- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 6y
I can relate to this so much. During the time my OCD was so severe, I remember my psychologist asking me when the last day was that I didn’t worry about anything and I couldn’t even recall one. OCD would take up all of my day and time. the compulsions, that awful monster enslaved me. you can get through this though and I know your mind is so exhausted and there are times you just can’t keep going but I promise you there is a bright light at the other end. you just gotta keep fighting and we’re supporting you every minute of every day. don’t give your life up to this monster. you deserve the best life possible filled with endless love and happiness. you’re so strong, proud of you ?
It has made me feel like I have done irreversible changes to myself or that Ill never be normal again. Hang in there, it can improve for sure
Keep strong ?
I’m on the same boat. I don’t know if that helps, but you’re not alone ? my ocd has always been severe for the most part. I’ve never really done the right things to treat it, up until now. It requires a lot of effort but I hope I can see results in the near future. You have to be honest with yourself and think about what unhealthy habits, physical or mental, are fueling your anxieties and obsessions. ?
Thank you guys! Means so much to me!!
I’m curious how many other people experience this! I’ve been diagnosed with severe OCD for 20 years now, about 10 years ago my little OCD brain came up with a series of words. It is saying everyone in my families name and then something negative, and then something positive. Since my brain attached to this series of words, it hasn’t stopped repeating in my mind. Like I said, it’s been 10 years, and this “phrase” is constantly repeating over and over in my head. When it’s finished, it just restarts again. My brain is constantly exhausted since it’s always talking. It’s kinda hard to word this so idk if it’ll make sense to you but let me know if this is something that you might experience as well!
I have pure ocd i think , i always gotta make sure i do certain things like tap things , light switches on n off , shut things few times and re open them till it feels right . Walk in a room go back out and back in out in in till my mind is right Its exhausting
some days I wake up with so much dread and guilt. It makes it so hard to keep going. I open my eyes and I’m hit with a wave of nausea and terror. I feel ashamed of my compulsions and my OCD. I feel like a monster for my checking compulsions. For momentarily sexualizing things that shouldn’t be sexualized out of anxiety. I’m ashamed of a lot that I give into because of anxiety. Confessing things that are meaningless to my boyfriend. I feel so awful and unworthy of existing and of love. I feel hopeless I don’t want to keep pushing, the more I push the more meta my OCD becomes and the more guilt I feel for this mental illness. The more confusing it becomes to do ERP. If compulsions are a choice, they feel like life or death and it’s driving me insane, I beat myself up so badly over them I’m scared of compulsions, I’m scared of thoughts, I’m scared to be awake, I’m even scared of sleeping because my intrusions and compulsions haunt me there too. I spend my dreams trying to explain or justify my OCD and compulsions to people. I’m exhausted, I want this to stop so badly. My severe OCD isn’t feeling any less severe and it’s been months. I don’t want to keep questioning my every move but I’m so hyperaware of everything I do. I’m so tired. Some days I don’t even have tears to cry with. I’m just so full of despair and shame
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