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I had the schizophrenia ocd. Hang in there and try to accept the uncertainty. Sense of humor helps too! Bring on the flying elephants!
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It’s your anxiety making you think that you’re hearing things. That’s probably what the doctors are saying. Try to accept whatever you think it is you’re ‘hearing’ and try to make room for it.
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Jo jo .. it’s scary. The docs don’t believe me when I tell them I’m hearing things. . They say it’s my mind .
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Ok
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Anxiety is a nasty nasty thing ! It has made me feel I wanted to actually kill myself or hurt someone else !
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To me it sounds like you’re pushing the anxiety away and not accepting it enough. The more you tell your brain that you’re scared of anxiety, the more of a negative effect it’ll have on you unfortunately. Keep pushing along and let the group know if you have any other questions, there are many people here who can try to help!
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Hey! So ocd in simplest terms is uncontrollable thought suppression. Our obsessions are the thoughts and our compulsions are what we do to suppress them, and as we learned thought suppression is impossible and never works. So try to let the thoughts in as you would any other thought not related to ocd
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@Mikila I have a question. If you say that you’ve been dealing with Pure O for 14 years, that you seek reassurance 8 hours a day, and that you’re knowledgeable regarding letting thoughts/feelings/urges be there, to me this kind of post above seems like you’re seeking reassurance from us in this group. From what I’ve learned during OCD recovery, this is very unhelpful and only feeds the OCD beast unfortunately. It actually seems like you’re very knowledgeable on this topic and I think you probably have a lot more confidence than you realize to fight back against OCD.
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It’s one of the toughest things to just let the thoughts be there but that’s exactly how to get rid of pure o. Let them be in your head with OUT ruminating on then and with OUT trying to make yerself feel better by “figuring it out” eventually your brain will habituate to you not giving in and the thoughts will become less and less important I promise. Also get rid of all caffeine. It takes a few weeks but makes a HUGE difference
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I have the same how are you know ?
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I dont know what to do anymore. I think Ive had the 'pure O' version of OCD for more than ten years. I feel like so much of my life has been wasted from this disease. For the longest time I just tried to ignore the intrusive thoughts, and push them off as anxiety, and basically dissociated for years of my life. Feels like Ive just been on autopilot and a shell of myself for nearly 15 years. Its actually hard to even imagine of all the experiences, emotions, connections with others, and personal growth that Ive missed out on- if I do, I think it would be too much to handle. I think Ive even forgot and dont even know at this point what it is to live a normal life and experience positive emotions. Now that I sought treatment for it specifically, it feels like it's gotten worse. Like by acknowledging that part of myself, suddenly added focus just makes it more real and in the forefront now. I wonder if I am actually going insane. Will not go into details for reassurance but the thoughts just rip my soul out. Its so difficult as well because I will get random 'clarity moments' throughout the day where I feel like Ive solved something, then get completely derailed by another OCD thought stream and forget everything. It feels like Im just on a merry-go-round of hell, not going anywhere thinking I am at times.
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So my OCD has been bad lately. I’ve been ruminating and obsessing over my sexuality again. And it just keeps getting worse. I hate it so much. I try to sit with the discomfort but then my ocd does the backdoor spike. And the groinal response is what keeps me looped. It SUCKS. I am not attracted to men, but my OCD is trying SO hard to convince me that I am. There have been days where I’m just so mentally exhausted that I “accept” what my ocd tells me and I just walk around a hollow, lethargic shell. But then I rethink it and I feel better. It feels like I can only find my TRUE self when I tire my nervous system out enough that it literally breaks down and has me suicidal and hopeless. And then accepting my OCD’s “truth” (that I’m attracted to men) feels like a burden and a chore. I woke up today from an OCD dream, tried to go back to sleep, and my stomach kept cramping bc I was so anxious and ruminating over my intrusive thoughts. I’m starting to doubt it being OCD anymore. My brain is too tired to fight and cry about it anymore.
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I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
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