- Username
- blue ❤️
- Date posted
- 5y ago
- Username
- weeping willowweeping willow
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I have obsessive intrusive thoughts. They started last November and its completely changed my life in the worst way. I dont feel like myself anymore. I feel like a monster and a horrible mother. I have been trying to treat myself through exposure therapy and through ocd work books but I really think I need to start meds again. I was on paxil and I hated the side effects. I'm thinking of starting zoloft.
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- hanniehannie
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I definitely have been there. I’m not feeling like myself at the moment either. You are not a monster or a horrible mother. Monsters don’t care if they are monsters our not. If you were a horrible mother you wouldn’t think twice or even care. The only reason those thoughts upset you is because you are afraid of being that person. It’s the opposite of you. It’s Just OCD doing what it does best and thats making you doubt yourself. Stay strong?
- Username
- blue ❤️blue ❤️
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I was just putting clothes on after taking my first shower after three days and I looked so sick, so skinny cause I haven’t eat bc of this too
- Username
- hanniehannie
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I definitely do the same. You are not your thoughts. You’re brain just produces them. Kind of like gas?. You don’t have control over it. It just happens. Don’t let it define you. You don’t stress over your random good thoughts and that’s only because they don’t cause you anxiety. You’re thoughts all have one thing in common.They are just thoughts. The only difference is the fear attached to the negative ones. Accept them and let them go. Easier said then done, trust me! I’m living it with you. Just don’t let your brain throw a tantrum. That’s all it’s doing.It’s just reminding you that you don’t like it and it wants you to give in so it can have its way and solve a problem that doesn’t even exists. Stay strong???
- Username
- NamelessNameless
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I'm sorry.
- Username
- weeping willowweeping willow
- Date posted
- 5y ago
When I'm reading books about harm ocd I feel better like ok I'm not crazy! But what is so upsetting is that this all started when I was 34. It's not something I have been living with for years. I have always had anxiety and depression but never intrusive thoughts. I use to see myself as a loving person but now I try my hardest to convince myself that I'm not a closet psychopath even though in my heart I know that I'm not. I'm so conflicted.
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- T.
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Having thoughts like "your thoughts are real... you really are a bad person.... you don't have ocd, you're just using it as an excuse for your thoughts... you were 'diagnosed' by a college counselor, so it's probably not real... you like your thoughts....." and right now I'm able to keep the anxiety down which is good because I have one more class to get through today but I can tell that later I will be overthinking this and probably get extremely anxious. When I get really anxious I can't cry, I don't know why, but then my head tells me "well you're not crying so you're not really upset or worried about it because you're a bad person." Sorry in advance if I go on a posting spree later when this all hits.
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- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Does your harm ocd thoughts ever tell you you want to do the things your worried about? I always worry I’m gonna become a serial killer or just go crazy and kill people. Everytime I worry about this I go no no I don’t want to do that I’d never do that but my thoughts tell me “I do wanna do that I’m an evil person” and “I wanna kill people” these leads me to even more anxiety and I literally burst into tears everytime it’s horrible
- Username
- Nick17
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Doubt
So I’ve been having the same intrusive thoughts since Christmas there’s been some time when it pops up and I say that I’m not that person and I would never do that and I carry on my day which I call a good time but then there’s some bad times when it just sticks in my head and I feel bad inside and guilty and hate myself for thinking of this and idk if it’s me or ocd and whenever say I’m watching a movie or something has my attention then whatever I was doing ends then my mind immediately goes to that thought as if I’m trying to think about it which I don’t want to or that that’s the only thing i can think about. And I worry that this thought will be in my head until I die
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