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It’s called compulsive heterosexuality!! A lot of LGB people tend to go through it for many reasons: denial of ones sexuality is one of the biggest ones. Having said that, @Ocdsufferer123 that doesn’t necessarily mean this applies to you!! Humans naturally read things and think “oh shit, is this me?” Without it really being so!
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Compulsive heterosexuality is usually done willingly, either as a result of internalized homophobia or because the person hadn’t come to terms with their identity yet. I think in the case of OCD it’s followed with compulsive behaviour which compulsive heterosexuality usually doesn’t have- so someone with HOCD would check various articles to see if they’re straight or not, or get reassurance that they’re straight.
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Literally me
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What’s the difference between compulsive heterosexuality and ocd?
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The thing is that I’ve been through both instances as a bisexual woman. When I was in complete denial I would boast about every single Male crush in order to prove to myself and others that I was straight. The thing is that I did genuinely like those guys, I just felt the need to blow my attraction out of proportion. Because of that, now I’m wondering if those crushes were fake from the beginning and if I’ve been using being bi as a stepping stone with realising it :/
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From one bi person to another; it’s fine if you find out they are. In the end, they aren’t “fake”, this was just you learning who you are! Not to mention we have these bouts of fear sometimes you know?
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Ya :// a lot of my bi friends complain about it too because everyone is so eager to box us. Its the uncertainty that really makes me anxious, because when it comes down do it, I don’t think I’d really care if I was a lesbian. It’s the ‘what if’ that keeps pestering me even though the fact that I like both genders isn’t really that deep
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Also it’s the fact that I wasn’t aware that bi people could also experience compulsive heterosexuality until like right now so oop-
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God yea, the whole « you have to pick one” bullshit is probably a factor in any ocd symptoms and possibly even a trigger. I rlly hope you figure things out eventually!!
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Thankss!! Bi erasure is really triggering for me. It’s so nice to meet other lgbt ocd sufferers. Like recently when I found out that one of my gay friends had the same theme about being bi or straight. It’s nice to know you’re not alone. This disorder is so isolating :/
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It really is...
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Wait...I’ve done that sometimes when I’m reassuring myself @PinkDinosaur. Like boasting about every male crush I’ve had. Does this mean I’m bi like you?
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Not necessarily. At the time my friends used to tease me that I was a closeted lesbian because the topic always made me really flustered (I wasn’t out as bi at the time). I was deliberately trying to prove that I wasn’t a lesbian to myself and them. Ironically, now they tease me about being the most likely to end up straight so, I guess you can’t really win haha.
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So, you always knew you were bi? Since what age? @PinkDinosaur
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13
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I didn’t always know. I had small crushes on guys as a child but I didn’t start caring about romance until my teens. I realised I was bi when I realised I liked a girl in my year.
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So I identify as a lesbian and I am in a committed relationship with a wonderful girl. But i’m stressing that I have crushes on boys I go to school with. I get anxious around them, which I think I mistake for excitement. I obsess over it in my head which confuses me a lot. Idk I also never think about them sexually or romantically but I think about them often which is scaring me. Any advice?
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I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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As a lesbian with SO-OCD, I feel so helpless. It's truly exhausting because no one I know understands what I'm going through. The first response is always, "You're just confused" or "You don't have to know yet." But that's not the issue, I do know. I just never see any lesbians with SO-OCD so I feel so invalidated. These thoughts flood my brain constantly, forcing me to analyze my reactions to every man I see. I feel trapped in an endless cycle of "testing" myself, trying to prove that I don't like them. But my brain fights back, telling me I do want to love a man, making it feel real even though don't want it. It's terrifying. At this point, it's hard to even hold onto my identity as a lesbian because I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if this is what real attraction is supposed to feel like, and that fear eats away at me. The truth is, when I think about being with a man, all I feel is disgust and fear-but my brain twists that into doubt. I hate it. I'm at the point where I'm scared I'm going to have to accept something I don't want because I don't know if this will ever go away. I miss who I was before all this.
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