- Date posted
- 2y
I feel lost
Hi, my name is Grace and I am a 17 year old. For the longest time my brain has been very hyper focused on little things. I always just thought it was small ADHD because my mom and sister have it. Although, these past two years it has become unbearable. I will be up all night with intrusive thoughts of a variety of things. I always feel wrong trying to figure out what’s wrong because I know some people really suffer from bad OCD. Although, i find myself focusing on small things in life and not being able to stop. For a small example, I play softball and I have to wear my hair up. Although, if there is literally the smaller bump and I feel it, i won’t be able to stop thinking about it. Every. Single. Time. this happens. It’s gotten to the point where I realize I can’t stop thinking about it and try to remind myself it’s not that big of deal, but every time I always end up redoing it. I understand that my hair isn’t a problem, and I can live with it. It’s just that I find it also happening in other circumstances. If something is messed up, i will smack the hell out of myself to forget about it. I know that’s wrong but it’s the only thing that’s helping me. In the end, I don’t even know if this is OCD. It’s might be very light OCD or some sort of ADHD sign but it’s exhausting and I want some things that can help.