twolippedtulip
- Date posted
- 1y
ocd + derealization
is the worst and it’s so scary
astrologygeekastrologygeek
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
I had this very badly back last spring…I’d be lying in my living room looking around and feeling so disconnected….along with extreme existential intrusive thoughts…I still have the thoughts but thankfully the derealization cleared. I try to ground myself by feeling silly putty in my hands or something similar. I used to get major reassurance from my husband but as we all know that’s a no no for OCD treatment. Once I got into therapy through this app it helped tremendously…still struggling to find the right balance of meds but trust me, I get it. It’s the scariest thing I’ve ever experienced and existential is the worst theme I’ve experienced as well. The thoughts just go deeper and deeper and you feel there’s no escape. What helped me the most was finding people online who were going through the same thing. OCD can be so so isolating…and I honestly felt like I was going insane and had a fear I’d be locked away forever. But finding out that many others had this same theme and also struggled with DPDR was a relief for me. Just being able to chat with them when I’m needing to is a huge plus and makes you feel like you’re not so crazy. Hang in there…it does get better, it takes work but it does. Hugs ❤️
benjita1benjita1
- Date posted
- 1y
@astrologygeek I can relate to exactly what you have written. Existential OCD is probably the worst theme for me and the DPDR was terrifying.
twolippedtuliptwolippedtulip
- Date posted
- 1y
@astrologygeek thank you so so much for this you are so kind
twolippedtuliptwolippedtulip
- Date posted
- 1y
like i already feel crazy as is with all my intrusive thoughts but the derealization makes it so so much harder :( does anyone have any tips? rly at this point anything helps
DoubleDoubtDoubleDoubt
- Date posted
- 1y
@twolippedtulip You’re not crazy. Derealization is your minds way of protecting itself when it’s overwhelmed. I have found that occupying my mind with an immersive task I enjoy helps me. I’m not suggesting you avoid, but engage in a hobby or activity that can put your mind in a different gear. I know easier said than done when you’re in the thick of it, but what you’re experiencing can’t hurt you. You’ll get lost in whatever you’re doing and afterwards realize that while you weren’t ruminating or fixating … nothing bad happened. You sort of stretch out and string those moments together and slowly you can gain some mental distance. Your mind can heal itself, it justs overworked and needs a break :)
twolippedtuliptwolippedtulip
- Date posted
- 1y
@Mr. Doubtfire thank u so much i rlly needed to hear this. usually i like making bracelets when the derealization is bad so ill just keep investing in my hobbies
benjita1benjita1
- Date posted
- 1y
Have you tried the website DP Manual?
twolippedtuliptwolippedtulip
- Date posted
- 1y
@benjita1 i just looked into it and i really appreciate the recommendation i think this is gonna be a really amazing resource for me, thank you so so much
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