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- Date posted
- 5y ago
Im in mid thirties and also had ocd since I was kid. I managed it well overall as an adult. I have an overwhelming fear at times that time is running out. The decision to have children or not is alsi an overwhelming decision I dont feel I can make. My wife thinks she wants too but my hesitation concerns her too. But I cant tell if my hesitation is ocd indecisiveness or real indeciveness. Nostalgic about past even thougu oresent is objectively good. So yea I can related in some ways and also fell into a funk about life lately. Hope you can find way out!
Thank you for posting. It’s helpful to hear that you’ve managed your ocd well in adulthood. I’m hoping one day mine will be easier. I also got married at 22 so I think maybe that has something to do with it as well. I do not regret anything but sometimes wonder if I missed out. Not on partying or doing stupid things, but just being alone as an adult. I think people assume that getting married and having kids will make you happy. And while they bring me tons of joy, there is also great responsibility and that can bring stress too. So I think what I need to do is live in the moment. Love where I am. Enjoy it and not fret about the future or think of the past.
Ashley, I've had OCD since teens and 41 now. It's worse than ever because I have more to lose - nice house, good job, 2 amazing kids and a great wife. Still depressed and anxious, from Pure O to scrupulosity to just feeling 'is this now it?' as they grey hairs appear...
Yes!!!!! That’s exactly how I feel. I’ve been married 12 years and the entire time it’s been “what if he does something to make our marriage break up”. It’s horrible. And I want to be happy!!!
Because you have a great need for certainty - that nothing will change. Have you looked up ROCD?
Yes I have. I go to counseling, I’m starting back on meds. Because my spouse, though not perfect, hasn’t done anything to me to make me believe he would be a pervert/cheater/ pedo/ whatever else I’ve come up with. Unfortunately, I question him, I see “evidence” of things where it’s just something weird but not evidence. I feel like I can’t beat it. Like I can’t trust him like I want to.
The doubting disease...Trust and control, low self-esteem and insecurities used to make me question my wife if she'd been out. But my main theme is me unfortunately, and the things I could have done!!
I hate this. And I understand because I’ve felt that way as well. It’s been a crazy ride and I want off!!!! Gotta keep fighting the good fight for sure!
I have been through a ton of life transitions and I’m worried that I’m having some sort of crisis. Like keep questioning what is it all for? Like why does it matter? I’m in advertising and I don’t really feel Satisfied with the job which is new btw. But I keep connecting my difficulties and anxiety from switching jobs ( not 100% by choice) with life. Like what I’m I even doing? Is there anything that would make me satisfied? I’m googling like crazy to find certainty. I know I shouldn’t. I have my relationship but I’m constantly doubting if I just settled - enter ROCD. My kid makes me so happy but I don’t want my life to revolve around theirs. All my friends are busy doing their own thing so I just feel Disconnected. I’m 41 and I just don’t know what I’m supposed to do. The best part of all of this is that on paper and social media it looks like I have it all. And if I do, why isn’t it good enough?
Anyone else get deeply sad and jealous seeing other people thrive life ? Meanwhile we’re here stuck struggling with our ocd and just mental health in general . I’m envious of what some people are able to do that I can’t :( and I don’t mean it in a hateful envious way , but just a more sad kinda way that I wish I could do stuff they can simply like driving . I’m almost 20 and I know most of ykk have probably seen many of my posts about this , but it truly puts me in a difficult state of mind . I didn’t have mental capacity to do things at younger age:( I missed out on a lot . Seeing these 16-17 year old kids achieve things way more efficiently than I did just makes me feel shitty about myself . Everyone having fun on weekend and I’m not . I don’t have many friends either .
I am 30 something and at time I get into the moods of feeling down and nervous about aging. I know that I am not old (yet) and that there is nothing that can be done about aging, but I cannot help feeling like this at times. I would also worry at time about aging when I was in my 20s. I also understand that there are positives of getting older. Idk, I guess I am just ranting about how I am feeling.
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