i came across a disturbing post here and on reddit (from doing compulsions) regarding pocd. i am sick and tired of feeling this way. i dont want to feel any type of way towards children as they are earth’s most purest beings. i care so so much and i hate having these horrific thoughts in my brain. i hate this so much.
I’m sorry that sounds dreadful. I think the biggest thing that has helped me is someone saying that us with ocd don’t want those thoughts or those actions to happen, we would absolutely never. And that’s why the thoughts are so bothersome, so actually we don’t want these things to happen and because we care so much about that topic “children being safe and loved bc they’re so pure and precious and deserve the best and absolute safety” is why we have so many thoughts and obsessions or whatever I don’t remember how to explain the last part, but I really hope this helps. There’s nothing wrong with you in that way, you would never. It’s still so disturbing to hear the thoughts or have them. I hope it gets better. Mine never goes away, but has gotten mildly better and I think that’s because of what that person said. We would never and we care so much and that’s why we get those thoughts or whatever. I love you, and I hope it gets better, truly.
@Stormyweather2023 you are an angel! thank you for sharing this.
hey! I have been feeling the same way. they are just thoughts and you aren’t alone!!
hey there, i totally get how exhausting and upsetting it can be to deal with those intrusive thoughts, especially when they're about something as sensitive as pocd. it's really tough when your brain keeps throwing stuff at you that you know doesn't reflect who you are. i've got my own tangle with pure o obsessions, so i know that feeling of just wanting your mind to take a break. i'm here to listen and totally get that struggle. 🤝 i wanted to share something with you that my therapist mentioned and has honestly been a game-changer for me. it's a free tool called "unstuck" (www.AIOCDtool.com). considering the specific challenges you're facing with pocd, it could be a solid support. it's like having an OCD therapist in your pocket, guiding you through those moments when the OCD feels like too much. you just type in what's bugging you and it walks you through steps to help you get unstuck, kind of like what you'd do in ERP but with an AI's help. i promise i'm not into pushing apps on people, but this one's different because it's been a real lifeline for me, and i just want to pass that on to someone who might find it just as helpful. if you have any questions or just want to chat about it, i'm around. take care and hang in there. we're in this fight together. 💪
trying to sit with the intrusive thoughts and fear, it’s so hard. i don’t want this. i just want to go back to my normal self who only focused on what i wanted to and not this shell of who i use to be dying to just live again. pocd is the worst theme, it’s taken over my life. every move i make i am just overthinking everything. my brain tells me lies and sometimes i am so afraid i question if i am just “in denial” it’s so terrifying. i feel so so so much guilt, i would and could never hurt a child, it hurts me to even think about it. it makes me feel evil that i have intrusive thoughts. my brain tells me i am “attracted” to kids even though i know i am not, it’s hell. i’ve been having a huge flare up, maybe bc i am on my period, but it’s super difficult lately. i visited my nephew this weekend and i had so much fun, but of course my pocd ruined it and put intrusive thoughts in my head and said i was “attracted” AND I AM NOT, i was disgusting like ACTUALLY HORRIFIED. i wanted to go home so badly and when i got home i just felt so much guilt. pocd has ruined me. i want to be a mom, i want to be an amazing aunt. why is this disorder attacking me so much. :(
everytime i see a kid or hear any words related to children i get immediate intrusive thoughts and terrible groinal responses :( the sensations feel so real. i have no anxiety anymore its been like this for a while i use to have terrible anxiety with my ocd but now its just shame and worry:( and sadness/dread. i hate this. my brain literally tells me im a p, and i believe it, it sounds and feels so real :(
i saw a family member post their kid, he is super adorable and funny ive met him before. but ever since seeing that my pocd is telling me i want to hurt him and or do something to him. im really close with his mom i look up to her a lot im scared that u will find out and i will be shunned forever. I don’t want to do anything to him. but these thoughts feel so real and it feels like my body is just gonna get up and commit a crime. she is very spiritual and I go to her for advice a lot, im scared she’s gonna get bad vibes or negative intentions from me I just want to be a good person I don’t want to hurt anyone especially him :( another thing is I had a thought that he looked like my ex and he does and even looks how he looked when HE was a baby but im scared that that means im a p. I hate this :( I get groinal responses and rapid intrusive thoughts it’s so draining :(
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