I’m actually feeling helpless, depressed, and I feel scared I’m gonna be suicidal. Dealing with manual swallowing. Came far and got off Prozac was killing ocd. Got covid then this came and I’ve been suffering non stop everyday. I just got back on Prozac but everyday I’m suffering. The meds aren’t gonna help and if I can’t accept it I’m fucked. I’m actually trapped
I’m so sorry that you are having to deal with this. I would suggest getting a therapist and starting ERP immediately. Another key part of somatic OCD IMO is working on facing your core fear. This is typically you’re fearful you will be stuck and will not be able to stop thinking about it for the rest of your life, or that there is something wrong with you (example for swallowing would be that you could choke). Hang in there, don’t give up! Getting the right therapy and therapist can be life changing, you can do this!
Yeah I’ve been in therapy and I continue to practice. I’ve been told that medication will help, if not the Prozac, something else. This is solvable my doctor said.
@Anonymous Yes definetly lots of potential meds that could help too. It sucks having to try multiple ones (I got lucky and the first one helped), but it seems some meds work for some and not for others. For reference I’m on 40mg Paxil. Doesn’t help so much with not having thoughts or not doing compulsions, but it helps to keep me from spiraling and having panic attacks so I can do the necessary therapy.
This is very much treatable and manageable. I am so sorry that you are struggling right now- try and remember that you have felt better at times in the past. You can get there again. Sometimes it does take some trial and error before finding the right mediation fit. Continue to work with your prescriber on this. If you are doing therapy, try and ensure that you are doing ERP- this is highly effective with OCD. Best wishes to you. You can do this!
I’m just afraid nothing can eliminate the hyperawareness but my doctor told me that’s not true and be patient
I'm so tired 😭 I've been dealing with severe trans ocd for a month. My ocd is making me worry I'm a trans man. The thing is. I'm already out as nonbinary. I also compulsively confessed to my mom and told her I'm anxious I'll realize I'm a trans man and that I'm scared she'll hate me/abandon me. And she told me she would support me through it and my life even if she didn't understand it and that she wouldn't abandon me. I do like some masculine terms and I like he pronouns, I prefer they/them though. And I don't mind she, but I dont let people use it because I know they'll use it to misgender me. and that doesnt mean im a man. But I also don't know what I actually like/feel or what's OCD making me think I like/feel.. I can't stop ruminating and feeling like I need to label my gender pass nonbinary and think about if I feel like a man or not. So even when my biggest fear was denied I'm still anxious.
I feel awful that I keep coming on here whenever I’m down bad but oh my gosh OCD is the most painful shit that I have EVER experienced in my life and I have a physical chronic illness…. I hate to say it but I hate living right now it’s too painful… im crying as I type to the point where my stomach is hurting, I have pretty severe ocd I do have generalized anxiety and idk if that is connected with ocd but because of that I have most of the subtypes REAL EVENT OCD,POCD,ZOCD,ROCD,SOCD HARM OCD, you name it and I got it!!! a lot of also why I have have those theme is trauma growing up and involving those things^ as of right now i’m 25 and a women with the most loving boyfriend in the entire world before my ocd hit me I NEVER questioned my love and care and attraction with the love of my life I always knew I was going to marry and be with this person the rest of my life! Now with ocd it confuses me soooo much and now I think I’m gay and didn’t realize or indenial and listen I get it “don’t look for reassurance!” “It’s not the thing ocd is attacking that is the problem ocd is the actual problem!” Here’s the thing with that if I’m in a relationship and I’m gay that would mean I would have to leave that said relationship and to say that “oh yeah that stuff happens and you’ll move on” is absolutely devastating to me this is THE LOVE OF MY LIFE and your telling me that iv been lying to myself this whole time or that I didn’t realize?!?!? And that sexuality can change (even though some say it can’t google says otherwise and some people have said it can’t idek anymore) and all this other BULLSHIT I can’t take it WHY?!?! why does this have to happen why can’t I just be with my love the rest of my life?!? and yes before anyone says anything I have been attracted to girls more so when I was younger watching lesbian porn liking the body’s and fantazing them sexually it stopped when I got older but I still don’t get disgusted with women who are pretty it just makes me uncomfortable because I’m with the love of my life and before I remember talking to my partner and discussing certain childhood things I experienced and we discussed that we both could be a little bi and for certain I’m (demi sexual so I don’t even really care about looks) and I truly didn’t care!! NOW I do care even with being bi because again I don’t like thinking about anyone else but my partner but I do also know my parents are homophobic and I do think about if I am gay they wouldn’t be okay with that and I also dont want to deal with that so now I sound like in indenial right?!???? I didn’t even care about labels before my ocd it just didn’t matter but now it’s effected my sex life and it’s hard for me to enjoy sex with being so confused I’m so confused I googled everything can you still have sexual fantasies with same gender but still be straight? Can you fantasize about same gender or imagine marrying them all of it !!! And non of that disgusts me it just makes me uncomfortable AGIAN only bc I just love the partner I’m with right now!!! I’m so fucking confused do I have to leave my partner and accept that I’m gay is that going to happen in the future if I get better with ocd and find out it’s been true all along?!???
I'm having awful stomach pain and nausea and it's really worrying me and scaring me
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