So I have hocd and my OCD literally plays games of chance. Like if I don't see a certain car brand in a certain time frame that makes me gay. It's absolutely ridiculous. Just wondering if anyone has experienced this.
i’m sorry this is just so funny, ocd is so silly sometimes. i’ve definitely had moments where i’m like…wtf was that thought i just had?
I know it's so stupid. Like how does me seeing a certain car brand or not make me gay?
Lmao I chuckled at this bc same 💀 if I don’t see a certain word or colour it somehow makes me gay or a bad person? Idek, OCD is so random.
Literally the most dumb shit. Like oh just because I think a guy has good style makes me gay? Or even just looking at any guy that I don't know. Like it's ridiculous. And then, if I'm not bothered by something, I start worrying because of the fact that I'm not bothered. Like what? Lol
Hi. Thanks for starting this. I was actually able to laugh. I am amazed by 2 things. It is very seldom that members here describe their ocd in such details. I find it refreshing and extremely helpful. Usually it's just talk about ocd in general or superficially. Thanks, guys. The second thing is, I high 5 you all, for being able to laugh about the silly bully's intelligence. Maybe as a way of healing, we should start focusing on our inner child and how to heal it (don't ask me how, I've heard of it, but have never tried it or paid attention to it), since our ocd does behave like a hurt, spoiled brat, a little kid demanding all the attention at all times. Maybe if we heal the first, we can make the second grow up and tone down or vanish. Stupid, isn't it it? I just came up with the idea while reading your comments. You all rule!
Thanks! I was actually very surprised at the interaction with this post! I'll have to look into the inner child thing
Hi. Please do. Let us know what you find out and your opinion on it afterwards. I am curious whether it holds any water. I will also try to do some research on the topic and let you know. It would be so great if it actually worked. Keeping my hopes up and fingers crossed. If it doesn't work, maybe we should organize an international kindergarten and send all our ocds there. 😄
Lol yea
@NODA I absolutely love that. Let’s send all our OCD’s to kindergarten together. But I don’t know if we could ever find someone who would be willing to watch the little wretches for us. But yeah maybe they could focus on terrorizing each other rather than us the poor exhausted parents.
@Emma_OCjustdon’t Let's send it to our parents. They can try again 😂 (jk wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy) OCD sucks!
I totally relate to this. OCD likes to make "rules" like if I see "x" then "y". An example for me is that sometimes it'll play a game where if I'm looking out a window and see a car coming, I can't notice what color it is otherwise I'll die. Weird stuff haha.
OCD is so stupid lol
My OCD will freak out about me touching things that I positively did not. Like this morning I was bending over the sink and it was like “IS YOUR SHIRT TOUCHING THE SINK??!!! WHAT ABOUT YOUR NECKLACE????!!!!!” And I’m like “BUDDY there’s like half a foot between the two things. And it’s like “BUT ARE YOU SURE??!!” It is so stupid that it questions things that are so obvious. But yet it can make me doubt them. Like I literally will not be able to say 100% that I just brushed my teeth when I have literal memories of doing it 2 minutes ago and I can still taste a bit of toothpaste in my mouth.
It's so funny. Like it isn't logical at all, and yet we try to use logic and reason to deal with it. It's like a little kid that's really annoying but you can't get to shut up no matter what you tell it
@OCDliestoyou That’s so true! I was literally typing the exact same thing about it being like a really annoying little kid right when your comment popped up
@Emma_OCjustdon’t Makes me so mad lol. Like I know it's my OCD and I know it's stupid, but I still fall for it sometimes
@OCDliestoyou Like the classic little kid thing where they just keep asking the same question into infinity. Like my actual little brother is 9 and does this thing where he’ll ask “what is a… insert whatever you just said” My OCD does that but with the question “but did you/do you?”
@Emma_OCjustdon’t Or the "what if" lol
@OCDliestoyou Yep and I’ll give it all this factual evidence to try and convince myself of whatever it’s doubting. It’s like you said we try to use logic and reason but it’s like a 5 year old and it’s just like “I don’t know 🤷♀️” into infinity.
@Emma_OCjustdon’t Yeah
@OCDliestoyou Like “Is the moon hollow?” It’s like “I dunno?” Like that’s something I honest to goodness can not get it to admit. My OCD will not be convinced without a doubt that the moon is not hollow. Like what the actual f? Lmao
@Emma_OCjustdon’t Makes me feel like I'm going crazy sometimes lol
@OCDliestoyou Yep but it’s not you. It’s just that your OCD is a lunatic lol
@Emma_OCjustdon’t No offense lol. Maybe I shouldn’t say that/speak for you but I know mine is (social anxiety obviously kicking in lol 🙃).
