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Thank you it’s very helpful. These thoughts have just all felt so real. I appreciate the help.
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It is definitely hocd. And your worries about killing your mum was harm ocd, and that your boyfriend would kill you was harm ocd. But remember that ocd will have you questioning everything and ocd will never let you relax with any decision you make, it will have you question even this comment that I am writing. Ocd will always win, you need to accept the thoughts as just thoughts, and live in the now as much as you can with these thoughts, hope this helped a bit xx
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Ocd makes every thought feel extremely real, ocd is an illness and wouldn't be an illness if it was easy to cope with, sadly xx
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my situation was exactly the same. literally,,,, the exact same. i would give you some advice but everything i would say has already been said!! just stay strong. ocd will try its best to trick you and twist every little thought into so many things that it is most definitely not. just breathe. you’ll get through this.
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This is another intrusive thought like the others, I get them all the time. It feels so real but you need to remember it’s not. OCD will make you think it’s real and make you think you’re crazy, a murderer, a lesbian or whatever. We need to just accept they are thoughts and keep breathing ❤️
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Hey! I’m 15 too! Holla to the ocd teens!! Haha. You’re definitely not alone and it’s definitely ocd. You’re describing it completely. I dealt with harm ocd as a child and I got over that too! You can totally get over this. I did! I’m in so much of a better place now. It’s taken damn hard work, but it’s worth it. I would recommend getting a therapist and to stop ruminating, checking, mentally reviewing, and get out of your head! Practice mediation. Look up some articles on actual denial. Accept the uncertainty that you could be! Live in the moment. Don’t review the past and don’t review what the future could be. You will be okay!
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Thank you for the advice MissLovely. I appreciate it.
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Thank you! It feels nice to know we aren’t alone, but I wish for no one to go through this. It’s such a pain. Stay strong aswell!
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- 23w
I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
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I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?
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- 19w
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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