- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I can relate to this so much. During the time my OCD was so severe, I remember my psychologist asking me when the last day was that I didn’t worry about anything and I couldn’t even recall one. OCD would take up all of my day and time. the compulsions, that awful monster enslaved me. you can get through this though and I know your mind is so exhausted and there are times you just can’t keep going but I promise you there is a bright light at the other end. you just gotta keep fighting and we’re supporting you every minute of every day. don’t give your life up to this monster. you deserve the best life possible filled with endless love and happiness. you’re so strong, proud of you ?
It has made me feel like I have done irreversible changes to myself or that Ill never be normal again. Hang in there, it can improve for sure
Keep strong ?
I’m on the same boat. I don’t know if that helps, but you’re not alone ? my ocd has always been severe for the most part. I’ve never really done the right things to treat it, up until now. It requires a lot of effort but I hope I can see results in the near future. You have to be honest with yourself and think about what unhealthy habits, physical or mental, are fueling your anxieties and obsessions. ?
Thank you guys! Means so much to me!!
At times, my intrusive thoughts get so intense that all I can do is lay frozen in my bed and hope I fall asleep, and usually I do even if I'm not tired. My brain just wears me out and I wanna escape through sleep. (Sadly it doesn't work all the time)
I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
My sister is going to a concert and coming back to the house where me and my family live. In my mind her clothes are extremely dirty. And I know her coming back is going to cause a lot of strong contamination thoughts to enter my head. I’m exhausted already from pushing myself and I can’t seem to focus on anything when these thoughts are really strong. I’m in college and this makes focusing on homework difficult. I failed an exam the other day bc I couldn’t stop thinking about what I need to clean and then cleaning. It’s really exhausting.
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