Please help a struggling person This is going to be long and i apologize. Since about 11 I’ve been treated for bipolar disorder and no antipsychotics ever had any effect on me. All made me feel lucid or zombie like. Recently a psychiatrist diagnosed me with ocd and adhd and told me that the two illnesses together can present as bipolar disorder and that’s probably why i was misdiagnosed the majority of my life. I’ve come at a cross roads in my life. I desperately need help but only see my psychiatrist once a month which doesn’t really help. I’m not really a therapy person either. Can someone please help me out and tell me if I’m crazy or if they’ve had similar experiences?? My freshman year i had a 4.0 and was excited at the thought of becoming a med student in the future. Now that it’s summer I’m spiraling. I’m so angry all the time. I won’t let anyone see me or talk to anyone. Im so afraid I’m not good enough and my thoughts consume me. Im constantly worried about the future and have vivid day dreaming episodes of where I’ll end up and how I’m going to fail. I won’t go out and have gained weight and now i constant obsess about my weight and won’t let anyone see me because of what i look like. My thoughts are in patterns and repeat and repeat and won’t go away. I can’t even function anymore. All i do is lay in my bed and think. It’s like a bad movie that won’t turn off. I also won’t allow myself to experience any sort of love connection because I’m terrified of confirming or denying my sexuality. My brain is constant and i feel like there’s nothing that i can do to ever turn it off and feel normal. My intrusive thoughts and starting to become my only thoughts. This panic state has been my state for about 3 weeks now. Can someone give some advice?

I can't speak to all of this, but I'll say a couple of things. If you're having trouble getting out of bed, just focus on it and try to do it, as best you can. Feel good about it, and feel good about the little things. Reward yourself. Also, let people be there for you and help you through this. It's the best way to stay out of your head.

I'm sorry you are going through that. It is really hard, I've been through that too. I don't know why you said that you are not a therapy person. Have you tried it ever, with a good trained behavioural specialist? I am afraid there is no other way out, my friend. You need to find a therapist that feels right for you. You need to reach out to friends and family abd let them know what you are going through, since they are not under the spell of "cognitive distortions" they might be able to think more clearly. There are intensive outpatient programs too in some clinics. It is not a bad idea to take a break from your life for a couple of months and recover and then go back to life - there's nothing shameful about it. It's better than just go on surviving for many years feeling miserable.

My family doesn’t believe in mental health and thinks everything can be overcome through just toughing it out. And i didn’t really vibe with the last 6 therapist I’ve tried the past 3 years. I just need someone to talk to and tell me I’m not crazy. Not do silly papers and such. Feels like a waste of time and is not the way my brain processes things. I tried the same therapist for 4 months once a week and she was a paper person. Just doesn’t work. I need someone to listen and confirm my thoughts and telling me I’m not crazy

You need to reach out to anybody who is more informed about mental health issues. Anybody, it can br a friend, a school counselor, an uncle, etc. YOU HAVE TO DO THAT. - It is fine that you haven't found the right therapist. I went through 5 too and the sixth was the charm. You need to find an expert on anxiety disorders. There is such a thing as "therapist shopping". This person needs to be an ally to you. Now, I can reassure you that you are not crazy(whatever that means) and that might comfort you for a little but eventually your mind will find something else. A sign that you are not losing your mind is that you are in touch with reality and super aware of your challenges. Having anxiety, depression, sadness, shame over our bodies, eating disorders, moody swings, etc. That is completely normal for a human being to have. You are a human just like anybody else. It is O.K no to feel O.K All the time. It is O.K to have mental health issues, that does not make you a crazy person.

Thank you for that. I have nobody and have tried countless times to reach out and that’s inevitably why i downloaded this app. To have likeminded people who understand such a complex illness. I just need validation but that may not be the purpose of this app. So thank you for helping

I don't know if you've tried but what works really well for me is yoga and meditation, really focusing on breathing. I find 9 times out of 10 when I'm in a loop it's because I wasn't breathing much. I tend to breathe shallowly and even hold my breath at times. Also just walking out in the fresh air. Always use this app to talk about an issue or just hear others problems sometimes helps to take your mind off your own.