- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Socd
Does anyone feel like they’re fully convinced that they’re gay/lesbian? Along with loss of attraction to the opposite sex?
Does anyone feel like they’re fully convinced that they’re gay/lesbian? Along with loss of attraction to the opposite sex?
100%. And it’s what keeps me stuck on the thoughts and always had. It was like that very moment I had the thought at 26, I just couldn’t prove it wrong. I had lost attraction to everything and no libido. And then my mind was like ‘made up’ that it was true. Ever since, it just keeps me stuck in this horrible anxiety filled, panic riddled scenario that I’m just not accepting who I am and that I just never realised I was gay till that one thought popped in.
@gp You literally just explained me too. It wasn’t until that thought popped in my head too
Yes im in a relationship with my girlfriend and ive never have thoughts before i still love her but not as attracted to her since this certain ocd started happening im not convinced im gay though as its just thoughts in my head saying your gay/im gay i try to ignore them but it does anger me sometimes and my brain always tests me saying is he gl etc and just ignore it your thoughts arent who you are just remember that i start therapy next week so hopefully it wont be as bad but aslong as you ignore it and remind your self of your true identity you should be fine
@kboocock I don’t know what my true identity is anymore. If feels like I like the thoughts now, I’ve been trying to fantasize on purpose of being w women to see how I feel or react, and it feels like I want it now
@Anonymous2120 I hear you ❤️.
same ^ feels like I’m bi not straight anymore :(
I understand it entirely. It feels so true. Sometimes it not even thoughts it’s just feelings. It keeps me so stuck
@ejpwolfpack Thoughts create feelings and feelings create thoughts. Neither are necessarily facts, try to remember that! Lx
What’s everyone’s experience with loss of attraction to their preferred gender? (Not looking for reassurance, and I know people say stop trying to get it back) When I see a good looking woman, I feel sad that I can’t get feelings like I use too. Like the very bottom of my stomach feels heavy like it’s depressed… I know I want to be attracted to woman but this SOOCD and false attraction is destroying me.
Hi everyone I'm 18 and recently discovered i have soocd. I remember having random thoughts about men and it would make me feel uncomfortable and have bad panic attacks. Sometimes I would have to leave class bc these thoughts was messing with my head. And sometimes I would avoid men bc of this. I remember having a sex dream about one of my guy classmate and when ever I seen him I would have hatred for him. These thoughts keep on repeating over and over in my head to the point where I don't reaction to it. I don't if I'm slowly realizing im actually into men, but I still have this weird gut feeling in my stomach when I think about it. I really don't wanna lose my identity as lesbian.
i'm a lesbian, i was sure of this for many years, until soocd started messing with me around a month ago. it's hard because lesbians with soocd aren't well documented and it's hard to find similar experiences from others. i hate this, my mind is telling me it's not ocd and that i actually like men. i don't even know if i wouldn't like it. i guess that's accepting uncertainty but i don't want to like men. i want to marry my girlfriend. i don't want to be with a man but my mind doesn't let me feel anything regarding that, neither good nor bad, and i cannot tell if i enjoy that thought or don't like it. it's horrible. i'm so exhausted. i get groinal reactions too which i've never even had before this subtype flared up because im on the asexual spectrum. it's insane. has anyone else had any similar experiences?
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