Like I want to know this cause I have guilt, anxiety, sadness and all of these feelings more than the other feelings. So what is considered as happiness in this recovery process?
Over Christmas, aside from one episode, there were several whole days where I barely noticed the thoughts. I went to see my friends at their houses, went out for drinks, and had dinner with my family. I was present at all of these in a way I haven't been in years. No trying to dodge thoughts, no bubbling emotion, just present. Happiness, I think, is being able to be present even for a little bit of time, and hopefully watching that become longer and more frequent.
I think good moments can truly pull someone out. Not completely but slowly. When I was little, I didn’t know it at the time but I struggled heavily with different subtypes of ocd. I think the more you rely on the people around you, those who love you, support you, adore you, the easier the burden gets. I know how crippling it can feel but you have to keep yourself busy, and interactive. When you’re forced to do productive things, your mind has less space to be consumed with thought. Remember that these thoughts aren’t you, and that there are people who love and support you.
Fellowship has been key for me as well! Beautiful reply, thank you for this ❤️
I agree with both comments! Happiness is rooted in the present oftentimes. Even if it's for literally 2 minutes, there is moments of happiness sprinkled in everywhere
I concur! Allowing our thoughts to just BE as we focus on the things in life outside of us that bring us joy and serenity has been so helpful ✨️
I know how you feel. I often wonder if I will ever truly be happy
@Nic12 You will!
Okay so this has been on my mjnd for a while but like, every instagram model or like celebrity is always like: i have been depressed or i am depressed and life will get better and everything. But than i see the next post and its like them looking all happy partying or its a post with the caption like: i bought a new dog im sooooo happy. While i cant get it over my heart to go to a party or buy a dog while im like this. I dont wsnt to experience all the good things i always dreamed of when im not myself because it hurts. I dont know if that makes sense but its like i want to be the old version of me before hocd the careless one and the free one and then do all the fun stuff otherwise i wont enjoy it fully. I want to enjoy things fully like i used to. So i just dont get how all these people claim to be depressed but still are happy? They are like its a rainy day omg im so happy or something and jm just like, How? How are u happy. U said u were depressed if u were wouldnt u not be posting. Wouldnt you be sad 24/7. Because thats how i experience depression. So why arent they? Im just wondering like im not a depression expert and i dont know what they are feeling but i just get so jalouse like how do they get to be happy even tho theyre depressed as they claim. What are they going trough??. People always say that if u have depression and anxiety go lay in bed grab a snack grab a blanket and just chill and let the feelinggs be there but i cant chill. My mind is always on the run. I cant do any of the old stuff i did without feeling pain because im not expierencing the same feelings thst i used to get while doing the stuff. This whole post is so messy i hope Someone understands what im talking about because like depression and hocd littetaly changed everything. Eating, sleeping, breathing everything feels different and i dont wsnt to do fun stuff when i feel like this because in the back of my mind i know that if i didnt had hocd and depression i would be genuinely happy and not even thinking about anything other than the situation thst is going on and id just be focused on having fun while not even noticing it.
Can OCD make you feel content / happy / everything is fine? This feeling doesn’t seem real because deep down I am sad. I also have depersonalization / derealization so I know it’s shutting down some of my emotions, but part of this feels like it might be OCD.
I recently found out that I have OCD and it’s becoming harder and harder to enjoy every day that passes. I spend hours a day, reflecting on all of the bad decisions I made out of ignorance or out of intention. I don’t know if I can ever forgive myself for what I did but I also don’t know if it’s the OCD making it worse. I was wondering if you guys have any tips on how to distinguish between guilt over what you’ve done in the past versus the OCD. I just want to be able to enjoy every day, but I’m plagued with guilt!
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