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- 6y
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- 6y
Thank you it’s very helpful. These thoughts have just all felt so real. I appreciate the help.
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- 6y
It is definitely hocd. And your worries about killing your mum was harm ocd, and that your boyfriend would kill you was harm ocd. But remember that ocd will have you questioning everything and ocd will never let you relax with any decision you make, it will have you question even this comment that I am writing. Ocd will always win, you need to accept the thoughts as just thoughts, and live in the now as much as you can with these thoughts, hope this helped a bit xx
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- 6y
Ocd makes every thought feel extremely real, ocd is an illness and wouldn't be an illness if it was easy to cope with, sadly xx
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- 6y
my situation was exactly the same. literally,,,, the exact same. i would give you some advice but everything i would say has already been said!! just stay strong. ocd will try its best to trick you and twist every little thought into so many things that it is most definitely not. just breathe. you’ll get through this.
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- 6y
This is another intrusive thought like the others, I get them all the time. It feels so real but you need to remember it’s not. OCD will make you think it’s real and make you think you’re crazy, a murderer, a lesbian or whatever. We need to just accept they are thoughts and keep breathing ❤️
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- 6y
Hey! I’m 15 too! Holla to the ocd teens!! Haha. You’re definitely not alone and it’s definitely ocd. You’re describing it completely. I dealt with harm ocd as a child and I got over that too! You can totally get over this. I did! I’m in so much of a better place now. It’s taken damn hard work, but it’s worth it. I would recommend getting a therapist and to stop ruminating, checking, mentally reviewing, and get out of your head! Practice mediation. Look up some articles on actual denial. Accept the uncertainty that you could be! Live in the moment. Don’t review the past and don’t review what the future could be. You will be okay!
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- 6y
Thank you for the advice MissLovely. I appreciate it.
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- 6y
Thank you! It feels nice to know we aren’t alone, but I wish for no one to go through this. It’s such a pain. Stay strong aswell!
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I really need help understanding what I’m going through. For a long time now, I’ve been struggling with thoughts and feelings about women that confuse and scare me. Sometimes I feel this strange emotional or mental ‘pull’ toward certain women — it’s not exactly sexual, and not clearly romantic either, but it feels like something, and it triggers deep anxiety. When I see a beautiful woman or a WLW (woman-loving-woman) couple, I feel something that I can’t explain — sometimes I think it’s just admiration or aesthetic appreciation, but OCD keeps telling me: “You felt something, so you must be gay,” or “You’re hiding something.” I get stuck in endless loops, trying to analyze these moments and label them. Even when I feel physical or emotional reactions, they don’t feel natural or aligned with who I am. They feel like a reaction to the idea of women, not real attraction. I try to be honest with myself — I even told a friend I might be bisexual at some point, just to test if that felt more comfortable. But it didn’t. It made things worse, and I felt like I lost touch with who I am. I don’t want to lie to myself or live in denial, but I’m exhausted. It feels like I’m being mentally forced to feel something that isn’t mine. I’m 14, and I understand that things might still be developing, but I can’t help feeling like I’ve always been drawn to men, and never naturally wanted women that way. Still, I keep doubting everything. Is this real attraction or OCD feeding false feelings and thoughts? Can OCD create emotional or mental sensations that feel like desire? I’m so scared that I’ll lose myself, or find out something I never wanted. I just want peace and to feel like myself again.
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- 9w
So I’m afraid that I have HOCD, but at the same time that I might also be homosexual. Is that possible? I have all the typical compulsions… checking for attraction, analyzing thoughts, analyzing the past, analyzing emotions, searching the internet. Is it really HOCD? When I see anything related to LGBT, I get strongly triggered. Sometimes I observe how my body reacts around people, but most often I check with ChatGPT to calm myself down, although it doesn’t last long—it depends. I also compare myself to other straight women who look like lesbians, or to lesbians who look like they’re straight. I had a phase where I was analyzing my body… whether I have too much hair, whether I have an Adam’s apple, whether I act like a lesbian without realizing it. I also have the typical intrusive thoughts like “did something from the past actually mean something, or is it a sign?” “am I just lying to myself?” “what if I’m in denial?” “what if I’ve ignored signs my whole life and lied to myself?” “what if I’ll never be able to fall in love with a guy?” “what if there are too many signs and proofs and it’s true?” “what if it’s not HOCD at all?” And much more. But now I’m scared that it’s both—that I have HOCD and that I’m homosexual. I’ve cried multiple times because of this and it’s been going on for 7 months. Some days are better, some are worse. And there’s so much ‘evidence’ that I won’t even list now—over these seven months I’ve found so many things from my past and dreams that I feel like there has to be something to it. I’ve also had around four panic attacks because of this. And I truly believe I have HOCD and that I’m also homosexual, which is killing me and it feels horrible. I just want to be sure that im straight and be at peace. When im doubting and thinking that im a lesbian i feel like im not at peace and i hate it. But u feel like i just need to accept it but i don’t want to and i just want to have a boyfriend, kids but im scared that it’s not possible for me because im lesbian and i actually just think that i want a boyfriend but in reality i don’t. Ughhhh help me.
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