Ugh OCD over attractivness

I have a weird one idk if its OCD but I know im a decent guy, at least average looking but I feel like I need validation from girls. Its like i just want to know for sure if im attractive and how much is so… perhaps from a fear of not being good enough. With much reluctance and self-hatred i downloaded a dating app and actually did get matches and conversations, etc which surprised me and gave me like a “high” for a while and a sense of relief like “oh thank goodness I must be attractive then” but no matter what, somehow my anxiety would always find a way of convincing that I wasnt. Ie: if a girl and I werent compatible and she unmatched me I’d feel like I wasnt good enough, or if she asked me to hang out id just think she must be easy and says that to many guys etc. Like no matter what my anxiety prevails and despite the reassurance I got from actually doing decently well on this app, it has only left me feeling more anxious, rejected, depressed and confused. Is this OCD?

Is there anyone with Racism themed OCD? I've been really struggling with this taboo theme & I'm finding it hard to function/find myself avoiding people out of fear of being perceived as racist. I constantly worry that I'm being perceived as racist. I'm white, I consider myself to be an ally of BIPOC and to work on being anti-racist. Lately though, I get hit with a ton of intrusive thoughts about coming across as racist when I speak to a BIPOC, which causes anxiety, which my anxiety probably then appears racist to the other person. I can't imagine what BIPOC have to endure on a daily basis just because of their skin color, so I'm not trying to make this about me. I'm just wondering if I'm alone in this or if other people struggle with this OCD theme. To be honest, it's pretty severe and it's attacking my core, because this "theme" feels opposite to what I value (being an ally, fighting to be anti-racist & dismantle racism) & who I am. I can tell that other people notice I'm anxious, and I just hate that I'm displaying nervousness because I'm sure it makes the other person uncomfortable. I know I'm coming off as anxious to other people. I know it because I'm trying so hard not to be perceived as racist, to get the interaction "right", that interactions just get weird, anxiety filled & awkward & I'm sure the other person is like wtf, this person is a racist. I don't know how to stop getting so lost in my head. I've tried to tell myself "Maybe I am a sick, racist human being, oh well", but that doesn't help because I don't agree with that statement.

I've developed a new obsession with skin tone and whether it affects my dating prospects. I'm a South Asian 19 year old girl in canada. I was on reddit on tinder insights and this 24 year old woman who I'd say was an average looking white woman! without any provocative pictures had a 50% message rate and a 60% match rate. I'm not sure what my match rate was but I know my message rate was around 30% from my 80 matches in three days. Hers was over a span of a much longer time than three days. Though I've remade and deleted my tinder profile and it hovers around 30%. Unless she was texting them first. Her pictures weren't sexually provocative and neither were mine. I've spent a lot of time obsessing over colorism. Stats show it doesn't seem to impact indian women very much so maybe I'm overthinking it? It's a really tiring obsession. It's a random chick on the internet. Though there was a black girls tinder insight where she had a lower match rate (consistent with statistics for black women since they face worse racism) but she also had a 50% text rate. Not sure why my text rate was so low. Maybe there's a stereotype of blondes being more promiscuous? Or does it have to do with my skin? Ugh I'm ruminating over colorism and whether this is the reason