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Im in mid thirties and also had ocd since I was kid. I managed it well overall as an adult. I have an overwhelming fear at times that time is running out. The decision to have children or not is alsi an overwhelming decision I dont feel I can make. My wife thinks she wants too but my hesitation concerns her too. But I cant tell if my hesitation is ocd indecisiveness or real indeciveness. Nostalgic about past even thougu oresent is objectively good. So yea I can related in some ways and also fell into a funk about life lately. Hope you can find way out!
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Thank you for posting. It’s helpful to hear that you’ve managed your ocd well in adulthood. I’m hoping one day mine will be easier. I also got married at 22 so I think maybe that has something to do with it as well. I do not regret anything but sometimes wonder if I missed out. Not on partying or doing stupid things, but just being alone as an adult. I think people assume that getting married and having kids will make you happy. And while they bring me tons of joy, there is also great responsibility and that can bring stress too. So I think what I need to do is live in the moment. Love where I am. Enjoy it and not fret about the future or think of the past.
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Ashley, I've had OCD since teens and 41 now. It's worse than ever because I have more to lose - nice house, good job, 2 amazing kids and a great wife. Still depressed and anxious, from Pure O to scrupulosity to just feeling 'is this now it?' as they grey hairs appear...
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Yes!!!!! That’s exactly how I feel. I’ve been married 12 years and the entire time it’s been “what if he does something to make our marriage break up”. It’s horrible. And I want to be happy!!!
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Because you have a great need for certainty - that nothing will change. Have you looked up ROCD?
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Yes I have. I go to counseling, I’m starting back on meds. Because my spouse, though not perfect, hasn’t done anything to me to make me believe he would be a pervert/cheater/ pedo/ whatever else I’ve come up with. Unfortunately, I question him, I see “evidence” of things where it’s just something weird but not evidence. I feel like I can’t beat it. Like I can’t trust him like I want to.
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The doubting disease...Trust and control, low self-esteem and insecurities used to make me question my wife if she'd been out. But my main theme is me unfortunately, and the things I could have done!!
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I hate this. And I understand because I’ve felt that way as well. It’s been a crazy ride and I want off!!!! Gotta keep fighting the good fight for sure!
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Never feels like I can fully put my mind to rest. The problem with OCD for me is once I'm over one worry there's another buried deep into my mind that I'm not fully over. The two events I'm not completely over is when I tried to help a 17 year old with POCD when I was 19 and the topics unfortunately were detailed and even then I explained to them I wasn't comfortable with talking to them. I guess I just had a hard time saying no to someone needing help but it eventually made me so uncomfortable that I stopped talking with them altogether at some point. Then the other thing is being so worried that I committed a crime because my elbow touched someone's behind when I didn't want that to happen at all. I didn't want to listen to my OCD by saying move my arm or something horrible is going to happen so I didn't and then something bad actually did happen. I thought it would just be a light touch while zipping a bag up but then it was worse than I ever wanted it to be and it was so awkward and I hated it. I feel like I just won't be able to get back to the way I was before OCD started all of this. Aside from that I've just had extreme health anxiety but am too afraid to reach out to a PCP even though I need to. Something deep down is telling me I should do this but I'm just so anxious and embarrassed about sharing things to them. I can't even enjoy the things I used to do because this is constantly just messing up my life. I'm hoping I get a start of positivity next time I see my therapist. This just sucks. Feels like others around me are doing so much better than I am and I'm just kind of stuck on these same problems and feeling absolute shame and guilt from the past over and over again. I'm just so sick of dealing with this every single day so I just use escape whenever I can. Even that doesn't really work. I just wish I could go back in time.
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I can’t totally tell if this is an OCD theme or not but I’m shaking and crying and can’t stop thinking about this. I hope that this makes sense, l'm having problems understanding how to explain my emotions anymore because I just don't know what l'm feeling some days, I just don't get it that much. I'm so scared to become an adult. I don't want to not be a kid in every sense of it. I don't feel like I'm an adult at all, it feels like an expiration date in every way. I don't think I have much going for me, l'm not very smart at least I don't think I am. The things I do like don't feel like they are that much to carry me through everything life is going to bring. I feel disconnected from the actual reality l'm living, like I'm just observing it. I just have trouble caring about my future and I have no plans for anything. But time is running out to figure out what l'll do. I would get rid of any of the privileges l'd get at 18 if I could stay at 17 forever. I don't want to loose childhood, I spent my younger years trying to feel smarter than I am and trying to seem like I was mature, but I'm not. I've had really bad things happen when I was young and things I feel like set me back. I don't think I've grown at the same rate as I should have. God I'm so confused. I don't know what to do about it man. No matter how many people I talk to this doesn't stop eating away at me. Does anything I'm saying even make sense? I wish I could stop time so badly. I don't want things to change. I am not ready for it at all.
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Anyone else over 30 and dealing with thoughts that feel debilitating? I know I’m not alone, but I’m curious who else is with me.
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