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Harm ocd
I’ve been to the hospital a few times due to harm ocd, I don’t know how to control it and I’m just worried about my safety, but I don’t wanna go back to the hospital.. How do you guys think I can handle this..?
I’ve been to the hospital a few times due to harm ocd, I don’t know how to control it and I’m just worried about my safety, but I don’t wanna go back to the hospital.. How do you guys think I can handle this..?
I have harm ocd I take medication zyprexa 10 mg and prizma 80 mg But in addition I try to put the thoughts aside- read, do sport, listen to music or rain sound which calms me a lot.. I geuss also the passage of time makes it better hope things will get well for you soon stay strong you are not alone ❤️
You really aren’t alone here - sometimes the harm ocd gives you these urges to hurt someone you love like you wanna do it or maybe it really is you huh? Well it’s not - I suffer this too and still have to remember “I don’t know what will happen and that’s okay - maybe I do maybe I don’t who cares?” Because our values tell us we aren’t what our brain says what we are you feel? I spent 20 years being nice to everyone, loving , never wanted to hurt a fly - a few months after 21 I contracted harm ocd and now all those years just out the window cause our brain tells us that? No. You have to fight to be better but by finding inner peace. You can’t tell yourself “no that’s not me” “no I wouldn’t EVER do that” because you know that but your brain will only feed of that. It’s a horrible illness. Inner peace can be so hard to find when it feels like this is you but it’s not. You’re here to get help, you feel horrible for your thoughts? It’s not you.
Erp helped me
Had it 4 times
Ty to all of you<3
i’m back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where it’s like i’m disassociating and feel like i’m about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help
I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
When is ocd so bad that someone can’t deal with it on their own? I honestly don’t know if it’s just my brain telling me I can’t deal with it when I really can, but then I start thinking if I tell myself I can deal with it when I really can’t, then I’ll actually loose it. In my mind, my safe haven has been remembering that I can always go to the hospital if I feel so bad. Because I’m so terrified of getting stress induced psychosis because of this extensive fear. I finally start to feel better and then my mind tells me that I have to worry about it to prevent it from happening. Each hour feels draining to get through and I’m terrified of each thoughts possibility that I know I’d feel better if I was hospitalized and kept away from doing potential harm. I go to therapy every other week but I feel like I need every week and actually more than once a week because each day feels hard to get through and it takes forever to get to therapy.
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