- Username
- Mikila
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I had the schizophrenia ocd. Hang in there and try to accept the uncertainty. Sense of humor helps too! Bring on the flying elephants!
It’s your anxiety making you think that you’re hearing things. That’s probably what the doctors are saying. Try to accept whatever you think it is you’re ‘hearing’ and try to make room for it.
Jo jo .. it’s scary. The docs don’t believe me when I tell them I’m hearing things. . They say it’s my mind .
Ok
Anxiety is a nasty nasty thing ! It has made me feel I wanted to actually kill myself or hurt someone else !
To me it sounds like you’re pushing the anxiety away and not accepting it enough. The more you tell your brain that you’re scared of anxiety, the more of a negative effect it’ll have on you unfortunately. Keep pushing along and let the group know if you have any other questions, there are many people here who can try to help!
Hey! So ocd in simplest terms is uncontrollable thought suppression. Our obsessions are the thoughts and our compulsions are what we do to suppress them, and as we learned thought suppression is impossible and never works. So try to let the thoughts in as you would any other thought not related to ocd
@Mikila I have a question. If you say that you’ve been dealing with Pure O for 14 years, that you seek reassurance 8 hours a day, and that you’re knowledgeable regarding letting thoughts/feelings/urges be there, to me this kind of post above seems like you’re seeking reassurance from us in this group. From what I’ve learned during OCD recovery, this is very unhelpful and only feeds the OCD beast unfortunately. It actually seems like you’re very knowledgeable on this topic and I think you probably have a lot more confidence than you realize to fight back against OCD.
It’s one of the toughest things to just let the thoughts be there but that’s exactly how to get rid of pure o. Let them be in your head with OUT ruminating on then and with OUT trying to make yerself feel better by “figuring it out” eventually your brain will habituate to you not giving in and the thoughts will become less and less important I promise. Also get rid of all caffeine. It takes a few weeks but makes a HUGE difference
I have the same how are you know ?
Do I have pure ocd or am i in denial. I have been getting intrusive thoughts, nightmares, severe loss in appetite, extreme anxiety, near non-existent libido, sex repulsion, identity crash where i literally dont know if im gay or trans anymore, very high suicidal ideation, I have been homebound for possibly more than a year, i cant look in the mirror without thinking how disgusting i am, and it literally feels like my life did a full 180 out of NOWHERE.
Having a lot of OCD right now. It’s actually sending me into an anxiety attack. I’m so afraid I have lost my mind or about to lose my mind. My thoughts are so intense as well. I could use some positive words or some comforting words. I have harm OCD, fear of schizophrenia, as well as Religious OCD. I feel like they are all happening at once and I can’t calm my mind. I think it has to do with my period but I’m not sure.
It feels like the ocd has gotten to a point where it's just there in the background at all times. Even if im not having some POCD related thought it's like it's just taken away a part of me I feel i can't get back. I still go through the motions and try to joke around and be silly like i would normally. But its just hard to always feel this anxiety and uncertainty in the background. Sure, i can handle it. But what is that worth when you're just handling a slow persistent torture. Everywhere i go it's like i can't connect, seeing others happy and seemingly carefree makes me feel like an alien. Every morning for 8 months the OCD pops in within the first minute of the day. Doesn't have to even be a thought around POCD, though it usually is. Its just the general thought that i have this thing that i can't seem to get rid of and its making me a lesser version of myself. And on top of it all, i can't truly know if its OCD. Since its more "Pure-O" it feels hard to relate to others and their experiences with OCD. Just such a damn mess. This has happened before with other themes but this POCD thing feels like a demon on steroids.
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