Watch his YouTube videos on HOCD has brought me a lot more clarity / I am not here to reassure you but to tell you you must believe that HOCD isn’t you that’s the first step it’s your brain . If you like girls you like girls that won’t change you just need to rewire your brain which isn’t easy . You are not gay or bi etc because if you were it wouldn’t bring you so much distress . Learn that it’s our brain with HOCD not us or our real values
Hey, can you help me i have been feeling a little lost.. I have hocd or so i think.. cause I question everything i was watching Modern family when the character said that they came out in mid twenties or something and got me thinking my age is that what about it?!? Is that what i will do?!? Will i too? But why would i ask this question at all if i know its ocd and not denial i was gonna write denial instead of ocd that could mean something subconsciously right that it actually is denial and not ocd?!? I had thoughts like do i wait till mid twenties will i do something similar but why would i have these thoughts at all unless i think its not ocd and if i have them a part of me believes it could be denial right and if it does there must be proof of it which is why a part believes so what do i do now?!? Knowing that its so there and feels so real and i just wrote all this like that because i know how ocd works and that after posting people will tell me its ocd but no reassurance works for me now cause it’s become more like normal ?!? But if it has then its denial right? What do i do?
Look I can tell you for a fact It’s HOCD , me and you have malfunctioning amygdalas that respond based on our fear . The more you seek reassurance and ask questions am I in denial ? The more your brain will develop pathways . As hard as this may sound your brain is not you and you are not your brain . The thoughts and images feel so real that your brain makes you think they are real . As hard as it may sound try to not fear your thoughts . when you do this your brain won’t see the thoughts as a threat . Let the thoughts pass is won’t be easy for the first days or weeks. but little by little your brain will rewire and won’t be scared of the thoughts so they will go away . Fear and anxiety and malfunctioning amygdala = ultimate confusion . Trust your heart not your mind
@jzepedaa7 With a ocd brain you can feel like you have the solution , but your brain will always try to play games with you . Seperate yourseld from your brain and watch your thoughts . Don’t be a reacter be a watcher . When you start watching your thoughts and believing that your brain is lying to you then you start to see little by little how dumb it is . For example when looking at any man (even one’s that if I was gay I wouldn’t get with lol ) I picture there genitals . Now HOCD or OCD or whatever I know I don’t want to picture that . So what does my brain do ? Avoid it and tell myself (if you are picturing genitals ) you must be gay but it’s all fear induced . I know I’m not attracted to the guys but picture genitals (intrusive images ) which I know don’t align with what I’m truly thinking feeling .
@jzepedaa7 My heart is numb at this point.. the brain feels so strong and the thoughts so real i have forgotten what I believed in and how my heart was the feeling feel confused everything its hard to hold on
@jzepedaa7 But thanks for this gives me some hope:)
@Brave through Like I said step out of your brain and watch your brains thoughts do they align with you as a human ? If not it’s your brain playing
Crazy part is my brain will question and analyze if I ever truly stressed about it
@Sp1999 Seperate yourself from your thoughts
Okay so I have been struggling with HOCD for so fucking long. I never felt like I had crushes on boys growing up but I wasn’t attracted to girls either (this was through 5th grade). Until 6th grade hit. I remember it like it was yesterday. I had the thought walking up the stairs and it was “You’re lesbian.” And ever since that thought was there and I fought it I have been dealing with all types of OCD ever since (been going on for 7 years). And only this year I found it was OCD. But it’s hard because I don’t know if I’m actually gay or I convinced myself I’m gay because I gave up and gave in. Now whenever I see I pretty girl I feel tingling. And I wanted to prove to myself that I wasn’t a lesbian so I look up pretty pictures of girls with their boobs out and I loved it. And I wanna make out with a girl so intensely. But then at the same I don’t wanna be in a relationship with a girl and I wanna marry a guy and I just desperately wanted to be like by a guy. But I get so horny whenever girls are in bikinis and stuff. But I have OCD and I’m so confused.
I’m so exhausted. Been having HOCD since May & had it once before when I was 15 - both times began as me genuinely thinking I was questioning my sexuality, then it became obsessive and that’s when I landed on HOCD. It was more like HOCD that actually questioning. But I will say I do find women attractive, and have always watched lesbian porn & in my mind I guess I do find women’s body’s somewhat sexually attractive. This being said - I have always had boyfriends, always fell for boys and not once have I ever been genuinely interested in a girl or fallen for one. I’m 20 too, so it’s not like i’m only 14. In very open about sexuality and accept everything and everyone, so the idea of being lesbian or bi isn’t alien to me. Some of my friends are gay and lesbian . Earlier this summer I even started coming out to people as maybe being bi, and i was almost pushing that label onto myself to try and accept myself - but it still didn’t feel right and I am still unsure and uncertain. Just want some advice - is this similar to other people’s stories ? Not looking for reassurance, just genuinely wondering wether it is HOCD or maybe I am just abit gay hahaha (which would be okay, just doesn’t really feel right)
I know this might be giving reassurance but an Instagram account ocdrecoveryuk said that in regards to hocd. It can be SO convincing and feel so real. It can even make you feel like you want to kiss or engage in sex with the same sex even though you don't. His words not mine. It just feels good to know I'm not crazy and a professional gets it and understands the struggle of how crippling and real ocd can feel to the sufferer. Also he will be making a Youtube channel soon so for the people that don't have or can't have Instagram he will be making one soon and I'm exciting to watch his videos.
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