@Emma_OCjustdon’t Said the word lol to many times 😬👀😅 Lol
@Emma_OCjustdon’t Aaaaaaaaanyways I just realized my OCD is like a hardcore conspiracy theorist and also an absolute idiot. I think you could probably convince it that the earth is flat and it would agree (or not disagree) just to really stress me out.
@Emma_OCjustdon’t Lol yeah social anxiety is great.
Not hocd, but your describing my life right now " if God doesn't send me this sign by this time that means I'm going to hell" So fucken weird
I have this with traffic lights. Like if the traffic lights turn green in a set time or countdown in my mind I’m gay. If it turns red before I go through the lights I’m gay. It’s like the petal on the flow she loves she loves me not. Then getting fixated if it is the gay version and it’s I am. It does this sometimes. Just absolutely ridiculous
Lol I had that yesterday 🤣
HOCD, ROCD and TOCD . . . So my OCD recently all began with ROCD, I felt guilty all the time with my boyfriend, I wanted to stay with him so bad and I love him so much but my anxiety kept telling me to leave and that something wasn't right, that I'm going to be alone forever. Then my HOCD came up, "something doesn't seem right, what if you're actually gay?" and I struggled with this for about 2-3 months. After accepting that even if I am gay, I'm staying with my boyfriend.. The theme of being a transgender came up. That was the absolute worst of them all. It was at a time my anxiety was at its Peak so I was feeling disassociated and my mind just tried to explain that feeling as "you're in the wrong body". I was thoroughly convinced I was a man in a girls body for a solid 3 weeks, I woke up and that was the first thing on my mind "your a man and now youre going to lose your boyfriend, your life and everything that makes you, you." I didn't want to be a man, but my mind was saying "too bad, you are". I eventually went to therapy for this feeling, (they didn't diagnose me with OCD so they weren't treating me as an OCD patient) the thoughts eventually went away but now I'm back on my HOCD. Ive now thorougly convinced myself that I'm gay and will be with a woman for the rest of my life. I don't want to be and this thought scares me. I want to be with my boyfriend, not a woman. But my mind is saying "too bad, just accept that your a lesbian, you're in denial, just come out" but I don't want to be a lesbian ? can anyone relate to the feeling of convincing yourself to the point where you believe it?
It all started two months ago when I was making scenarios in my head to fall asleep.. i was imagining myself kissing a man and then it turned into a woman. The moment that happened, I opened my eyes and panicked.. it was complete panic, i started sweating, crying and I couldn’t function anymore. I started asking myself “am i gay”, “i have to come out to my boyfriend”, “i have to come out to everyone”, it was all within the span of 10 minutes… soooo overwhelming!! My mind acted as if I was gay, I lost my sense of identity, I couldn’t even trust myself anymore even when I reassured myself. It was such an awful cycle, to look at any person, a man to make sure i was straight, and a woman to make sure I wasn’t gay… i feel ashamed saying this. If i looked at a woman a certain way, like oh she’s pretty, my mind would say yes u see ur gay. After two months, I imagine any interest with a female stranger as a confirmation of being gay, I’m so nervous all the time, i start sweating and checking for groinal responses (the worst is when the response happens).. i cant afford a session with a therapist now, and i keep saying that i dont have OCD, im in denial, and that one day ill be gay. Can someone offer some insight on wether this sounds like OCD?
I feel so many discussions of SO-OCD revolve around (mostly) straight identifying people fearing they are gay, or the reverse. But has anyone who identifies as bisexual or queer experienced SO-OCD? I am a woman married to a man, and while my sexual orientation has been reasonably fluid since I was in my teens, I have consistently felt a preference for men, and never felt the need to put a label on my identity (including straight) - and I’ve never hidden the fact that I’ve had flings with women. About three years ago I had the “brain broke” moment where I suddenly out of nowhere thought: “I am bisexual, I have been masquerading as straight since I’m married to a man, and I have to come out to everyone I know.” It was all I could think about. The fact that I felt shame accompanying it made me fear that I might be using the term bisexual to cover up the fact that I was actually gay. It particularly messes with my head because OCD is characterised as “unwanted” thoughts, but actually I am occasionally attracted to people of other genders, so these thoughts are not always unwanted. Which makes me wonder whether I am just in denial, and I don’t have OCD at all? And thus the cycle continues… Would just love to hear from anyone else if they relate to this!
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