- Date posted
- 3y
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- NOCD Alumni
- Date posted
- 3y
Hi Saraa, sorry to hear his asking if you want a break is flaring up your ROCD. Try to remember that no amount of worrying is going to change the future and playing what if games all day about staying or taking a break will never give an answer to your OCD that will satisfy as you know. Understood that he has been there since the start of your ROCD recovery, but since he knows about your ROCD, that is all the more reason why he should not be doing things that he knows would feed into your ROCD and doubt. Saying his flirting is just his personality is a cop-out on his part, especially since he knows how it makes you feel and your ROCD. I’ve been fed that line before, and given I also have some ROCD, I can definitely relate to how you feel. Back to your ROCD, try not to fall into the what if rabbit hole and try to tell yourself that no matter what happens with you two, you will be ok, and you deserve to be happy, truly happy and not just happy some part of the time, be it with him or someone else. Whatever you decide to do, best wishes and stay strong against your OCD as well as in trying to make as happy of a life as possible for you, because we only get one shot. Take care.
- Date posted
- 3y
In no way do you have to feel obligated to my advice but I think that if I were in your shoes I would have another conversation with it about him and express that it makes you extremely uncomfortable and that it hurts your feelings when he flirts with other girls I feel like there is a line that should not be crossed and his attention should be on you. You deserve quality time and it is important that you are honest and tell him your feelings and maybe depending on his answer I would see what choice you would like to take on taking a pause. You deserve to feel loved and confident in your relationship I hope I could be some help to you
- Date posted
- 3y
Hi!! This comment helped me soooo much❤❤ thank you! I had a deep conversation with him (ended like at 3 am) where I told him everything (and cried a lot too). We spoke about our definitions of love etc. And I hope he understood the problem! He told that we could find a compromise, so I hope something change in the future!! You are right, I should put a line. (It's okay obviously talking to other girls, cheering for them etc. But not all that phisical, and most important I hate how if he always is the first asking and helping if they have a problem, because he is always near them! When it is not even doing this with me or his guys friends!! This make me feel sooo unimportant :( Thank you again!!
- Date posted
- 3y
I think you’re right. If he knows this hurts you, he shouldn’t be doing it! You deserve your partner’s full attention.
- Date posted
- 3y
Thank you for your answer and your support💖 I don't want him to change his personal for me either! The problem is that we have 2 different love languages! And 2 definitions of "complicity"! For him complicity and having a strong bond means "thinking the same things, understand each other, having interests in common (we have all that)" For me complicity means "being the first to know what is in his mind, being the first asked by an opinion, searching alway my attentions, helping me with my problems; and wanting my help for his! (We don't have that)" His reasoning is "I already see you all week, when I see my friends, that I see less than you, I give more attentions to them!" But then he will give all the attentions to the girls..
- Date posted
- 3y
He also said that he is okay, if I want/need; to give me some time (as a pause) to let him know my decision tomorrow. And that now triggered my rocd soo bad, because I don't know what to do, and I'm ruminating too much. I started to ask myself "how would you feel if" and now I'm stuck. I know that we have been really good togheter, but I'm really really scared of being hurt again; and the thought "no he will never change, he isn't just the right one for you" is terrifying me :(
- Date posted
- 3y
no offense but I really don’t think he cares. At all. Or at least not nearly as much as you should. You need to leave. Just cut him entirely out of your life and never communicate with him again.
- Date posted
- 3y
@Bookworm91 That's what I thought too, for a lot of time, but he stayed with me even when I was super depressed, he even start the journey with me for my rocd... I hate him sometimes; but I love him too! I can't just let him go, I really can't. Sometimes I want to, sometimes he show me that things can go better, and I'm happy with him. I would love being able of just saying goodbye to him... but I don't know If I want to and I can't:( and I also would hate saying goodbye to him! I'm a little in conflict with myself yes.
- Date posted
- 3y
@Saraa So what? So what if he didn’t leave when you were depressed. I know it hurts to hear this but HE DOESNT CARE. Don’t know why but he doesn’t or wouldn’t do those things that really bother you. What you described is not a little thing. The flirting. But if you’re not going to let him go then you’re going to have to just deal with the pain. And that will be YOUR decision. He won’t change. He doesn’t care.
- Date posted
- 3y
@Bookworm91 Do you all think that I'm doing a wrong thing by staying? I don't think he doesn't care; he would have just left me; or he wouldn't be here trying to find compromises or understanding rocd! Why would he stay; if he is not interested in makes thing better?
- Date posted
- 3y
@Saraa There are some things that shouldn’t be compromised. Him flirting with other people is one of them. Why don’t you try being flirty with other people and saying “it’s just part of my personality” see how likes it. And no to be honest if he cared he’d have stopped it by now.
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- Date posted
- 16w
I’m struggling a ton rn and would love some insight from people. My bf and I broke up bc my OCD got to the point where it was extremely damaging to my exes mental health. We’ve been on a break for the last 2 months while I get therapy and help and he wants to try again in August. We talk everyday and fall asleep on the phone but I’m miserable anxious about what he’s been doing during the break. My mind is flooded with the idea that he might follow new girls on Instagram or he flirting and talking to new girls. It’s KILLING me. I’ve made up an entire situation w no proof. And I’m scared it’s not my OCD talking but a gut feeling. I know we aren’t together but it’s not fair to emotionally invest in each other if he’s not being loyal like I am. I’m just losing my mind and need help honestly.
