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- 6y
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OCD is the shifty bugger. You are MissLovely ❤️
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I don't feel suicidal at the moment, and I have spoke to my dr about feeling suicidal before, but these thoughts have often made me want to kill myself because it all gets too much
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I’m sorry:( Ik ocd isn’t logical but becoming suicidal over thinking that someone might think you’re a pedo means you’re def not one. Maybe it’d be helpful to give your ocd a face and picture it standing next to you when ur around a kid as a way to visualize the fact that ocd (which is separate/external from you) is the shifty one. So the kid sees you, MissLOVELY, and then some weirdo who isn’t you.
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- 6y
Re reading this I doubt any child would lie and say someone touched them inappropriately when they hadn't, but what if cause I look so weird they say I don't remember cause they might think I could have in the past cause I look so scared around them, cause I met a pedo once when I was little and now I'm grown up I look back and literally don't know if anything happened when people ask me I say I don't remember
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- 6y
Suicide is not the answer. OCD is really hard and you are amazing. You are not a pedo and they might just think kids make you uncomfortable!! That’s true for plenty of people no matter their thoughts surrounding kids. It’s the OCD, it’s not truly who you are and I think you know that
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- 6y
I know I'm not a pedo. I get intrusive thoughts yes, but I'd never act on them that would make me feel violently ill. I know I'm not, I just can't deal with thinking everyone thinks I am. I just never want to be around the youngsters in my family. They always want to be around me tho. But they do pick up on my anxiety and I think they realise it's them making me anxious sometimes cause I always try to sit on a different sofa and they notice. I wouldn't even let them sit on my lap I told them my leg was getting numb but I was scared I was ganna get a groinal response and they'd feel it even though I'm a woman. It's all horrible I hate my head it's hell
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- 24w
Sometimes I think " do I like kids?" "Would i get aroused if I saw content with kids?""What if I'm a pedo and cant accept it?" "What if I'm ok with these thoughts?" "What if I'm not distressed enough " "What if I enjoy these thoughts?" , i avoid kids as much as i can, i cant look at them bc I'm scared I'm gonna have some groin like response. I keep testing if I'd get turned on or if I'd have some groinal response to sexual scenarios with kids. Sometimes I think that if I took my life this would be over and i wouldn't have to think about this and i wish i doubted something else instead of things like this. I had similar situations just with different topics such as if i loved or found sexually appealing a guy while in a relationship and i kept asking myself those questions for months and i avoided going to school for weeks and when I went I'd cry and have anxiety attacks. I had it with past actions i obessed over and felt the need to exploit every detail and be honest because otherwise i was being a fraud. I had it for sexual things that happened when i was a child. Im not diagnosed with ocd but should i tell this to my local counselor? Can someone help? Give me advice or tell me anything?
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- 21w
Being exposed to taboo p*rn as young as first grade ruined my life and now ocd is making me pay for it. I have so much guilt for being a child/teen and looking at taboo stuff, and it was all fictional or anime or whatever but it was still so so gross. and I didn't realize It because I had been used to it at so young 🫠 I think what haunts me most is when I was a kid/young teen (like 12-14ish) and didn't have access to p*rn I'd imagine stuff similar to what I'd seen in the art. I can't even believe I'd imagine scenarios involving kid characters or whatever because it had been so normalized to me and I assumed it was normal since it was fiction. I'm 23 now so it's been a decade since I've done anything like that and I've never had the urge to since but still. I've NEVER been attracted to kids or had any urges or anything ever, even when I was addicted. The thought makes me want to vomit, I'd rather die than associate anything sexual with kids/minors and I think people who groom or assault kids are vile. But I still feel like the fact that I imagined stuff similar to the things I read sometimes when I was young is proof I'm a p*do. I don't think people would believe me if I said I'm not. I just feel like I don't deserve to live or that if I do, I'm living a lie. I know 'I was a kid too' but even when I was 13/14 I read/imagined stuff with characters younger than me because I thought it was normal. I'm so disgusted. I've had this theme for so long I'm starting to wonder if ocd is right. I feel too ashamed to tell my therapist.
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- 15w
Hi I just have a few questions! (Im 14 btw) Okay so basically I’m really worried I’ll become a pedo/I already am and I don’t know it yet. I’m also really scared if I SA someone, even tho I don’t want to and I’d never do something like that but I feel like this part of me is saying that I will and it’s really scaring me. I feel so alone and I’m so scared I’m a bad person on the inside and this isn’t ocd and I’m gonna unleash hell on this earth I’m so scared. I’ll get a thought like if I’m walking past someone random it will be like “What if you sa them?” And it scares me so bad I feel horrible for thinking that. Is this apart of it? I feel like I’m always fixated on the topic of sa to check if I would do something like that, I don’t know anymore I just feel like a bad person (btw I have not done anything like that to anyone!)
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