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On a scale of 1-10, how real does ocd feel? I’m in this state where I feel like I’m in denial. I feel like everything I say in my head are lies. Idk what to do…I need some support
On a scale of 1-10, how real does ocd feel? I’m in this state where I feel like I’m in denial. I feel like everything I say in my head are lies. Idk what to do…I need some support
OCD can feel like a 15 dude 😅. It’s so hard. But no matter how real the emotions may feel. The fact is, it’s not. Scientifically proven it’s all a sham. A big ol lie. OCD is a bully and will use whatever it can to hurt you in the worst ways. Breathe your way thru the anxiety. Face it head on. Be strong. I highly reccommend watching videos on cognitive defusion, that can be such an aid in separating these thoughts and emotions from yourself.
OCD feels like 100 to me. I got admitted once at the hospital because I thought I was going to turn into a zombie that was still alive but will bite everyone (thought I had rabies). It’s silly and funny now but back then I was 100% convinced and admitted myself so I wouldn’t be a danger to others. Got released the next day so it wasn’t as real as I thought it was after all.
Coping tips I use are excercise, meditation, cold exposure (cold baths), journaling, breathing excercises. I highly recommend downloading The Tapping Solution. It’s a guided meditation app that has saved me and pulled me back from rumination and checking. I use visualization excercises to remember that this OCD is not me. Download the Clarity app. It’s a guided therapy journaling app. It’s sooo helpful. Highly reccommend it so much!
Honestly OCD felt like 100 for me too. I thought I was too far gone and couldn’t bounce back from the state I was in. Looking back I can barely remember what happened in the past year tbh bc I was so caught up in my own head. But now, I’ve managed to bring that number down by doing mindfulness, journaling, eating healthier, socializing/getting out often, and taking medication. It’s very debilitating but you can get better and find inner peace again ❤️🩹
@blazed Have you had a positive experience with medication? I am scared to start because I heard it makes some people worse
@Keepongoing When I first take my meds 10mg, I noticed a big difference. My anxiety is lessen and my concentration is better than before. I’m on 30mg now. My doctor said that you would notice a big difference when you first take meds, but the progress gets slower. Personally, the thoughts still feels so real, but I’m able to distract myself by socialising.
@Keepongoing I’ve actually been on a few medications but a lot of them didn’t help bc I was experiencing bad side effects. However, I eventually found the right combination that works best for me, by working through trial and error. It may help some people, but sometimes it won’t; it really depends. Give it a try if you’d like and see how things go from there!
I know I’m not supposed to ruminate but the thoughts feels so real
I need tips on how to cope with this ☹️
Everything feels so real. I think learning about non-offending pedophiles has really screwed with me. I feel like I’m not even doing compulsions anymore like I genuinely cannot remember if I do them or not and the groinal responses are messing with me. I keep having intrusive dreams and I’m in that half asleep state and I feel nothing after that or I feel weird like a good weird, I don’t know. It’s a really weird feeling when I get those thoughts but I don’t like them, I don’t think. All I know is, I keep seeking reassurance and I feel like I don’t have OCD because the way I feel, like the way I get worked up isn’t the same as others. Whenever I try to watch a show, like 9-1-1 or daily dose of sunshine, I feel like I’m watching something I shouldn’t be. Or if I’m just on my phone, I feel like something is going to happen. I feel red flags whenever I’m on my phone, like somehow cp will appear. I know that OCD is the doubting disorder but my god, this is just crazy. I feel like I’m going crazy. Everything is just nonstop, it’s so constant and I’m genuinely scared that I’ll do something when I get out of my room. I don’t know anymore, this whole OCD thing is just making me lose my mind.
I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.
Does anyone know of any rehabilitation centers for mental health? My ocd has gotten bad today to the point where I feel like leaving :( and desperately get help . Ever since I began medication months ago I been feeling fine but all sudden I feel like my episodes are rapidly coming back. I’m more responsive to them. I find myself ruminating more and engaging in compulsions. I feel embarrassed that my family would have to know if I considered making that choice of leaving . It’s never gotten to this breaking point , or at least I don’t think. I’ve been through this a billion times and each time it feels like it’s the worst and it’s gonna be the one that will permanently take over me and my full control. I’m from Elkhart, Indiana. Or if there’s anyone here that can talk to me I’d appreciate it I feel so alone right now and I’m more vulnerable because I’m home alone and I don’t have many friends. I’m scared that I’m gonna lose touch with myself. I don’t wanna lost my values or stop feeling my normal self. It feels real and scary. I want it to stop.
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