What defines recovery? Felt like I was making progress, then experienced a setback, maybe a “lapse” this week. I realized I don’t know what recovery looks like and what actually defines being in recovery.
Recovery is different for everyone and it isn’t linear. You will experience setbacks but you should notice you’re bouncing back quicker or you feel better equipped to deal with them.
@thrutheweather This is great. Thank you for your response!!
I feel this post to my core. I had a huge setback last week. I look at where I was a year ago and I'm like WTF, I was doing better then! I agree that recovery isn't linear. You will always have bad days here and there because anything and anyone can trigger your anxiety, but now you're better at handling it. I think you have to make up your own definition of recovery. Like, "To me, recovery is having mild symptoms or being symptom free 75% of the month."
I was asking myself this same question. I have had a few minor lapses in the past week but I did find I was able to bounce back quicker and that the distress levels were overall lower. I wonder if that’s something you relate to?
I think also when u start to accept uncertainty a little bit easier with fewer compulsions carried out. This is something I’ve noticed in myself. I might double check a mark I spot on my baby but I instantly know that double checking strengthens my ocd. The distress is lower and I don’t obsess over the mark as much. This morning I wanted to check on a mark on his back, but I said nope and carried on with changing his clothes. So i finally ignored a compulsion which is huge since it became an automatic thing for me. Last night I also felt a new theme possible arising. It was a horrible intrusive thought but I just said yep it’s horrible but it’s just a thought and let it be. I was able to move on and distracted myself with a movie instead.
Last week was a lot easier for me. I felt like thoughts didn’t control me and my actions as much as they did earlier. Today was really hard for me and I feel like I’m starting to lose hope again:( I can’t take the thoughts and the feelings that come with them anymore. I feel like I have failed and I’m never going to be happy again.
I’ve been getting stuck in my understanding of OCD lately. When I have intrusive thoughts, although I have OCD, I’m not supposed to label them as part of my condition? Instead I just say maybe/maybe not? It feels like it takes the wind out of my sails a bit in recovery? Like having cancer, but when I go to chemo, I’m supposed to say “maybe I have cancer, maybe I don’t.” Would anyone be able to speak to this and increase my insight and understanding? Thank you!
My soocd sufferers and recoverers, I have a question! This is my second spiral and while I hade some manageable background noise before, the spiral literally “clicked” into place a few months again and it’s been awful every single day. I’m on meds and doing some light ERP/ACT because my anxiety was so bad I lost so much weight, but I wake up feeling ok and there’s no “click” back to normal. Is there supposed to be like a moment where it’s all over or is it gradual bc if anything I “feel gay” and more accepting of that. Anyone else?
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