So I have been working with exposure therapy for the past couple days and I think it's going good. But I have a question for those that suffer from relationship OCD. Now the thought "I don't love him" isn't about my husband... I'm gonna feel terrible for saying this but it's about my own son. He's my only baby and he's 7. I know deep down I love him more than anything but small things trigger me and makes me think I don't. Like tonight I'm forgetting some good memories and some things I feel like good mothers would never forget. Is this common? I'm freaking out here.

This is common because OCD is a doubting disease. You can doubt everything in your life if the OCD deems it an open spot to attack. It's our brains at war with other regions of our brains.

I also have feelings of not sure if I love my husband and it feels so horrible. I haven’t spoken with a counsellor yet about it. How do I know if it’s rocd or not? Sorry you’re feeling this way!!

Ok I will get a therapist to talk to. Thank you for sharing!❤️

Yes it is torture! We will get better and will look back later on and this will all be a memory.

Yes me too!💜

Ok thank you. Just wanted to make sure this was a normal thing.

I'm so sorry you have to go through this. My therapist told me I will know it's rocd because that's the form of ocd that attacks the most important relationships in our lives. You relationship with your husband is important to you so it may be that causing some distance in your mind. Just like my relationship with my son. I hope you find the help you need and deserve. No one deserves to suffer this way.

Oh ok well that makes sense!! Do you do rituals or anything when you get these thoughts because I don’t do any rituals. That’s what makes me think what if it’s not rocd. Do you have any triggers or are you thoughts just there like always in your mind? I hope you don’t mind me asking you this lol.

Of course I don't mind. Any way I can help. I had rituals but after starting exposure therapy I found out they were doing more damage than helping. I have some triggers like when I'm trying to remember a good memory from when my son was smaller and can't remember or when he's at a sleepover and I feel like I don't really miss him. Those tend to make me think "well maybe you don't love him". If those happen I try to get on here and do a quick therapy session or try to sit with the thought until it's gone. Just sitting with it and watching it fade takes the power away from it. I would suggest that you find a specialist that works with ocd. Mine has helped me so much.

No problem at all. I hope you get through this. Like I said no one deserves to suffer through this torture.

That's right we will!! That's gonna be a wonderful day! I cannot wait!