend to make me think "well maybe you don't love him". If those happen I try to get on here and do a quick therapy session or try to sit with the thought until it's gone. Just sitting with it and watching it fade takes the power away from it. I would suggest that you find a specialist that works with ocd. Mine has helped me so much.
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No problem at all. I hope you get through this. Like I said no one deserves to suffer through this torture.
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That's right we will!! That's gonna be a wonderful day! I cannot wait!
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Woke up this morning feeling so good, then I had this thought of “what if” I touched my son inappropriately last night while I was sleeping. I’ve been dealing with Pocd and I never thought something like this before. A little back ground my son is 5, nonverbal and sleeps next to me every night. For me, I am not much of a deep sleeper. I am somewhat of a light sleeper. Is there someone who has been though this? In what ways can I manage this? TIA
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I had this thought of “what if” I touched my son inappropriately last night while I was sleeping and I don’t remember . I’ve been dealing with Pocd and I never thought something like this before. A little back ground my son is 5, nonverbal and sleeps next to me every night. For me, I am not much of a deep sleeper. I am somewhat of a light sleeper. So I’m up at every little movement he makes or unusual sound. Plus thinking about it if I was too say touch him I wouldn’t know how. I hate that now I have to think about him sleeping separately from me because I would love to cuddle with him and he’s the sweetest boy ever and me thinking I did that is soul crushing. Does this fall within intrusive thought or false memory? Has someone been though this if so I could use some help.
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Just a little side note: I know this post has been made MANY times by me. However, I had a therapist respond to my post today saying that I need to reach out to my therapist on this because the context was not clear. This made me more stressed and ruminate more. It's not the therapist fault; but not I wonder if I'm really the monster. I'm a Christian mom who feels like I've ruined my life. My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt her that I might as well do something else because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it and causing another feeling (I literally had to question what to do during this and the only thing I could come up with was to move my elbow) but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side area. Which caused another groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. Then I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me. PLEASE tell me if I am a monster. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD?
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