I’m really scared I’m getting schizophrenia
:( I’ve been having really loud thoughts in my head that almost feel like voices but I can’t tell if their intrusive thoughts or voices im really scared I don’t want my life to be over
One thing that helped me with this theme of developing or being schizophrenic was to try to stop being so terribly scared of the disease itself. I think so many people struggle with this theme because it’s so scary to think about losing your mind and not being yourself. In reality, many people who actually have schizophrenia lead perfectly normal/functional lives. They drive, have friends, family, enjoy things and carry out normal conversations. A SMALL percentage of people with schizophrenia suffer with severe delusions/psychosis which cause a state of distress and not even realizing they are not in reality. There is no wondering for them if it’s real. In their head it is real, no questions asked. And that sucks, but just like OCD, people with schizophrenia can lead perfectly normal lives with the use of medications, therapy, etc. it’s not an all life ending diagnoses, were you to actually have it. Also- auditory hallucinations (hearing things) is not enough to be diagnosed with schizophrenia. It’s a whole list of criteria that has to be met before getting a diagnoses. Just like intrusive thoughts alone are not enough for an OCD diagnoses.
@taylor1234 See the problem for me is my mom actually had schizophrenia😭😭and she unfortunately was that small percent that couldn’t function well, that’s where my schizophrenia ocd stems from was being traumatized by everything my mom went through, I’m constantly analyzing if I’m getting it. I already struggled a lot with major depressive disorder, anxiety, and OCD😭😭my thoughts feel really weird right now like they aren’t my own it scares me
@Anonymous I relate to this so much omg. My brother and my grandfather both have schizophrenia and I witnessed my brother have his first episode in 2019. It was by far the most traumatic thing I’ve been through and I think has triggered my OCD. I have a constant fear that I will develop schizophrenia like my brother and it’s extremely hard dealing with those thoughts especially while living with him. It’s also hard when google tells me i have a higher chance of getting it from being related to someone with it. 😭But i completely understand what you’re going through. if you ever want to talk about it i’m free
@angeliquerm20 Omg I’m so sorry I can completely relate, every single day I panic 😭😭id love to chat, do you have snap?
@Anonymous yess it’s angel_tho98 !
Hey, I've been there before too. Obsessions about schizophrenia was my second really big obsession (my first was religious and related to possession). I remember one night where I thought I could hear a police siren as clear as day and my wife heard nothing. I curled up and thought for sure I was losing my mind. If you are here it means you are in a place you can get help. Do ERP with exposures. I got to the point where I would watch schizophrenia simulations on YouTube and tell myself I 100% have schizophrenia for ERP. I never in a million years thought I would get to the point where I could do an exposure like that. Schizophrenia used to consume nearly every thought in my head for a couple of years. Now I hardly think about it at all. I know right now it seems impossible, but just know you aren't alone! I know how scary that thought feels. I know how loud your thoughts can seem where you start to question if it's real. Again you are on the right spot. I know exposures can help you. You've got this!
@donaldtf How are you doing now?
@Anonymous Good! I mean I'll still have things creep up. I've had some health related OCD flare up the past few weeks that I'm working through. It'll always be a part of my life but it doesn't feel like it owns me like it used to.
@Deetch That good! My fear is intrusive thoughts about my OCD flaring up and how it’s gonna keep flaring up in my future so I should just end things right now. I hope I’m cured permanently. I’ve had 4-5 flares and I don’t think I can take another one.
Thank you so much for sharing this. I’m literally going through the same thing right now. My thoughts are so loud and I feel such a loss of control for the thoughts that run through my head. Sometimes phrases just replay in my head like if I’m stuck in a loop or random words just pop in my mind and I’m like oh that must mean I’m schizophrenic. Reading the posts above, help me feel hopeful.
@Nicole Bb Yes I have the same exact thing!!!! I’m really confused I can’t tell what it is😅😅I guess racing thoughts??? Idk but it feels kind of like voices because it’s so sudden it Doesn’t feel like my own thought or like random phrases random songs it’s so trippy and weird….
@Anonymous I completely understand this. I found in a few articles that state the average human experiences between 60,000 – 80,000 thoughts a day. That's an average of 2500 – 3,300 thoughts per hour. For me, it gives me the notion that perhaps OCD makes us become more aware of what is going on in our mind. I estimate so because since experiencing OCD I have noticed I am more aware of my surroundings how my decisions affect others but also my thoughts and thought patterns.
@Anonymous How u doing and feeling going thru the same
I'm really tripping on schizophrenia right no, I'm worried that I'm going to hear voices but I don't, also think I'm going to go insane, it's very scary right now for me
okay pretty sure i’m developing this now as it’s been a background obsession for a while. my brain keeps thinking of demons and a white witch coming to get me and i was lying alone in the dark and i keep seeing this white shadowy thing or if i see a glare in some glass or something my brain just says “the white witch is coming for you” and then i get paranoid about it because i feel like it’s something that somebody hallucinating/ delusional would think. and i keep thinking about really scary paranormal stuff which is so scary and then i’m wondering why am i so paranoid and scared about this because i don’t think it’s real but then i get scared saying that thinking it will get mad at me if i say it’s not real, and then i think it’s probably schizophrenia for me to believe this but then i get worried that it’s not and apparently if u pay attention to this scary stuff it comes for you and now i’m scared af. i hate that i used the word “it” aswell cos it makes it seem more real. because i don’t want to say it’s not in case there is something, but i don’t want to even believe this because i think it’s abit delusional and it’s like a PARADOX! and then whenever i start thinking about exsistential things it horrible because it always just goes back to me possibly have schizophrenia or developing it due to thinking weird stuff about the universe and my identity. and it’s bad because someone in my family has it and due to the diathesis stress model it’s more likely to occur when u have a genetic risk and prolonged environmental stress which i obviously have had now for the past 2 years due to harm and sexual related themes literally scaring the shit out of me :((( and i’m not at the age where it develops yet which is the early 20s so basically there’s still a chance and i’m scared now and don’t rlly know what to do cos i have a feeling the gene is triggered and now i’m just waiting for the symptoms to go fully blown and they’re already beginning. and i keep having this horrible feeling my hands are on backwards and it’s so scary and i feel like i’m having sensory hallucinations… and i get alice and wonderland syndrome where everything starts to feel rlly rlly fast (but i’ve had this since i was young, it’s just been abit more often recently) and i’m getting it more often and i’m just terrified that i’m starting to get hallucinations. I’m basically just venting so other people can feel less alone with this, not seeking any reassurance
i was trying to sleep and i randomly got a thought what if im schizophrenic im so scared now im getting really hyper aware of myself and i cant sleep im so scared someone please speak to me or something😥😢
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