Anyone else feel like your mind is so trained to react and be scared of thoughts that a thought doesn’t even have to fully form for you to be scared or already know you need to do a compulsion? And then your brain makes something up. Idk how to explain it but I feel like sometimes I’m going insane and it’s freaking me out because my thoughts aren’t full thoughts and they are often so hard to even explain that I’m afraid no one will understand them
OMG I literally understand what you’re trying to say I relate! You aren’t the only one sometimes I already know ima get this intrusive thought or false memory even thought it hasn’t fully formed yet in my brain lol remember we aren’t special 😗😉
I have noticed this recently, it's like my brain has an obsessional narrative ready to go and is just waiting for me to encounter something to set it off, and then it fills in all the imaginary "details" depending on the situation.
@zale Yes exactly !
This is what I’ve been looking for !!!! This happens to me while I’m sleep and has happened to me so I tried to be observant with this to not experience it and it actually happened!!!!! Which ruined my day . So when im in a sleep space and half up it for a second can be very overwhelming , with me is if someone walks pass my room and it’s like ur kinda aware but sleep I’m currently going through harm ocd so when this happened I woke up and I feel ready to compulse not sure how tho it was just a urge to get up and I don’t know if it’s because I feel I have to protect so that’s just the flight or fight response unconsciously how I then went back to sleep I got so angry with myself because I knew very well that my mind will tell me I was going to do something! To harm I tried to ignore it but that alone made me compulse and get up out of my bed to go back to sleep to prove I wouldn’t do anything. It’s just a scary thought of the unknown “ and that’s what bothers me the most cuz now I’m questioning on why did I get up .
I couldn’t explain it but this happened to me I currently am going through harm OCD and this happened while I was sleep. So when someone walked passed my room I heard it I was half way slept but I didn’t get a full thought which caused me to get up slightly which I feel that my brain is so use to reacting and which made me so mad because I knew my mind was going to make me question myself as if I was going to get to do something harmful. But the truth is I don’t know why I kinda got up. Which leaves me to be scared because I don’t know the answer. I tried to ignore it but I had to com-pulse after that one by trying to neutralize my thought and the second by getting up fully getting out of my bed to get back in my bed to prove I wasn’t going to harm anyone. I Coukdnt explain it but when I seen this thread this is exactly it
Anybody else’s ocd get so complicated that you can’t even comprehend the thoughts in your own head, don’t mind trying to explain it to a therapist
How do your “thoughts” come to you? Mine are so random and just pop out of nowhere. I think the feeling I get is the most disturbing part to me. I get chills, my stomach aches and I feel like I’m going to vomit. I get shaky. The fear is so intense and just instantly out of nowhere. What I struggle with the most is the guilt and fear “feeling” and because I’m feeling this I most be guilty or the thoughts are true because no innocent person would feel this. Does this happen to you guys as well?
This is so hard to explain so bear with me. After having violent intrusive thoughts and urges for a long time, sometimes when I'm really anxious I won't get obsessed with a particular thought/urge but moreso all of them combined. It feels like I need to release the urge and just do something. My mind RACES and it's like "do this, do that, so something to release this pent up anxiety" And I get so scared I need to like lock myself in a room or I feel like I need to be in a hospital where I'm restrained to prevent myself from doing one of these things. It's like the disorder has advanced so far that it's not 1 thought at a time anymore, it's like all of them and then some during an episode. Again it's so hard to articulate.
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