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I’m sorry
I feel like I’m a bad person
I feel like I’m a bad person
you're not a bad person. you're a confused and a scared person who wants to get better. maybe your thoughts are bad, maybe it's all fucked, what personally helped me get rid of ocd is that I took a leap of faith with Jesus. I never pushed my Christianity on people but on here I feel like I must, since it literally saved my life. Lean not on your own understanding and give God a chance whether you belive in him or not, but I promise you that he loves you and wants you to get to the other side of this. Take care
Hello , I feel usually the same when I am not doing compulsions .
That's a feeling. But it's not the truth. You were kind to me just now when no one else where there for me. Bad persons don't do that.
you are not alone. you are loved ❤️
I don’t know why but today I feel so incredibly angry right now and I was so frustrated with everything including my two dogs. I didn’t hurt them or hit them or anything but I was particularly annoyed and angry when they were trying to get presumably a bunny or a raccoon from underneath the shed, so I had to pull my small dog away when he wouldn’t budge away from the shed and i couldn’t pick him up because I was not close enough. I feel bad because I know I love my dogs but oh my god I just get so annoyed with them and on top of them everything else I have to just shut down all day and the things I don’t understand. I feel like I’m going insane. I don’t want my dogs to think I don’t love them because i was angry and annoyed at them. I know they’re just animals and they love me and I love them. I want them to know I’m sorry for even getting mad. I wish I didn’t feel so angry and yet so disconnected at the same time. I’m terrified I’m an evil person or that I don’t love my pets or something. I started to hit myself and punch myself because I do that when I get over the edge angry. I don’t know why I feel angry. It’s a mix of anger and emptiness and I don’t want either of them especially towards my dogs.
I feel like the worst kind of person and I am ruining my husband. I don’t know how I’m going to be able to change.
I look back at various past events in my life where I said or did things that I feel really guilty, disgusted, and ashamed about. I replay them in my head for hours. I feel anxious about crossing paths with people that I've hurt or upset in the past or who perceive me badly, to the point that I will avoid going out in public as much as possible. I go out for work, errands, appointments, and occasionally to eat (even though those all give me a lot of anxiety), but I avoid community events where people might recognize me and I tend to isolate myself. The only people I see regularly are my boyfriend, my parents, and my coworkers. I live in a small community and I'm worried about people confronting me publicly and proving what a bad person I must be.
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