I’m really just starting to believe my thoughts. Being with a girl doesn’t bother me anymore. But does that mean I’m lesbian now?? I’m at a point where I don’t know what I want. I’m still with my boyfriend and I don’t plan on leaving him. But I’m thinking to much right now I’m sweating. I don’t know what to do anymore. Is this normal ? To not feel any disgust towards the same sex thoughts? Like if I like it or something. Has anyone gone through this? Please answer I’d appreciate it.

I’m not going to try and give you any reassuring ideas because that will make this so much worse. I have gone through the same thing over and over now because it is more or less a sigh of you overcoming your ocd. Sexual images and being with woman will pop into my head and sometimes I just say what the hell ever, I know that’s not true Jan (the name of my intrusive thoughts no offense to any Jans). But then I’ll get into that loop of thinking oh no I’m not worried enough! This is another thing ocd will do to you. It will make you obsess over the fact you aren’t worried enough. You could think over and over again how this could make you a lesbian, but if you thought over and over again about being a tree would that make you a tree? No it wouldn’t. So my advice is to do your best to just let the thoughts roll by, tell ocd that you’re not being it’s slave again today, tell it that those thoughts don’t bother you. You know the truth and ocd knows the lies. One thing I’ve noticed is I’m not so much bothered about proving ocd I’m right, I already know I’m right. I find that most times I’m trying to prove to myself that I’m wrong and ocd is right, but that’s not right because ocd is wrong.

Thank you all so much! I can’t help but cry now. I’m balling tears, when will this end. Because it just scares me that the thoughts just don’t seem so disgust me anymore. As if I like them. I get scared because I just want them to stop. I just want to be happy again and not worry about this. I hope this is normal to feel. I don’t want to be lesbian. I appreciate all your replies.

We all are scared in a lot of moments. This is not a pretty road, but you'll never be alone.

I don't want to reassure you, but I think it's pretty common. Sometimes when I'm very tired of hocd, it also happens. I also think you have a panic attack , so please do some breathing exercises, it will really help you. Ali Greymond just uploaded a video about breathing exercises, so please watch that video.

If it doesn’t scare you anymore, then it’s just that. It doesn’t mean that you’re becoming a lesbian or revealing that you are one, you’re just getting more used to uncertainty. I know it’s scary but once you become comfortable with what you fear, you get bored and then eventually, the thoughts don’t have power over you anymore. Although you are straight or want to be, the goal isn’t to be straight necessarily, but be comfortable with uncertainty. I hope this helped

Saaaaame. Nine months on this shit and still have the pop ups of women in my head. This is like a virus.

Thank you, I hope you all get well soon. This is a pain.