- Username
- Anxiousashley
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I don’t accept that and I never will. I won’t rest until I get better! (I don’t rest anyway so it’s cool)
I think accepting the fact that this will be a lifelong journey is a healthy step in the right direction. You’re not giving up. You are choosing to stop fighting it and allowing yourself to acknowledge the facts about OCD and that is super healthy. Good for you!
I have to disagree. Accepting that you will never get better is giving up. Living with your life being controlled by OCD is no way to live and is definitely not a healthy way to live. I fully accept that it may never go away entirely, but I do not accept that I will never get better, and I will continue fighting until I do so. The goal is definitely to get rid of the symptoms (the compulsions, not the intrusive thoughts), and not to accept them.
@pineapple I agree with @ashley85 I’m not giving up. I’m just radically accepting that I may be in the spot I’m in for the rest of my life, and if I can still enjoy and live my life the way I WANT not the way the OCD wants me to then that’s a win. I realize that I cannot control the thoughts my brain gives me but I can control my reaction to them. By accepting the symptoms I’m no longer constantly fighting against myself in my head. I can concentrate on the present moment more this way because I’m not desperately searching for answers all the time. Because the truth is most of my obsessions don’t have answers. And without me constantly interacting with them, hopefully they will fade and get less strong.
Getting better is not fighting against yourself in your head; it is accepting the uncertainty of the thoughts, not fighting them. So it sounds like you are on the right track.
@pineapple I think that accepting that I’m seeing it differently. Im taking it in the way that I may never get better (ie OCD will always be there) but I can choose to accept that it’s here for the rest of my life and I can still be happy. Not that you have to be stuck in your compulsions.
Gosh, at this point, do/think whatever feels like will help get you out of the funk (besides ask for reassurance of course ?)
I’ve honestly given up at this point. I mean, there’s just no way around this. I went to therapy. I’ve been on medication for 8 months. Yet, this topic is still the core of my thoughts every. single. day. It seems like I’m fighting something that’s true about myself. And, maybe acceptance will be the first major step to feeling better. Idk. I feel like maybe I’ve been bi my whole life, but was just focused on guys and now it’s developed into both if that makes sense. Like maybe it was always in me, but I didn’t realize until now. So many bi people talk about this. They talk about feeling ashamed (me too) and always liking one sex before and then it changed. I know I have OCD, but, I’m not sure that this is a subset I have anymore. Everything is too real. I’ll miss the way I was before, but maybe I was never that girl before. It’s time to just accept I guess. No matter how heartbreaking it is.
Every time I get intrusive thoughts these days I just accept them as true without even thinking about it. What does that mean? My ocd is real? I just realized this a while ago but I didn’t even notice this whole week I had been doing that.
So I was driving on home on a highway and I started doing this thing where I start to feel like “is this all real. Am I really driving this car”. Well when this happens all my surroundings becoming overwhelming and a panic attack starts happening. I literally go outside my body, it’s weird. Well. Normally I would start fighting the panic attack off saying in my mind “no no no I don’t wanna go through this!!” Well this time, I said “ah well. Whatever stupid brain. If you wanna have a panic attack oh well can’t stop you and I’ll make it through it like I do all the others.” Y’all. It all just went away. I know it’s not gonna be the last panic attack that strikes, but it just goes to show the more we fight our anxiety, the worse it gets. Acceptance as hard as it is, is key! I hope this helps someone. Hang in there! Xoxo
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