Have extreme anxiety from a trigger with my bf and I want to ask him for clarity but I think it’s my ocd ...I’ve been so nauseous from anxiety in my stomach, my body is shaking, I’m feeling like it’s the end of the world
That's the worst. I love how you called out your OCD and you are sitting with the distress/not giving into the urge to ask for clarity. How can you engage with him as the partner you want to be? What would it take to do something kind/with words of affirmation for him INSTEAD of acting on urges?
Thank you!
Ocd makes being in a relationship hard. Everything my bf does seems to trigger somthing . I really feel for you even though it may be different situation.
Thanks! It really does, like words for me can be really triggering like I can twist what he says or get caught up on semantics even though I know what he means or trust him enough to know I shouldn’t worry, how about ?
Any advice ?
I really do care and have been there too
I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
These past few days I was fine. Minimal intrusive thoughts ,no anxiety etc(to add I'm on medication so maybe it's starting to work although it barely is 2 weeks) and today I got a sudden wave of anxiety and it started latching on some thoughts like" what if I'm in denial and I wanna break up with my bf? And what if erp doesn't work for me because I actually wanna break up with my bf?" But they didn't really stay long usually those thoughts would make me spiral for days or so, now they lasted for some hours. And now I'm trying to trigger myself into being anxious again because if I don't it means I don't have ocd and if I don't have ocd it means I don't love my bf and if I don't love my bf it means I have to break up. Idk if it makes sense but the lack of anxiety makes me wonder if I actually have ocd or not.
I'm having awful stomach pain and nausea and it's really worrying me and scaring me
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