- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Socd
Does anyone feel like they’re fully convinced that they’re gay/lesbian? Along with loss of attraction to the opposite sex?
Does anyone feel like they’re fully convinced that they’re gay/lesbian? Along with loss of attraction to the opposite sex?
100%. And it’s what keeps me stuck on the thoughts and always had. It was like that very moment I had the thought at 26, I just couldn’t prove it wrong. I had lost attraction to everything and no libido. And then my mind was like ‘made up’ that it was true. Ever since, it just keeps me stuck in this horrible anxiety filled, panic riddled scenario that I’m just not accepting who I am and that I just never realised I was gay till that one thought popped in.
@gp You literally just explained me too. It wasn’t until that thought popped in my head too
Yes im in a relationship with my girlfriend and ive never have thoughts before i still love her but not as attracted to her since this certain ocd started happening im not convinced im gay though as its just thoughts in my head saying your gay/im gay i try to ignore them but it does anger me sometimes and my brain always tests me saying is he gl etc and just ignore it your thoughts arent who you are just remember that i start therapy next week so hopefully it wont be as bad but aslong as you ignore it and remind your self of your true identity you should be fine
@kboocock I don’t know what my true identity is anymore. If feels like I like the thoughts now, I’ve been trying to fantasize on purpose of being w women to see how I feel or react, and it feels like I want it now
@Anonymous2120 I hear you ❤️.
same ^ feels like I’m bi not straight anymore :(
I understand it entirely. It feels so true. Sometimes it not even thoughts it’s just feelings. It keeps me so stuck
@ejpwolfpack Thoughts create feelings and feelings create thoughts. Neither are necessarily facts, try to remember that! Lx
Ok so I’m a 17 year old female, and I’ve always thought I was straight. But I just really want to know how you would know the difference between so-ocd and actually questioning your sexuality. I have nothing against the LGBTQ community (in fact I am very much a token straight friend, lol) but I saw a video about comp-het recently and it sort of felt like what I was experiencing. I don’t want to be gay, I want to be with men, I want to like men, I’ve always liked men, but now I’m questioning whether or not that’s real? Because people can be gay but not want to be right? I’m single and I always have been. I think women are gorgeous, but when I try to imagine actually having any sort of romantic or sexual relationship with a woman it feels wrong, at least most of the time it does? Sometimes I’m less sure, and I’ve never been particularly boy crazy. I’ve liked maybe 2 or 3 people in my life, (not to say I’ve never found other guys attractive, but it doesn’t seem to be as often as most people) I have no particular reason to be afraid of being gay, very supportive family, safe area ect, but I don’t want to be, does that mean this is ocd, I don’t know what’s going on every time I say I’m straight I feel like I’m lying, but that might just be because I think about it so much. The idea of being with a woman doesn’t feel like something I would want, but is that just because I don’t want to want it? People online say things with so much sureness, if you feel like this it means this. Ect.
I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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