Very worried right now that I’m a narcissist! I fear that I only do good things for self gain / because I feel like I HAVE to. And that I don’t actually care about anyone or anything other than myself. Ugh!

although, narcissist wouldnt really worry about being one

ohhh do i relate! my best bet is that youre a very empathetic and caring person, otherwise you wouldn’t feel like this was such a threat. ive felt the same way and my mom had to remind me “uhm duh, youre straight up the opposite??” like, you know? i think pretty much all people on here with ocd are all exceptionally good people. thats why we feel so afraid of being horrible, because its being good and “morally correct” is an integral part of our identities. i know that reassurance for ocd isnt helping at all, but i think its a good thing to know with ocd in general. know that your worries and and horrible thoughts actually come from the opposite. ocd attacks your values

Anna banana, sorry for the notifications! I can see why you’d be frustrated. And thank you for shedding light on my compulsive behaviour. I guess it can be seen as excessively trying to be good to prove the bad wrong. But I didn’t really realise that. It’s just her great to talk to someone who provides an alternative insight! I have Snapchat, Instagram, Twitter or even just iMessage by the way, so let me know why one works best.

It’s been scaring me a LOT

alright guys i cant seem to find a button that makes me able to turn off notifications from specific posts, so if you guys know how please tell me. i advice you guys to get eachother on messenger or snapchat or something like that when you write to eachother every day.im sorry if i seem a little rude, but i am a little frustrated by now. probably none of my business as well, but it seems a little compulsive to write these posts? you both write some very good stories i give you that, but they seem like something to neutralize any bad (theres a very pure spirit in these messages). if not a compulsion and you guys benefit a lot from this, i say go for it! but maybe get eachother on some account where you can private message eachother. sorry for bothering !

i mean i dont know if im all wrong, but the initial worry posted here was about being narcissistic. for an ocd worry to matter, there must be some opposite value behind it, which to me seems is for the both of you the importance of being good and kind. just reading your message its very clear to anyone that you are extraordinarily kind. in the context of “neutralizing any bad”, what i meant was that these messages you send eachother take a form like a compulsion, and when skimming the texts its noticable that they are filled with beauty, kindness and good karma. if i worried a lot about not being kind and good enough, to me it would seem relieving to put out good vibes like these (the text messages). when i mean neutralizing the bad, i mean by writing these to eachother. when telling you guys its mostly to inform you that to me it looks a little compulsive, but if i misinterpreted what it is and it helps you both a lot, then im not one to bother you! whatever helps is good, as long as its not temporary relief from different compulsions. they feel like the cure, but theyre just as much poison as the intrusive thoughts are and the anxiety is. i hope you get what i mean!

wait, thats very relatable to me

a narcissist*

I’m glad I’ve found someone omg! What sort of intrusive thoughts do you have?

like - if i really, truly am caring about someone or im just faking it because its better for my reputation. weird things

Yes exactly! I feel like I only do good things because I HAVE to : because that’s just the expected thing to do

Oops I meant to do a ‘/‘ instead of a ‘:’ haha

yeah, same

It’s so good to find someone that relates