Hello there. I haven't been on here for a while as I have been free from my ocd. However the last few weeks I have had it creeping back. A person who I thought was a friend turned out to be absolutely vile and has preyed on my ocd to try and make me ill again. She has told friends about my ocd who never knew about it....fortunately these friends have looked it up and completely understand. My ocd wont however let me stop thinking about what she said to my friend and I am obsessing about this horrible vile person and what she has said to others who dknt know me that well. It is bringing my 'p' ocd to the forefront of my mind again. I know it is my thought processes but throughout my life I have always worried what others think about me and this person knew that. She has lied and lied and has said I am this terrible person with a black heart. I know I am certainly not but I still cant stop worrying what she has said to someone who hardly knows me. I know this shouldn't bother me but it does. Is this my ocd working overtime? She said that people laugh at me and call me loopy louise which I know they dont but I really dont caring they do because I laugh at it to. But because I had the very disturbing paedophile thoughts she said to someone that I think I am a peado. This friend told me straight away and has since fallen out with this awful person. But I cant stop thinking about this constantly and what others might think who dont really know. This person I have since found out after 25 years of knowing of her has actually been a terrible person to her children when they were growing up and stole thousands of pounds off of vulnerable people. I dont know why this is bothering me as all of my friends who care about me know about my ocd and understand. I just cant seem to get this horrible person out of my mind. It didnt bother me until she tried to bully me and then sent all of the texts I sent her years ago when I divorced my husband. He told me he knew she was nuts but it bothered me when he said she said some disgusting and vile things about me. This has so upset me. Just wondered if anyone can give me any advice . Btw my ex lived with my ocd for years! Thanks for listening. Just need some support from others with this horrible disorder. Xx

I hope you’re able to completely cut this person out of your life. I’m not sure why they chose to attack you like this but clearly they are in need of some serious mental health treatment themselves. I’m sorry you have been outed in this way for your mental illness. It must be incredibly difficult to manage the emotions that come with such an invasion of privacy and it would be difficult for anyone, not just those with OCD. This person had no right to discuss or reveal anything about your mental health to others. If they had a genuine concern for children because they misunderstood your illness, there were certainly better routes to take to ensure no one was endangered. But as we all know, people with POCD are not in fact dangers to anyone, except maybe themselves and their own happiness. At this point I’d probably take a proactive approach with any friends or family members she has talked to. Rather than letting rumors fly, gather up some resources and have a conversation with each. Explain your diagnosis, how you’ve sought treatment, and share some articles with them about your illness. If you’re willing, you can offer to be open to follow up questions, but you can just end it by saying you’d rather not discuss a very painful aspect of your mental health recovery any further. I’m so sorry this happened. I hope your support system helps reinforce that you’ve done nothing wrong here.

wats happening - - thoughts - anxiety - trying to solve the thought to end anxiety - wasting time + more anxiety - endless trap wat to do - - thoughts - anxiety - focus on breathing - mind is on breath hence its calm - intruding thought is still there but anxiety is missing, hence the thought is powerless & u can see that it does not even need ur attention. - keep focusing on breath.. - the thought might never go away or go & come back...but whatever happens its none of ur business anymore... (incoming of the thought is reminder to go back to focusing on breathing). how to focus on breathing : wen u inhale - say 1 in ur mind & focus on the inhaling process. wen u exhale - say 2 in ur mind & focus on the exhaling process.

Thank you so much. Xx

Thank you so much for your reply. Everyone who knows me knows I have ocd and what type so i suppose that wasn't the issue. This person even helped me when i was going through a bout of it this year but she has now decided to mock me because of my mental health. She was supposed to be a friend but in fact was the complete opposite and found it necessary to try and hurt me and bring on my ocd again. She is completely and utterly out of my life and i will never be fooled into letting her back into my life like I did when I lost my mum 2 years ago. I hadn't spoken to her for a few years as she told me she had cancer and had 5 years to live....it was all a lie. She certainly needs help. I am comfortable knowing that I have ocd and that my dearest friends and family know about it. They all completely understand it and realise how I have suffered over the years. I just feel utterly betrayed and humiliated really by this person. She also owes me money. She entered back into my life when I was at my most vulnerable. I WILL NOT allow this very sad person make me ill like she obviously wanted to. I am just a very sensitive person who worries what others think about me! Part of my ocd ! Thank you once again for your kind words. It helps me immensely knowing that there are other people out there with the same symptoms and I dont feel so alone. I have read the book by bryony Gordon and she had exactly the same ocd symptoms u get from time to time. It's just a shame that some simple and ignorant people thinks it's fun to mock others. Oh...and she is a carer to vulnerable people.....unbelievable! Thank you once again from the bottom of my heart. Xx