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- 3y
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I absolutely hate panic attacks that happen with OCD. I get them too where I just have a really hard time calming down once I get worked up. Sometimes sensory things help me like weighted blankets or aromatherapy or a hot shower. OCD is definitely a very lonely illness. I’m sorry you’ve not found anyone to talk with about it but this app should help you feel less lonely/alone! Hopefully anyway. There are a lot of us. :)
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- 3y
This is going to affect my future even if I clean it I’ll always think of the spray on the floor and it being dirty spray to me and my ocd I have alot of strange ocd habits and rituals and other things but I’m trying to describe that My ocd doesn’t like anything but sanitizers and lysols sprays like germ killers and vinegar cause that’s natural but I can’t clean the entire carpet even if I did I no months from now it’ll still be dirty to me to were if I wlk on the carpet and then to the floor my feet are now tracking it threw the house and now I have to clean the house.
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- 3y
If I wlk on the carpet and into my bed it’ll be in my bed so I have to clean the carpet I was just so excited a relieved to be in a clean new place so I could focus on bettering myself cause I’ve been waiting for that for along time cause this previous year I was liveing in a run down camper to help save money for me and my bf there were rats bugs and just dirty I could barely function there so this was gonna be my start to my new life just clean clean everything clean apartment now this bug spray is everywere I’ve never had to deal wit this I’ve never in my entire ocd life felt like I do just panick now panick for the future wat habits is this gonna create will I get a bunch of little rugs and hopscotch across them to avoid touching the actual carpet.
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- 3y
That is a miserable way to live. You need to get a therapist that understands OCD and specializes in ERP. You don't have to continue to allow OCD to control your life. You can break free and take your life back. ERP is not fun or easy, but it works. Recovery IS possible. The longer you go without treatment the worse your OCD will become.
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Heyyy I’m here !
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I’m still panicky I just moved to a new apartment it’s been painted and brand new carpet it made me feel so relieved it was clean and new carpet I don’t make alot of money so I’ve lived in alot of dirtier places so this was a nice change but I seen a couple fleas which do not bother my ocd but they came a sprayed the new carpet and it sent me into a panick and I had noone to confide in that understood wat I mean that the carpet is dirty to me now cause bug chemicals were sprayed on it ppl think I’m just being ungreatful and that I’m mad bout the carpet when really my mental illness is sending me into a panick cause my ocd makes me think chemicals are bad now there on the carpet the carpet is ruined my life is ruined no one understands the pain ocd puts you threw if something messes wit it like if you can’t complete a ritual it’ll literally send you into shock.
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- 3y
I get panic attacks too. They are awful. I have had OCD for most of my life and never knew it until a few months ago.
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I had a horrible panic attack on Tuesday in the ED. Thankfully I was able to get calm with the help of some of the nurses and doctors
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I calmed down enough to rest for a couple hours but I had to get back so I didn’t mess up my schedule my ocd has always been debilitating so I get ssi for it I just moved into an apartment that had brand new everything and that’s perfect for me and my ocd I felt safe in my freshly painted apartment and brand new carpet but they sprayed all of it today for fleas cause I found like 2 fleas nothing crazy but they sprayed bug spray all over my carpet and I don’t like that stuff it’s dirty to me I’ve been here for only a few days and it was heaven but once I seen them spray the entire carpet in bedroom hallway and liveing room I don’t even no wat I can do to clean it so it’s clean to me and my ocd.
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What about a rug shampooer?
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I no I need help I’ve been miserable for along time and I no it’s irrational and I work on little things and tell my self I’m gonna be uncomfortable just sit wit it but this is the first time I’ve felt defeated by my ocd I’ve had to throw things away cause itd be easier than cleaning them cause cleaning is like work the counting the rituals the repetitiveness is mentally exhausting so instead of cleaning like a small object that maybe fell in the trash I’d throw it away cause I’d be to mentally exhausted to clean another thing.
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I just had my bf rent 1 from big lots he told me he went there cause not alot of ppl go to big lots and he thought they’d be the cleanest rentable shampooers for me so atleast he tried thinking of my ocd but I started shampooeing I got 3 little rows done and I panicked thinking bout doing the entire apartment and then doing it a few times once dried and the hours and stress that was gonna bring me to so I froze.
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I was liveing in a not so nice place so moveing here last Friday was a huge relief no bugs no dirty ness freshly painted walls and brand new carpet I felt like this is a gift and a blessing things were looking up I felt relief and happiness cause it was like a brand new place and that makes me happy clean and new makes me happy I found like 2 fleas which I could’ve killed wit a carpet steamer useing the heat to kill more of there were any cause heat kills bugs and eggs and sanitizes wit just useing water no chemicals and bug sprays I just wanna go back and have my bf cancel pest control from spraying here.
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I deal wit my ocd I hide it I don’t speak bout it and I make do I deal wit several different kinds of ocd I no that even when I’m better I’ll always have ocd it’ll just be managed and less life hindering but I still have things I have to do and have done a certain way since I was 14 15 years old I’m use to it I have anxiety and stress I deal wit it threw my ocd and get over it but this is a big deal to me and this never happens to the point we’re I’m in full panick my life my day this apartment is all ruined from this 1 pest control guy is the way I feel.
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Thats not much of a life. You deserve better.
