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I understand how you feel, this is truly heartbreaking. I see myself in you, it is soul crushing. But it is NOT REAL. You aren't these thoughts. See it as demon trying to manipulate you to give up your will into your fear. Over time, this will indeed heal. And if you aren't feeling anxious over the thoughts, THIS IS NOT PROOF. You are not what it's telling you. I don't deal in fictitious babbling, I deal in facts, and the fact is YOU ARE NOT YOUR OCD. Do NOT give in. KEEP fighting like your life depends on it. I'm right there with you on this vicious road.

I’m very frigid too. I hate when ANYONE touches me my mom, sister, boy friends/girl friends. I always get uncomfortable when they hug me. I was super cold and not into touching my boyfriend when we first started dating but then it was a weird switch that flipped and it just became second nature. Once you fall in love, it could change. (I still hate when anyone else touches me though haha)

As I always say to you, I have been there but with women. The fact that you are so troubled by the idea of being a lesbian is because in your heart you know what you want. I want to be with women, my brain is saying that I don’t and when I get groinal responses while looking at guys I get hella anxiety but I keep fighting because I know that in my heart I just want to be with women. Ocd is literally a monster, when you get over hocd, your brain will find another obsession to give you anxiety, that’s just what it does. Use your experience with ocd as a tool to help others in the future. Siempre cuenta conmigo okay?

I am sorry my comment was irrelevant haha. I can also tell you guys that I relate to what you are going through. I have been there, not knowing what's real and what is not. I struggle with a different theme, but it's the same crap in the end. I relapsed big time this weekend. Hope we all find our peace of mind. Sending you hugs

No problem, keep your head up, and keep fighting this truly monstrous disease.

This is literally. Word for word. What I have gone/am going through. I’m honestly a little but shocked about the similarities.

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Especially about starting out with obsessive body thoughts and comparisons

Also, I am currently in a relationship with a wonderful man even though as you said before I thought I could never push through the thoughts and do it. Some days are harder than others and I turn to here or my therapist for help. But he loves me at the end of the day and I love him and I know the doubts are trying to take away what I care about most.