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100%. And it’s what keeps me stuck on the thoughts and always had. It was like that very moment I had the thought at 26, I just couldn’t prove it wrong. I had lost attraction to everything and no libido. And then my mind was like ‘made up’ that it was true. Ever since, it just keeps me stuck in this horrible anxiety filled, panic riddled scenario that I’m just not accepting who I am and that I just never realised I was gay till that one thought popped in.

Yes im in a relationship with my girlfriend and ive never have thoughts before i still love her but not as attracted to her since this certain ocd started happening im not convinced im gay though as its just thoughts in my head saying your gay/im gay i try to ignore them but it does anger me sometimes and my brain always tests me saying is he gl etc and just ignore it your thoughts arent who you are just remember that i start therapy next week so hopefully it wont be as bad but aslong as you ignore it and remind your self of your true identity you should be fine

same ^ feels like I’m bi not straight anymore :(

I understand it entirely. It feels so true. Sometimes it not even thoughts it’s just feelings. It keeps me so stuck