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What we all have to remember is we hold the power over our minds, we hold the power over what we want to respond to, we control our bad habits. We have to recognize that this is just a really drawn out bad habit. Help yourself feel better by knowing that people don’t think about this stuff everyday all day negatively if they truly desire to be a different sexual orientation. If you did, you would be depressed that you can’t get on with your life as a homosexual-you would feel completely different from your heterosexual friends. You would have no desire to be with the opposite sex. You would be thinking about how to come out rather than if I’m this if I’m that. This is self induced, we’ve locked ourselves in mental cages. Let’s uplift one another and know that we can break free from any addiction. We are human, we had some gay thoughts or anxiety that has made us question who we always have been. Don’t neglect your body of work! You have been who you are for numerous amounts of years, you will always be who you are at the core. Your DNA is yours to keep! Keep striving

I have not been taking drugs only cbt from Last year

One month, longest month of my life

It literally came out of nowhere: I had been having anxiety regarding other things and was watching an interview of a openly homosexual man and it sparked a mental maze

3 months

Five months with HOCD, started with a kind of good-looking stranger starring at me as if he and I had met before, as if he knew me from somewhere, the starring made me really uncomfortable and later the following days I couldn't get my reaction out of my head and I had to have an explanation, and one was that I was unconsciously gay, and that one stuck.

5 years.

5 years

You know , people usually remember when their hocd started but for me it isn't like that. I remember being about 14 and suddenly thinking that if I watched gay porn that meant I'm gay. But that thought flew away. Next thing I remember is a gay dream , but the worst of all is that it was with my mom, yuck. Then, the thought kept growing, but I didn't accept it. I just knew in the back of my mind that I was afraid of it. I became anxious when watching videos with gay people, I started checking myself out for reactions etc. It wasn't untill my best friend and I had a sleepover. That night , we were sleeping in the same bed and I had an intrusive thought : what if I touch her. Then I had a groinal. The next day my nightmare started. I became conscious of my thought and for the first time aknowledged it

Since January

For 10 months

18 years

Zilen are u on any type of medication

And from next week i taste cbd oil..

5 months.

I take zolaf for my ocd and anxiety.