PLEASE READ THIS!!! This is for all of you who developed OCD from some form of abuse, bullying and PTSD. I really hope it will help you to shut that disgusting OCDs voice cause it did help me a lot. It took me 27 years to finally realize it is not my fault. I blamed myself for EVERYTHING. Someone accused me of being stupid. I believed it. Someone said I'm worthless. I believed it. Someone accused me of cheating, and guess what? I believed it and developed a false memory OCD. I ALWAYS DOUBTED EVERYTHING ABOUT MYSELF. Through my entire life I strongly beleived I was crazy, neurotic and too sensitive. But, guess what?? After almost a year of suffering from OCD and almost a year of blaming myself, critising myself and hating myself I realized I AM NORMAL!! PEOPLE AROUND ME DECIDED TO MAKE ME THEIR PUNCHING BAG, ABUSE ME AND THEN AFTER I DEVELOPED HORRIBLE ANXIETY BECAUSE OF THEIR ABUSE THEY MADE ME LOOK CRAZY!! I WAS THE ONE SEEING THERAPISTS WHILE THEY ALL CLAIMED THEY'RE "COMPETELY FINE AND NORMAL". All I wanted was love and understanding. Nothing more, nothing less. That was exactly what I gave to them. But it was never ever enough. And with years it left me feeling drained. Like I am just an empty souless body. They took everything from me. I gave my heart, my soul to the people who only wanted more and more and more... This is how I developed OCD. It is conected to PTSD in my case. I wrote this because if anyone here is in a similair situation, please just know: YOU'RE NORMAL. THEY ARE NOT. STOP BLAMING YOURSELF, IT ISN'T YOUR FAULT YOU WERE MANIPULATED AND USED. Your OCD is THEIR VOICE! JUDGING, HATEFUL AND CRUEL! You deserve love, you deserve happiness and kindness. IT. ISN'T. YOU. IT'S. THEM.

If this helped one person I am happy ❤ I still fight, some days are good and some bad, but now that I see it's not me it is a huge relief. And it made my OCD almost completely gone. I send love, light and positivity to everyone suffering and feeling like they're not good enough. YOU ARE. JUST BY EXISTING. ❤

Thank you! Great message to anyone. I’m glad you realised it and now live a normal life. And to anyone else - you’re gonna make it, because you are stronger than your disorder tells you. Just stop listening to it ?

My OCD is linked to abuse, too. It's just so incidious because abuse messes with EVERYTHING. I'm 26 and I play the "normal or abuse" game with some of my closet friends and I've come to realize that I was given a shit start in life and that I didn't deserve it. To the OP and everyone else for whom this is true, please always remember that your abuse was/is NOT YOUR FAULT. You deserve to be loved and cherished no matter how "bad" or "undeserving" you think you are.

Indont know if mine is directly related to abuse but at some point there are so many traumas and triggers I feel like the trauma that most likely set it all off (and then another to set it all off again) was like the straw that broke the camels back. Thank you so much for this post it really helped so much to read

Kaizykat I agree 100%! Abuse can completely change the way you see yourself and the way you feel about yourself. Feeling unlovable is directly connected to abuse ? I know that feeling very well too. I wish you all the best!! ♡ Marsi you're welcome, I'm so glad that it helped! ♡ Abuse destroys self esteem and abuse victims always believe it is theur fault and they did something wrong but that simply isn't true. Low self esteem and constant self doubt is perfect for OCD to morph. I remember always apologizing with and without reason. Abusers really made me believe horrible things about my self, but I wont allow them anymore :)