Triggered after merely seeing a movie.

So I watched Barbie yesterday with my girlfriend. It was okay, a bit strange, certainly a different experience. Ryan Gosling was definitely a scene stealer and I won’t lie he was really funny in the role. Which is exactly what has triggered me. My brain seemingly just jumps to the conclusion of “that means you’re gay” and it’s been doing my head in all day. I’m constantly trying to reassure myself and it’s exhausting. I never rated Ryan Gosling really (this is the first film of his I’ve ever seen) but now every time I so much as see his face anywhere I have an anxiety attack of sorts, it’s just strange man… I never gave the actor a second of thought in the past. Oh well, this is nothing new really… My ocd as of lately has found itself attached to specific people from time to time it’s strange…

Username: zortnorp zortnorp

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

It’s the OCD, not you! And to be fair, Ryan Gosling is handsome as hell! I think most people would feel some confusion about their orientation after experiencing his charm. But recognizing someone’s attraction does not mean you are attracted to them. And even if you are, that does not mean you are gay. You can be straight and still recognize when people of the opposite sex are attractive. I promise.

Username: Sasquatch1Sasquatch1

Date posted: 1y ago

@zortnorp This is helpful thanks :) yeah I’m not afraid to admit when a member of the same sex is attractive, but when OCD flares up it creates a mountain out of a mole hill you know? But thank you for the advice :)

Username: rhaines rhaines

Date posted: 1y ago

I know it’s hard but the key is to stop fighting it. If you see his face and think ‘I’m gay’, simply react by saying ‘so what?’ ‘Maybe I am, maybe I’m not’. And then actively DONT perform the compulsion (probably ruminating or convincing yourself you aren’t gay). Basically you need to accept the possibility that you would find him attractive so that ocd doesn’t see it as a threat and therefore the thought won’t be as frequent/strong. Hope this helps 💜

Username: girlanongirlanon

Date posted: 1y ago

Sounds like you could use this as exposure practice. I get that exact trigger by celebrities sometimes too, and my therapist encouraged me to try and use it to my advantage. It's really tough though sometimes

Username: zortnorp zortnorp

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

*people of the same sex

Username: Spayze

Date posted: 5y ago

Just thought I’d share my story so far with you all and maybe see if anyone’s had similar stuff :) I had been completely straight my whole life. I’m 18 now but had had multiple girlfriends who I was very much into. I was never into guys. I was very stressed for my exams and ended up going to see Bohemian Rhapsody with some friends to chill. After seeing heaps of gay-Esque things in the film the thought popped into my head “what if I’m gay or bi” and then that’s when it started. (This was 3 months ago) I then found myself unable to hang out with my guy friends because every time I saw them I would get anxious I was attracted to them. I moved past this but I’m still constantly having an internal reasoning battle with myself about wether or not I’m into men. I then noticed a huge lack in sex drive towards women as well which scared me because being into women was a huge part of me. I have never been aroused by or enjoyed thinking about men sexually or romantically though this is what the intrusive thoughts were. This leads me to my main point which is porn. I was a heavy porn user before the ocd and I was starting to find Normal straight porn not as good. I had been watching more kinky shit eg step sibling stuff etc. I have watched gay porn multiple times since the HOCD. **potential trigger/ graphic warning ahead** and had finished both times. It happened very quickly and I just felt terrible after. I tell myself that I finished because of just the pure taboo nature of it and it was what the ocd wanted me to do since whenever I’d tried to arouse myself to men in a non pornographic way nothing had ever worked. Also when I was watching I wasn’t particularly focused on like the men themselves like I would with women when I watched straight porn. It was all very traumatising and I have to keep stopping myself from checking again to see if my reaction changes :( I’ve been meditating a lot and I’m about to start ERP on here and with my psychologist (who diagnosed me with ocd) But yeah just was wondering if anyone had anything similar with the porn thing just so I can figure out if it’s denial or whatever :) I don’t think it’s a coincidence with timing either since this all happened during exams.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: aurokoi

Date posted: 4y ago

TW: GENDER OCD Okay, I posted a lil while ago about SO-OCD, but I have recently been suffering Gender OCD too. And unlike SO-OCD, this one is blowing a hole through my heart. I have never once questioned my gender. I’ve helped my trans and NB friends come out, and never once thought about my gender. But ever since my SO-OCD started and then died down, the thoughts about my gender cropped up. They range from two thoughts: I’m nonbinary, or I’m a gay trans dude in denial. And the latter one freaks me out so much, because I love reading queer media (I’m bi, and so many of my fave book series focus on gay couples), and my brain uses that as an excuse that I like it because I actually AM a gay guy. The thought is paralyzingly, and I can’t even begin to think of a way to overcome it like SO-OCD because the thought of me ‘accepting’ it as true scares the hell out of me. I can’t enjoy my favourite books anymore, or my favourite TV shows/movies. Anything with a gay couple makes my brain think I want to literally be one of them, when before I could just enjoy it for what it was, a story with queer characters. My connection to my gender is something I’ve always held dear to me, and the thought of being pulled from it is heartbreaking, and also makes me feel extremely guilty because I support trans rights so much, so why am I so scared of being trans/NB? How do I even begin to get over this when the idea of accepting the thought terrifies me? How do I begin to convince the anxiety that just because I enjoyed reading/watching something doesn’t mean I actually want it to happen in real life?

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 50w ago

Soocd

I can't help but to get really anxious and panic when I'm watching a movie and I see a male that has good looking features. Because it makes me think that if I'm noticing that they are a good looking person. then I have to question my sexuality. Especially when I'm sitting with my girlfriend. I get super nervous because my body reacts with a chill that runs down my skull and hits me in the gut. Then I feel super embarrassed when this happens. I know that I'm not attracted to men because I don't think about them sexually or want anything to do with them in that way. I've had other instances where this have happened in public at my old jobs that I had to leave because ppl think that I must be gay. I'm the straightest gay guy I know I guess. Lol but I was literally tormented and made fun of at those jobs. But it actually gave me a stronger mindset. I also have lots of trigger words that will make me act strange. I just want to live life ! It's been exhausting. I also cannot stop creating the ideas that I'm being cheated on in every relationships and my past relationships suffered and I don't want it to keep happening.

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