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- Rainbow sky!!
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I absolutely hate panic attacks that happen with OCD. I get them too where I just have a really hard time calming down once I get worked up. Sometimes sensory things help me like weighted blankets or aromatherapy or a hot shower. OCD is definitely a very lonely illness. I’m sorry you’ve not found anyone to talk with about it but this app should help you feel less lonely/alone! Hopefully anyway. There are a lot of us. :)
This is going to affect my future even if I clean it I’ll always think of the spray on the floor and it being dirty spray to me and my ocd I have alot of strange ocd habits and rituals and other things but I’m trying to describe that My ocd doesn’t like anything but sanitizers and lysols sprays like germ killers and vinegar cause that’s natural but I can’t clean the entire carpet even if I did I no months from now it’ll still be dirty to me to were if I wlk on the carpet and then to the floor my feet are now tracking it threw the house and now I have to clean the house.
If I wlk on the carpet and into my bed it’ll be in my bed so I have to clean the carpet I was just so excited a relieved to be in a clean new place so I could focus on bettering myself cause I’ve been waiting for that for along time cause this previous year I was liveing in a run down camper to help save money for me and my bf there were rats bugs and just dirty I could barely function there so this was gonna be my start to my new life just clean clean everything clean apartment now this bug spray is everywere I’ve never had to deal wit this I’ve never in my entire ocd life felt like I do just panick now panick for the future wat habits is this gonna create will I get a bunch of little rugs and hopscotch across them to avoid touching the actual carpet.
That is a miserable way to live. You need to get a therapist that understands OCD and specializes in ERP. You don't have to continue to allow OCD to control your life. You can break free and take your life back. ERP is not fun or easy, but it works. Recovery IS possible. The longer you go without treatment the worse your OCD will become.
Heyyy I’m here !
I’m still panicky I just moved to a new apartment it’s been painted and brand new carpet it made me feel so relieved it was clean and new carpet I don’t make alot of money so I’ve lived in alot of dirtier places so this was a nice change but I seen a couple fleas which do not bother my ocd but they came a sprayed the new carpet and it sent me into a panick and I had noone to confide in that understood wat I mean that the carpet is dirty to me now cause bug chemicals were sprayed on it ppl think I’m just being ungreatful and that I’m mad bout the carpet when really my mental illness is sending me into a panick cause my ocd makes me think chemicals are bad now there on the carpet the carpet is ruined my life is ruined no one understands the pain ocd puts you threw if something messes wit it like if you can’t complete a ritual it’ll literally send you into shock.
I get panic attacks too. They are awful. I have had OCD for most of my life and never knew it until a few months ago.
I had a horrible panic attack on Tuesday in the ED. Thankfully I was able to get calm with the help of some of the nurses and doctors
I calmed down enough to rest for a couple hours but I had to get back so I didn’t mess up my schedule my ocd has always been debilitating so I get ssi for it I just moved into an apartment that had brand new everything and that’s perfect for me and my ocd I felt safe in my freshly painted apartment and brand new carpet but they sprayed all of it today for fleas cause I found like 2 fleas nothing crazy but they sprayed bug spray all over my carpet and I don’t like that stuff it’s dirty to me I’ve been here for only a few days and it was heaven but once I seen them spray the entire carpet in bedroom hallway and liveing room I don’t even no wat I can do to clean it so it’s clean to me and my ocd.
What about a rug shampooer?
I no I need help I’ve been miserable for along time and I no it’s irrational and I work on little things and tell my self I’m gonna be uncomfortable just sit wit it but this is the first time I’ve felt defeated by my ocd I’ve had to throw things away cause itd be easier than cleaning them cause cleaning is like work the counting the rituals the repetitiveness is mentally exhausting so instead of cleaning like a small object that maybe fell in the trash I’d throw it away cause I’d be to mentally exhausted to clean another thing.
I just had my bf rent 1 from big lots he told me he went there cause not alot of ppl go to big lots and he thought they’d be the cleanest rentable shampooers for me so atleast he tried thinking of my ocd but I started shampooeing I got 3 little rows done and I panicked thinking bout doing the entire apartment and then doing it a few times once dried and the hours and stress that was gonna bring me to so I froze.
I was liveing in a not so nice place so moveing here last Friday was a huge relief no bugs no dirty ness freshly painted walls and brand new carpet I felt like this is a gift and a blessing things were looking up I felt relief and happiness cause it was like a brand new place and that makes me happy clean and new makes me happy I found like 2 fleas which I could’ve killed wit a carpet steamer useing the heat to kill more of there were any cause heat kills bugs and eggs and sanitizes wit just useing water no chemicals and bug sprays I just wanna go back and have my bf cancel pest control from spraying here.
