Not questioning my sexuality anymore but still getting really gross intrusive thoughts , anyone else have this experience ? I really want them to go away and I’m not sure how to make them stop

I have these kinds of weird thoughts all the time ... I’ve had weird sexual thoughts since I was a kid and used to feel like the dirtiest person in the world. For me it’s been a process of being honest with people and finding out most people have these thoughts they just let them pass by. Usually for me it’s distressing or used to be because it went against everything I morally believe in... so it made me feel nasty and sinful and just gross and I really thought something disturbing was wrong with me growing up...as I’ve studied ocd it makes me feel more normal knowing my mind just has racing thoughts about what normal people think about. Our brains process things differently than someone say without ocd. Know that it’s ok. You aren’t your thoughts. Easier said than done. It can be torturous mentally and emotionally and spiritually .... but I promise if I am better and can make it and now laugh at my thoughts that are pervy or sick or whatever I classify them as.... I just laugh and think lol you can’t control me anymore . And realizing I don’t have to act out on these thoughts and I never have either. Our minds are pretty deep in the thought process and people with ocd are very intelligent ... our intelligence can really make this harder to overcome as we feel threatened by thoughts that mean nothing

Thanks so much guys honestly , I really needed to hear these things. I try to leave them alone but it’s so hard to just let them pass without getting involved I just get so grossed out. I started to worry that because I wasn’t debating my sexuality that it wasn’t even HOCD anymore. I just hate the thoughts so much. Especially the ones that attack my attraction to women, they’re all so crazy. I appreciate all of you and hope we all overcome this someday !

Just let them be and don’t reassure yourself they will slowly go away

Don't try to fight back or do anything to speed up the disappearance of thoughts. They'll go away on their own, in their own time.

I didn’t finish one of my thoughts lol if I can make it you will too.