Keepongoing
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- Date posted
- 2y
Admitting?
I think my ocd is making me have an urge to “just admit something”. Has anyone else had this feeling?
Trish1014Trish1014
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Yes, I have experienced this too. It is a compulsion called confessing. It’s where you have this intense need to tell someone something that you did or said. For me it happens usually when whatever it was that I did or said is making me feel bad about myself. Then for me, I want to feel better about myself & my ocd says confessing it to someone will make me feel better. For me it also goes right along with another compulsion, that is reassurance seeking from others. Try to sit with how you are feeling. Allow the distress to be there without doing a compulsion. The anxiety you feel will rise the longer you sit with it, but eventually it will come down on it’s own. You can do it. Your brain will say that you can’t handle feeling the distress you are feeling, but you can. It just takes lots of practice. And lots of having compassion for yourself while you do this.
KeepongoingKeepongoing
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@Trish1014 Can/have you felt a compulsion to confess to your self? Or is it only compulsion confessing when it is to others
Trish1014Trish1014
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- 2y
@Keepongoing For me it is mostly to my therapists over the years. Sometimes it will be like finally admitting it to myself, as well as while I am confessing it too.
Nicolas:)Nicolas:)
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- 2y
Yep, all the time, allthough lately it doesn't feel like an urge, just something I wanted to do, withouth much anxiety
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 2y
Yes I have as well. Since you have soocd under one of your tags and is what I struggle with that mainly its what I can relate to. For me it made me almost come out to my family and it felt that I really wanted to. The thought came into my head again It was scary but I had to ignore it. Funnily enough I imagined a whole scenario in which I did come out to my family and ended my relationship due it . I laughed at it. But yes all in all, it is one of the things of ocd.
KeepongoingKeepongoing
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@Anonymous Thank you for your response! This is the theme I struggle with the most :( Certainly I keep getting stuck in the backdoor spike and the cycle starts again
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