I deal wit my ocd I hide it I don’t speak bout it and I make do I deal wit several different kinds of ocd I no that even when I’m better I’ll always have ocd it’ll just be managed and less life hindering but I still have things I have to do and have done a certain way since I was 14 15 years old I’m use to it I have anxiety and stress I deal wit it threw my ocd and get over it but this is a big deal to me and this never happens to the point we’re I’m in full panick my life my day this apartment is all ruined from this 1 pest control guy is the way I feel.
Thats not much of a life. You deserve better.
@Lms526 I no sometimes I’ve been better but my life’s crazy and it doesn’t help my ocd stability I wish I had just 1 friend here wit me last nite prior to this happening I sat in the bathroom and prayed god would send me 1 person wit ocd that could be my friend just someone to tlk to like girls do but bout ocd.
I just wanted to let everyone no I’m so great full for y’all being nice and not judging me I don’t get that very often I’m very alone and misunderstood even by doctors getting help is hard cause every time I go somewere for help they always tell me they don’t have the resources to help me cause my ocd things are so crazy and wierd I just wanna count stuff and make things even the ocd that ppl stereotype ocd ppl to be.
I’m still crying I have a headache I feel nothing will help completely make this go away wit the carpet issue I’m just froze and I’m tired but seeing everyone’s suggestions and encouragement and relatability has been uplifting and it’s nice ppl actually read my post I don’t have alot of nice ppl in my life.
I went to a hospital when I was younger I was so froze I couldn’t do anything they made me sit in the hall for 2 weeks cause I couldn’t do stuff cause of my ocd they didn’t no anyways to treat me then someone helped me starting showering they’d knock on the door every few minutes to let me no the amount of time I had been in there and each day it got less and less till I was showering a normal time amount instead of hours but there wasn’t anyone there that helped me wit other things showering was just hard for me at that moment.
I went to a hospital again a few years ago and they released me 3 days cause they didn’t have the resources to help me I live in Tennessee close to cookeville and Knoxville Nashville there’s no inpatient program that specifically deals wit ocd there was a place in Chicago I was suppose to go to but that didn’t work out.
Hey everyone, I’m really struggling right now. Here’s a little backstory. I’ve had extreme OCD since I was 10. I’m 18 now and for the last year I’ve had crippling health anxiety. The first 6-months of my health anxiety was all physical health related like heart attack’s, cancer, tumors, ect. I probably went to the emergencies 10 times and I had 14 EKGS done, 3 Ct scans and a mri. I would go to the er because I was convinced I was having a heart attack at 18. Eventually I got over my physical health anxiety and haven’t been to the emergencies in 6 months. Sadly things have been much, much worse. Now my worries are purely mental health related. I switch between schizophrenia, bipolar and borderline personality disorder, and Dissociative Identity Disorder. Ive been sure that I have every one of these at one point or another. Some nights I’ll be sure I have schizophrenia or someone nights I’ll be worried about bi polar. I was prescribed lexapro a year ago but can never get myself to take it for more that a week. I’m suffering so bad, whenever I try to take medicine I get convinced I’m in mania and end up stopping the medicine. I want to take the medicine, but I get so scared that I’ll go into mania and loose my job and my girlfriend.But I need medicine, I spend hours at night researching mental health conditions. But I’m also a health freak and am into dieting and exercising and I try to tell myself that supplements and a large dose of cbd oil will do the trick that lexapro does. I’ve laid down on my floor convinced that I’m going to go into phycosis. l started experiencing dissociation, which made me start worrying I have DID. Im in a constant cycle of pain. I just want to feel better again. I can’t even go to to public highschool anymore. My senior year was ruined by my ocd. Every day I wake up fully convinced I will go insane. Deep down I know I won’t but I just can’t stop thinking it. Im begging for anyone to give me advice, or atleast for someone to talk to about it. My insta is Triston_keifer if anyone can give me some advice.
Can anyone please confort me? I'm having a really bad panic attack, I can't stop crying and I feel like im losing my mind from the fear. I feel like maybe I should just go to the hospital because it feels so real
sometimes when I read all these posts I just start crying 😭😭 I hate that we are all suffering like this… ocd is not for the weak and its so frustrating 😭 Im really tired honestly… my ocd has its good and bad days but im just exhausted by all of it. I cant enjoy simple things because my ocd has to overcomplicate every little thing and create these “signs” as to what I am and what I am not. Ive had ocd for over a year now im a just upset 😭😭😭 I dont want to live like this forever… I have a lot of people who say, “you can talk to me if you want” and its really sweet 💓 but I dont think anyone can understand what I am feeling because even I cant… I dont know what im doing- how im feeling- who I am- or even what my values are 😭 ocd just makes me question everything. I am a 14 year old girl 😭😭😭 how am I supposed to know what to do? Ive talked mom about my ocd a few times and she tries to help but she doesn’t even understand 1/5th of what I go through daily. I appreciate her caring even if its a little but I just want some help 😭😭 I am a bit scared of therapy though. But im willing to try but im not sure if my mom will let me… Ocd just makes me feel so unlovable. I hate it.
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