Hi I really need help. I really want to get better and want to work on recovery but I am too scared to look for a therapist. I had a very bad experience before, my family is not really supportive of the idea and I have very graphic sexual intrusive thoughts. I am convinced that it will be so embarrassing and humiliating to talk about this again. But I know that without proper guidance I am gonna have to deal with this forever.. has anybody advice?

the best advice i can give u is to talk to someone. make sure this person will try to understand and help u. make sure this person is free from judgement. it can even be a professional. one bad experience doesn’t mean all experiences will be bad. in fact, it means that no matter what, it probably can’t be any worse. therapy has helped a lot of people overcome mental disorders like this and many others. talking is the best thing for all of us. believe me. hope you’re ok.

Thank you very much every one!❤

I would recommend finding a therapist for OCD. The IOCDF website has a tool helping you to find some in your area: https://iocdf.org/ocd-finding-help/find-help/ Therapists have heard everything, especially OCD therapists. It may be initially embarrassing for yourself, but your therapist will not judge you. Therapists are trained to talk about sex, so it's very normal for them. It might help if you tell them first that you're really nervous to talk about it. But you're right that proper guidance will really help you overcome OCD. Best of luck!

Oh I'm sorry that there aren't any in your area. I know others on here are struggling with the lack of therapists in their area. Here's a link for a workbook that has mindfulness and ERP exercises: https://www.amazon.com/Mindfulness-Workbook-OCD-Overcoming-Compulsions/dp/1608828786/ref=mp_s_a_1_2_sspa?keywords=ocd+workbook&qid=1554778042&s=gateway&sr=8-2-spons&psc=1 There's also a free, online OCD conference this Saturday. You might want to consider registering for it: https://www.ocdeconstruct.com I hope some of these help. It sucks that there aren't OCD therapists readily available in all countries, but I'm hoping that will change one day.

Yes, it has a section on HOCD