falling behind in school

I relate to you a lot. It’s also my second year second semester of college and I am also falling behind. My health is worsening making my anxiety and health OCD worse. It’s hard to look for medical help since it’s so expensive and barely anyone accepts my insurance. I just keep getting intrusive thoughts about my health and I just worry and cry constantly. I also have a scholarship in which I worry about losing. I honestly don’t know what to do, I feel hopeless. I just want to let you know that you are not alone, and even if we are suffering through different subtypes, I understand the college struggles. I hope you are able to find the help you need.

I am so sorry that you are having a difficult time right now. Ocd can be very overwhelming and debilitating. I would highly encourage you to seek help from the counseling services at your school. I would also add that intrusive thoughts are just that and do not mean anything. With ocd our brains are getting a false message that any intrusive thought is an emergency that needs to be dealt with right away. Here is the thing - everyone has intrusive thoughts - those of us with ocd have a messaging system that is telling there is an emergency where there is none. Those without ocd dismiss these thoughts as strange and move on. We need to do extra steps to learn to manage ocd. I am not sure if you are able to set up erp therapy with NOCD but there are also a lot of YouTube videos that can help you better understand ocd and how the ocd brain works. I hope this helps.

Hi, so sorry you are dealing with this. Does your school offer counseling services? Try to set a scheduled time each day every day that’s devoted to school work no matter what. This time is specifically to focus on school and you’ll worry (try to) about ocd later. Just let the thoughts come in and let them say whatever they want. Thoughts do not equal facts.

I’m really sorry you’re going through this. I can relate to this so much, you’re not alone! Recently I had to drop/ take a gap semester for my second term because my ocd and anxiety were so bad and the medicine I was taking for them made me feel like a zombie. I’m trying to find the help I need right now though. Just know that you’re not alone in your journey. You cannot control your intrusive thoughts and they don’t make you a bad person. Having school while battling ocd is so challenging so please go easy on yourself. I hope you can find the help you need and potentially a therapist. You got this, I believe in you! <3