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What we all have to remember is we hold the power over our minds, we hold the power over what we want to respond to, we control our bad habits. We have to recognize that this is just a really drawn out bad habit. Help yourself feel better by knowing that people don’t think about this stuff everyday all day negatively if they truly desire to be a different sexual orientation. If you did, you would be depressed that you can’t get on with your life as a homosexual-you would feel completely different from your heterosexual friends. You would have no desire to be with the opposite sex. You would be thinking about how to come out rather than if I’m this if I’m that. This is self induced, we’ve locked ourselves in mental cages. Let’s uplift one another and know that we can break free from any addiction. We are human, we had some gay thoughts or anxiety that has made us question who we always have been. Don’t neglect your body of work! You have been who you are for numerous amounts of years, you will always be who you are at the core. Your DNA is yours to keep! Keep striving
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I have not been taking drugs only cbt from Last year
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One month, longest month of my life
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It literally came out of nowhere: I had been having anxiety regarding other things and was watching an interview of a openly homosexual man and it sparked a mental maze
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3 months
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Five months with HOCD, started with a kind of good-looking stranger starring at me as if he and I had met before, as if he knew me from somewhere, the starring made me really uncomfortable and later the following days I couldn't get my reaction out of my head and I had to have an explanation, and one was that I was unconsciously gay, and that one stuck.
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5 years.
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5 years
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You know , people usually remember when their hocd started but for me it isn't like that. I remember being about 14 and suddenly thinking that if I watched gay porn that meant I'm gay. But that thought flew away. Next thing I remember is a gay dream , but the worst of all is that it was with my mom, yuck. Then, the thought kept growing, but I didn't accept it. I just knew in the back of my mind that I was afraid of it. I became anxious when watching videos with gay people, I started checking myself out for reactions etc. It wasn't untill my best friend and I had a sleepover. That night , we were sleeping in the same bed and I had an intrusive thought : what if I touch her. Then I had a groinal. The next day my nightmare started. I became conscious of my thought and for the first time aknowledged it
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Since January
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For 10 months
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18 years
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Zilen are u on any type of medication
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And from next week i taste cbd oil..
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5 months.
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I take zolaf for my ocd and anxiety.
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I’ll cut a long story short… SOCD/ HOCD was one of the first themes I got when I was a teenager. The first one was health but I didn’t know that was OCD at the time. Anyway, I have had SOCD for 11 years. Sometimes it leaves me alone and it feels like I’m my own self again! Don’t get me wrong it lingers but I manage. But… IT IS BACK!!! My head is telling me that I am a lesbian and that I need to just admit it. I hate it. I have a boyfriend who I love unconditionally and this has just sprung out of a dream I had -.- I don’t want to be a lesbian! The groinal responses have always been the worst. It started when I was around 16, I woke up one morning and my brain just said ‘you’re a lesbian’, as you can imagine I freaked out, panic attack and cried. Then, my brain starts looking into my childhood… well it’s had a field day. When I was around 9 my friend showed me girls kissing on YouTube and then I suppose I got addicted to it. I then used to play on Habbo and walk up to girls and say ‘kisses’ etc. my brain is now saying that this is evidence that I’m gay. I DONT WANT TO BE A LESBIAN!!! I have no issues with gay people, I just don’t want to be gay myself. Sometimes, when the thoughts come in I don’t seem to get anxious but I get groinals and that freaks me out! I just want peace. I hate this. I get so many different themes. Now it’s this one and I just want to crawl under my duvet, sleep until they’re gone but then I end up dreaming about it!!!
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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