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I have obsessive intrusive thoughts. They started last November and its completely changed my life in the worst way. I dont feel like myself anymore. I feel like a monster and a horrible mother. I have been trying to treat myself through exposure therapy and through ocd work books but I really think I need to start meds again. I was on paxil and I hated the side effects. I'm thinking of starting zoloft.
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I definitely have been there. I’m not feeling like myself at the moment either. You are not a monster or a horrible mother. Monsters don’t care if they are monsters our not. If you were a horrible mother you wouldn’t think twice or even care. The only reason those thoughts upset you is because you are afraid of being that person. It’s the opposite of you. It’s Just OCD doing what it does best and thats making you doubt yourself. Stay strong?
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I was just putting clothes on after taking my first shower after three days and I looked so sick, so skinny cause I haven’t eat bc of this too
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I definitely do the same. You are not your thoughts. You’re brain just produces them. Kind of like gas?. You don’t have control over it. It just happens. Don’t let it define you. You don’t stress over your random good thoughts and that’s only because they don’t cause you anxiety. You’re thoughts all have one thing in common.They are just thoughts. The only difference is the fear attached to the negative ones. Accept them and let them go. Easier said then done, trust me! I’m living it with you. Just don’t let your brain throw a tantrum. That’s all it’s doing.It’s just reminding you that you don’t like it and it wants you to give in so it can have its way and solve a problem that doesn’t even exists. Stay strong???
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- 5y ago
I'm sorry.
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When I'm reading books about harm ocd I feel better like ok I'm not crazy! But what is so upsetting is that this all started when I was 34. It's not something I have been living with for years. I have always had anxiety and depression but never intrusive thoughts. I use to see myself as a loving person but now I try my hardest to convince myself that I'm not a closet psychopath even though in my heart I know that I'm not. I'm so conflicted.
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- 21w ago
I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.
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I’ve said and done so many hurtful things growing up, especially in elementary and middle school. I was very passive aggressive and mean for a majority of my life, and I’ve hurt peoples feelings. I’m no longer like that now, but every single thing I’ve ever done wrong replays in my head constantly, from the moment I wake up to the second I go to sleep. I know I deserve to feel the chronic guilt and shame, so I feel even more guilty pitying myself. It’s eating me alive, I’m so scared. I know people must hate me, and they have every right to. feel like I don’t deserve to have moments of happiness because I’ve taken that ability away from someone before. I’m not diagnosed, but this has been going on for years and I’m scared to talk to anyone about it because I fear they would look at me differently knowing I’ve hurt someone’s feelings. I feel like a monster. It’s ruining my life and I don’t know what to do.
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