- Username
- Reptile
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Is this an exposure exercise from your therapist? Of it is, asking for reassurance here makes the ERP exercise pointless. Response prevention is equally if not more important than the exposure. Sit with the uncertainty about what all of those feelings may or may not mean. If not, it sounds to me like what you’re doing is a pretty torturous compulsions: testing yourself with pictures to see if you have a reaction. And it’s one that will never give you the answer you want or reassure you in any lasting way. It’s just feeding the obsession and I’d encourage you to stop.
That's ocd for you... Ocd will do anything to "accuse" you of what your obsession suggests, to go so far even to make you feel fake arousal/feelings/thoughts /mental images just to scare you even more than you already are.
It's most likely because your anxious you might find them attractive
I’ve gone down that route and it doesn’t help. My heart raced, but not erection..eventually got bored... But that won’t be good enough..you’ll have to test yourself more and more. Just like “pureOlife” says..it’s just feeding your obsession. It’s better to just not go there at all and live your life...your sexuality will be clear just by living...you didn’t have to focus this hard to figure out you were straight right?
I know it’s not attraction, because the feeling is absolutely horrible. It’s that “what if” that gets me.
If** it is
Just dont stress about it
POCD TW I was scrolling through Instagram and saw a picture of a little girl and suddenly I had the urge to kiss or touch her or something it scared me a lot and I started scrolling faster to get away from it BUT I felt a groinal response and it felt SO real like butterflies and twitching and itching and everything maybe even vaginal lubrication and I had the urge to masterbate and scrolled back to make sure I don’t desire this and I felt calmer when I didn’t feel anything looking at her again but I still feel anxious and kinda aroused during the day thinking back to the situation I don’t know what to do it feels so real the urges and everything ?
Intrusive thoughts of looking up guys doing explicit things and it’s making me feel like I’m going to do it when I dont want to... 😞😞😞
I often get images of disturbing things in my head rather than having a fear that I’d do something to someone else. Does anyone else experience that? Like I’ll have a flash of people’s privates and then it sends me into a panic and I have to move quickly 😞
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