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OCD is the shifty bugger. You are MissLovely ❤️
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I don't feel suicidal at the moment, and I have spoke to my dr about feeling suicidal before, but these thoughts have often made me want to kill myself because it all gets too much
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I’m sorry:( Ik ocd isn’t logical but becoming suicidal over thinking that someone might think you’re a pedo means you’re def not one. Maybe it’d be helpful to give your ocd a face and picture it standing next to you when ur around a kid as a way to visualize the fact that ocd (which is separate/external from you) is the shifty one. So the kid sees you, MissLOVELY, and then some weirdo who isn’t you.
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Re reading this I doubt any child would lie and say someone touched them inappropriately when they hadn't, but what if cause I look so weird they say I don't remember cause they might think I could have in the past cause I look so scared around them, cause I met a pedo once when I was little and now I'm grown up I look back and literally don't know if anything happened when people ask me I say I don't remember
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Suicide is not the answer. OCD is really hard and you are amazing. You are not a pedo and they might just think kids make you uncomfortable!! That’s true for plenty of people no matter their thoughts surrounding kids. It’s the OCD, it’s not truly who you are and I think you know that
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I know I'm not a pedo. I get intrusive thoughts yes, but I'd never act on them that would make me feel violently ill. I know I'm not, I just can't deal with thinking everyone thinks I am. I just never want to be around the youngsters in my family. They always want to be around me tho. But they do pick up on my anxiety and I think they realise it's them making me anxious sometimes cause I always try to sit on a different sofa and they notice. I wouldn't even let them sit on my lap I told them my leg was getting numb but I was scared I was ganna get a groinal response and they'd feel it even though I'm a woman. It's all horrible I hate my head it's hell
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Hi I just have a few questions! (Im 14 btw) Okay so basically I’m really worried I’ll become a pedo/I already am and I don’t know it yet. I’m also really scared if I SA someone, even tho I don’t want to and I’d never do something like that but I feel like this part of me is saying that I will and it’s really scaring me. I feel so alone and I’m so scared I’m a bad person on the inside and this isn’t ocd and I’m gonna unleash hell on this earth I’m so scared. I’ll get a thought like if I’m walking past someone random it will be like “What if you sa them?” And it scares me so bad I feel horrible for thinking that. Is this apart of it? I feel like I’m always fixated on the topic of sa to check if I would do something like that, I don’t know anymore I just feel like a bad person (btw I have not done anything like that to anyone!)
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I hope someone can respond... Im genuinely so triggered and so anxious... Dr disrespect was accused of inappropriately messaging and sending explicit images to a minor, and trying to meet up with them at twitchcon... my POCD is saying that my situation with me venting about 18+ explicit HOCD stuff to people in the PM's on an OCD groupchat I found from NOCD, including the minors, when I was 19, means that I am just as bad as they are... or worse... I pm'ed them from the support group and vented to them in private (including the minors) about my 18+ explicit HOCD struggles... one was uncomfortable by it so i stopped venting to her after she told me she was uncomfortable by it twice... the other gave me reassurance so i kept asking her for reassurance for my 18+ hocd struggles... I dont ever want to ever be attracted to minors in any way... I dont ever want to ever engage in any inappropriate relations with minors in any way... i dont ever want to EVER be a MAP, a P, or a gro*mer in any way... I dont ever want to be what my pocd says about me... im so scared... someone said that I need help, that I need to turn myself in, and that im hiding behind a diagnosis because of this situation... i genuinely feel so hopeless... I dont ever want to ever be a monster...
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- 13w
Youtubers are constantly getting accused of doing p*dophilic activity and its making me think my real events are as bad or as worse as them... Ive vented a lot to a lot of people in the PM's about my OCD... some of them younger (minors)... because I wanted reassurance from everyone and anyone... but this situation triggers me the most because I was venting about my 18+ HOCD situations... In an HOCD support group I was in, I vented to 2 minors in the PM's about my 18+ HOCD situations... The leader of the support group (that i vented to) was 17... I was 19 at the time... the other minor i vented to was younger (14-15)... the younger one told me she was uncomfortable when i vented to her in the PM's twice... i stopped and blocked her after she told me the second time... i kept asking the leader of the support group for reassurance for my 18+ HOCD situations for months because she kept giving me reassurance... i thought she was cute but didnt pursue her because of my age... i dont ever want to ever be a P or a MAP or a groomer in any way... I keep getting this gut feeling in my stomach that i "flirted" with the younger one that I vented to, who i blocked after she told me twice she was uncomfortable about me venting about my 18+ hocd situations... i didnt ever vent to them for malicious intent... I was trying to get reassurance for my hocd... Plus my pocd keeps saying I cant have any opinions online because of my pocd and real events ocd situations and that Im not a good person so I cant say anything online... Also i keep getting intrusive thoughts of people labelling me as a P and a MAP in the future because of these pocd real events... And i keep getting intrusive thoughts of being outcasted and "cancelled" online when someone "exposes" me for my POCD and real events OCD...
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