- Date posted
- 10w
Hey, I really need your opinion – I think I might be struggling with Relationship OCD, and these thoughts are driving me crazy. I’ve been officially diagnosed with OCD, and I believe I also have ROCD. My obsessive thoughts often focus on one specific girl from my boyfriend’s past. She had messaged him a few times, and I think she liked him – but he never liked her back. He barely knew her, never found her attractive, and never wanted anything with her. She’s just a good friend of his best friend – not an ex or anything like that. He told me that he happened to be in the same group as her a couple of times – once at a birthday party and once at a fair – just because his best friend brought her along. He made it clear several times that she’s not his type at all, neither in looks nor in personality. He described her as someone who likes to go out and party a lot, and said that’s just not what he’s into. He also said he didn’t ask about her – these things were mentioned to him before our relationship. Almost all of this happened before we met – except for one thing: the fair. That was just one day before our second date, back when we had just started getting to know each other. She was with his friend group that night. He said he only said hi and bye to her, nothing more. The next day, when we met again, we were talking about his friends’ heights. He casually mentioned that his friend was the same height as that girl – 1.70 m. Ever since, I keep wondering: If she meant nothing to him, why did he even talk about her? Or did he actually talk to her that night, even though he said he didn’t? I know he said they barely exchanged a word, but somehow he still knew that detail. I just find that strange. Another example: He once said she was “kind of slutty.” Then, one or two months later, when I brought it up again, he said he didn’t know if she was or not, and that he didn’t care at all. That really confused me. I keep wondering: Why did he say something like that in the first place if he supposedly doesn’t care about her? I also notice this really frustrating cycle: When I talk to him about something that doesn’t make sense to me, I feel brief relief. But then, almost immediately, another thought or detail pops up that feels “off” again – and I feel like I have to bring that up, too. I can’t tolerate the uncertainty. It’s like an endless loop. These little “inconsistencies” – or what I perceive as inconsistencies – make me spiral, even though I do believe he’s being honest with me. I want to trust him. But I have this constant urge to bring up every little thing that doesn’t feel logically right. Every detail stays in my head for days, and it’s really hard not to talk about it. Does this sound like Relationship OCD to you? Do any of you go through this constant analyzing and doubt? I’d really appreciate your thoughts. I’m slowly ruining my own relationship..
- Date posted
- 9w
Hey, I really need your opinion – I think I might be struggling with Relationship OCD, and these thoughts are driving me crazy. I’ve been officially diagnosed with OCD, and I believe I also have ROCD. My obsessive thoughts often focus on one specific girl from my boyfriend’s past. She had messaged him a few times, and I think she liked him – but he never liked her back. He barely knew her, never found her attractive, and never wanted anything with her. She’s just a good friend of his best friend – not an ex or anything like that. He told me that he happened to be in the same group as her a couple of times – once at a birthday party and once at a fair – just because his best friend brought her along. He made it clear several times that she’s not his type at all, neither in looks nor in personality. He described her as someone who likes to go out and party a lot, and said that’s just not what he’s into. He also said he didn’t ask about her – these things were mentioned to him before our relationship. Almost all of this happened before we met – except for one thing: the fair. That was just one day before our second date, back when we had just started getting to know each other. She was with his friend group that night. He said he only said hi and bye to her, nothing more. The next day, when we met again, we were talking about his friends’ heights. He casually mentioned that his friend was the same height as that girl – 1.70 m. Ever since, I keep wondering: If she meant nothing to him, why did he even talk about her? Or did he actually talk to her that night, even though he said he didn’t? I know he said they barely exchanged a word, but somehow he still knew that detail. I just find that strange. Another example: He once said she was “kind of slutty.” Then, one or two months later, when I brought it up again, he said he didn’t know if she was or not, and that he didn’t care at all. That really confused me. I keep wondering: Why did he say something like that in the first place if he supposedly doesn’t care about her? I also notice this really frustrating cycle: When I talk to him about something that doesn’t make sense to me, I feel brief relief. But then, almost immediately, another thought or detail pops up that feels “off” again – and I feel like I have to bring that up, too. I can’t tolerate the uncertainty. It’s like an endless loop. These little “inconsistencies” – or what I perceive as inconsistencies – make me spiral, even though I do believe he’s being honest with me. I want to trust him. But I have this constant urge to bring up every little thing that doesn’t feel logically right. Every detail stays in my head for days, and it’s really hard not to talk about it. Does this sound like Relationship OCD to you? Do any of you go through this constant analyzing and doubt? I’d really appreciate your thoughts. I’m slowly ruining my own relationship.. Today, for the first time, my partner cried because of it .. I didn’t know how to deal with my thoughts, and seeing him like that made me realize that I really need to change something. Anything that doesn’t make sense to me feels unbearable. And as soon as I talk about one thing, the next thought comes into my head, something else that doesn’t make sense and leaves me feeling uncertain again. I honestly feel extremely helpless right now.. Just as a side note: I was officially diagnosed with ROCD in a previous relationship, not with my current partner, but in a past one.
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