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@Lms526 I no sometimes I’ve been better but my life’s crazy and it doesn’t help my ocd stability I wish I had just 1 friend here wit me last nite prior to this happening I sat in the bathroom and prayed god would send me 1 person wit ocd that could be my friend just someone to tlk to like girls do but bout ocd.
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I just wanted to let everyone no I’m so great full for y’all being nice and not judging me I don’t get that very often I’m very alone and misunderstood even by doctors getting help is hard cause every time I go somewere for help they always tell me they don’t have the resources to help me cause my ocd things are so crazy and wierd I just wanna count stuff and make things even the ocd that ppl stereotype ocd ppl to be.
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I’m still crying I have a headache I feel nothing will help completely make this go away wit the carpet issue I’m just froze and I’m tired but seeing everyone’s suggestions and encouragement and relatability has been uplifting and it’s nice ppl actually read my post I don’t have alot of nice ppl in my life.
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I went to a hospital when I was younger I was so froze I couldn’t do anything they made me sit in the hall for 2 weeks cause I couldn’t do stuff cause of my ocd they didn’t no anyways to treat me then someone helped me starting showering they’d knock on the door every few minutes to let me no the amount of time I had been in there and each day it got less and less till I was showering a normal time amount instead of hours but there wasn’t anyone there that helped me wit other things showering was just hard for me at that moment.
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I went to a hospital again a few years ago and they released me 3 days cause they didn’t have the resources to help me I live in Tennessee close to cookeville and Knoxville Nashville there’s no inpatient program that specifically deals wit ocd there was a place in Chicago I was suppose to go to but that didn’t work out.
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- 24w
I feel awful that I keep coming on here whenever I’m down bad but oh my gosh OCD is the most painful shit that I have EVER experienced in my life and I have a physical chronic illness…. I hate to say it but I hate living right now it’s too painful… im crying as I type to the point where my stomach is hurting, I have pretty severe ocd I do have generalized anxiety and idk if that is connected with ocd but because of that I have most of the subtypes REAL EVENT OCD,POCD,ZOCD,ROCD,SOCD HARM OCD, you name it and I got it!!! a lot of also why I have have those theme is trauma growing up and involving those things^ as of right now i’m 25 and a women with the most loving boyfriend in the entire world before my ocd hit me I NEVER questioned my love and care and attraction with the love of my life I always knew I was going to marry and be with this person the rest of my life! Now with ocd it confuses me soooo much and now I think I’m gay and didn’t realize or indenial and listen I get it “don’t look for reassurance!” “It’s not the thing ocd is attacking that is the problem ocd is the actual problem!” Here’s the thing with that if I’m in a relationship and I’m gay that would mean I would have to leave that said relationship and to say that “oh yeah that stuff happens and you’ll move on” is absolutely devastating to me this is THE LOVE OF MY LIFE and your telling me that iv been lying to myself this whole time or that I didn’t realize?!?!? And that sexuality can change (even though some say it can’t google says otherwise and some people have said it can’t idek anymore) and all this other BULLSHIT I can’t take it WHY?!?! why does this have to happen why can’t I just be with my love the rest of my life?!? and yes before anyone says anything I have been attracted to girls more so when I was younger watching lesbian porn liking the body’s and fantazing them sexually it stopped when I got older but I still don’t get disgusted with women who are pretty it just makes me uncomfortable because I’m with the love of my life and before I remember talking to my partner and discussing certain childhood things I experienced and we discussed that we both could be a little bi and for certain I’m (demi sexual so I don’t even really care about looks) and I truly didn’t care!! NOW I do care even with being bi because again I don’t like thinking about anyone else but my partner but I do also know my parents are homophobic and I do think about if I am gay they wouldn’t be okay with that and I also dont want to deal with that so now I sound like in indenial right?!???? I didn’t even care about labels before my ocd it just didn’t matter but now it’s effected my sex life and it’s hard for me to enjoy sex with being so confused I’m so confused I googled everything can you still have sexual fantasies with same gender but still be straight? Can you fantasize about same gender or imagine marrying them all of it !!! And non of that disgusts me it just makes me uncomfortable AGIAN only bc I just love the partner I’m with right now!!! I’m so fucking confused do I have to leave my partner and accept that I’m gay is that going to happen in the future if I get better with ocd and find out it’s been true all along?!???
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- 20w
I’ve been in an OCD loop for a month now and Im struggling so much alone, no one in my family get what Im going through and are just ignoring me, and I got no friends to tell Im stuck in this cycle and it feels like Im lonely in a dark place, Im writing this right now cuz u guys know the struggle, if it’s okay can u please leave a comment so I don’t feel alone in this, can u please share tips and advice so I can go through this, I feel like Im losing it
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- 10w
Not sure what to say. Just that I am so tired of dealing with OCD - I’ve had it for most of my life and as a 40 something woman, I’m exhausted. I’m tired of being misunderstood and mistreated. I’m tired of seeing relationships that I have dwindle bc my friends and family are overwhelmed with my ruminations and reassurance. I’m embarrassed bc I overwhelm my friends and family with whom I’ve trusted my personal thoughts with and I keep thinking that they can help me through stuff only to be let down. I’ve yet to meet another mind like mines who is complicated but trying to survive because I have children and want to see them grow. I’m tired of feeling defeated because someone took advantage of me and my thoughts. It’s so exhausting but I’m ready to try this because I know I need help. Not sure if this is triggering I’m just ranting bc I’m so lost.
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