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Username: Ljc101010

Date posted: 2y ago

I FUCKIN NEED HELP

I have been in a miserable mood for 3 days in a row I can’t feel fine because all my thoughts believe that god want me to convert my religion and although I am very convinced by it and I studied it by heart and whenever i look up smth I believe in it more my inner voice keep telling me no that’s not what god want see you are praying to someone else and my mind focus on signs against my will while there are other signs that comes along with what i want and interpret what I want as if it is from the devil and I feel I can’t trust myself bec it feels liks i ak dispbeying god anyone can help?

Username: dimples4christ1dimples4christ1

Date posted: 2y ago

I understand how you feel. I’ve felt this way myself. I personally had to let go and realize that God knows my heart, knows that I have OCD, and at the end of the day He won’t hold OCD against me. I am going thru some religious OCD myself this last week. It’s so so hard friend. Hugs 🤗

Username: Ljc101010Ljc101010

Date posted: 2y ago

@dimples4christ1 Pray for me💗

Username: ILu ILu

Date posted: 2y ago

Well my OCD does not tell me to convert religion, it’s only obeying his rules basically, or things like “I can’t have a job where I get paid decent because that means I’m ambitious” or thoughts like that. I also associate the bad things happening in my life to God, as if God is allowing them on purpose because I need to learn and be corrected from my selfish ways. The main OCD thought I’ve been battling with currently is the fact that God has called me to ministry and Doesn’t want me to be pursuing a regular career. I almost dropped out of college a year ago because of this. I’ve been trying to remind myself that it’s OCD not God, it’s not about the content it’s about the mental disorder. So that takes away the attention from it a little bit, but I also just found out I had OCD a year and half ago, so I’m pretty new to all the ERP treatment and educating myself on the topic. But we got this!! Stay strong you are not alone 🙏🏼

Username: Ljc101010Ljc101010

Date posted: 2y ago

@Indiralujano Thankyou! You really helped me alot

Username: NOCD Advocate Jess, CPSSNOCD Advocat...

User type: NOCD Alumni

Date posted: 2y ago

I unknowingly went through religious ocd my whole life. Always praying but never feeling like I was good enough or I prayed enough or I prayed right...etc. I finally just made a strong firm decision. I am saved and I am a child of God. And I am going to stand strong and firm in that and be it the devil or my ocd thoughts... I wasn't going to entertain them any longer. So I treated it like not ruminating. So the thoughts would come. I'd acknowledge them with a non engagement response and just let them be there. We have to get out of our heads and into the present moment. Practice some erp around this and dig your way out.

Username: ILu ILu

Date posted: 2y ago

Hey, I honestly don’t know how to help, but I can say you are not alone! I’m going through the same thing. I feel like everything I want/desire is a sin and against Gods will for my life. But what has helped me to cope with it is believing that if it comes with anxiety then that is probably not God.. try to go back to the nature of your religion or beliefs. Or other things that have helped me is saying to my self: “God may want me to do this or he may not, who knows” and living with the uncertainty of weather I obeyed him or not.

Username: Ljc101010Ljc101010

Date posted: 2y ago

@Indiralujano I now fear the thought of what if i don’t feel anxious enough? And UGHH

Username: Ljc101010Ljc101010

Date posted: 2y ago

@Indiralujano And I fear the thought being true!

Username: Ljc101010Ljc101010

Date posted: 2y ago

@Indiralujano It feels as if i know it is what god wants but I just keep ignoring it IT JUST FEELS BAD

Username: ILu ILu

Date posted: 2y ago

@Ljc101010 This is the worse feeling ever 😭😭 aghhh my brain tells me that I know what I’m supposed to be doing to “follow God” but I’m ignoring it. For me is very hard to not engage in mental compulsions because not engaging with the obsessions means that I’m ignoring God and his commands. And then my mind also tells me that I’m making all this up about OCD it’s just the fact that I don’t want to obey God 😩

Username: Ljc101010Ljc101010

Date posted: 2y ago

@Indiralujano JUST THE SAME WHAT A RELIEF!!!

Username: Ljc101010Ljc101010

Date posted: 2y ago

@Indiralujano Does it tell you to convert your religion?

Username: Ljc101010Ljc101010

Date posted: 2y ago

@Indiralujano Or to ever be smth you don’t want it to be?

Username: Ljc101010Ljc101010

Date posted: 2y ago

@Ljc101010 Because mine keep insisting on leaving my religion and i don’t have salvation in it ..

Username: Ljc101010Ljc101010

Date posted: 2y ago

@Indiralujano Or is it only obeying his rules and what did you do to help yourself?

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