- Username
- Brynnie Bear
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I’m sorry
I feel like I’m a bad person
I feel like I’m a bad person
you're not a bad person. you're a confused and a scared person who wants to get better. maybe your thoughts are bad, maybe it's all fucked, what personally helped me get rid of ocd is that I took a leap of faith with Jesus. I never pushed my Christianity on people but on here I feel like I must, since it literally saved my life. Lean not on your own understanding and give God a chance whether you belive in him or not, but I promise you that he loves you and wants you to get to the other side of this. Take care
Hello , I feel usually the same when I am not doing compulsions .
That's a feeling. But it's not the truth. You were kind to me just now when no one else where there for me. Bad persons don't do that.
you are not alone. you are loved ❤️
hey there, i'm really sorry you're feeling this way. it's tough to deal with those thoughts, and you're not alone in this struggle. remember, your ocd is not a reflection of who you truly are. 💛 i've been right where you are, and something that made a big difference for me was this free AI OCD therapy tool called "unstuck" ([www.keepunstuck.com/try](http://www.keepunstuck.com/try)) my therapist recommended. it'll be especially helpful for you because it provides personalized, step-by-step support that can guide you through tough moments without giving in to the need for reassurance, much like an ERP therapist would. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have Qs or just want to talk more! <3
On my run this morning a person stopped me to ask if I had a phone on me, and I said “no, sorry” and kept running even though I did have my phone, because it was early morning and I felt scared they’d take my phone. For the rest of my run I felt worried that they were following me and would see me use my phone, because I had AirPods in so they could guess that I did have a phone, although conceivably I could have only been wearing my Apply Watch. Once I was home and that anxiety subsided, I’ve been playing the situation over in my mind and feeling like such a bad person for saying no because what if they really needed help, and I said no because I judged them based on appearance and the situation made me scared they’d take my phone. I’m worried something bad will happen to me as karma.
I don’t really know what to do anymore I feel bad all the time and when I take my medicine I feel bad for not feeling bad all these memories are on repeat in my head and it doesn’t stop. I’m convinced i’m the worst person ever and I deserve everything bad that happens to me and I think I do. I did things that are actually bad and I don’t know how to fix them and the guilt eats away at me i feel like i’m living a lie and hiding my dirty secrets from everyone. It’s like how could I have not realized these things were wrong. I feel disgusted with myself and I don’t know what to do
I don’t expect anyone to give me any reassurance that I’m a good person, because I doubt it heavily now. I don’t want to fight anymore, I can’t do it. I’m a bad person. I can’t see the light anymore I don’t think I can get better from this anymore, I think I’m gonna give up, I’m actually gonna give up, this is actually really bad that I did this, this is my proof I’m a bad person, I thought about it so I just can’t. basically I saw a a picture of 12 year old boy, and I kept testing how I felt, now I don’t know why I did this cause I know it’s wrong, meaning not good, but basically my brain was like “do you think he’s handsome” and I said “maybe I don’t know, I don’t think he’s handsome. He might be” and oh my god I can’t believe I said something like this, I know some will say “oh it might be intrusive” but I can’t anymore. I feel like I’m done. I don’t even know what kind of handsome I meant, all I know is that I was NOT trying to be disgusting in any shape or form but I can’t stand it, I can’t do this anymore
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