- Username
- Mikila
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I had the schizophrenia ocd. Hang in there and try to accept the uncertainty. Sense of humor helps too! Bring on the flying elephants!
It’s your anxiety making you think that you’re hearing things. That’s probably what the doctors are saying. Try to accept whatever you think it is you’re ‘hearing’ and try to make room for it.
Jo jo .. it’s scary. The docs don’t believe me when I tell them I’m hearing things. . They say it’s my mind .
Ok
Anxiety is a nasty nasty thing ! It has made me feel I wanted to actually kill myself or hurt someone else !
To me it sounds like you’re pushing the anxiety away and not accepting it enough. The more you tell your brain that you’re scared of anxiety, the more of a negative effect it’ll have on you unfortunately. Keep pushing along and let the group know if you have any other questions, there are many people here who can try to help!
Hey! So ocd in simplest terms is uncontrollable thought suppression. Our obsessions are the thoughts and our compulsions are what we do to suppress them, and as we learned thought suppression is impossible and never works. So try to let the thoughts in as you would any other thought not related to ocd
@Mikila I have a question. If you say that you’ve been dealing with Pure O for 14 years, that you seek reassurance 8 hours a day, and that you’re knowledgeable regarding letting thoughts/feelings/urges be there, to me this kind of post above seems like you’re seeking reassurance from us in this group. From what I’ve learned during OCD recovery, this is very unhelpful and only feeds the OCD beast unfortunately. It actually seems like you’re very knowledgeable on this topic and I think you probably have a lot more confidence than you realize to fight back against OCD.
It’s one of the toughest things to just let the thoughts be there but that’s exactly how to get rid of pure o. Let them be in your head with OUT ruminating on then and with OUT trying to make yerself feel better by “figuring it out” eventually your brain will habituate to you not giving in and the thoughts will become less and less important I promise. Also get rid of all caffeine. It takes a few weeks but makes a HUGE difference
I have the same how are you know ?
It’s amazing how powerful OCD is, I went through the worst Mental Health experience of my entire life last year. I thought my life was over, that I was insane, and was convinced 100% I had schizophrenia. My brain was mimicking every symptom. It was terrifying. After starting OCD therapy and ERP. My life changed forever. I was actually mental stable for once. I felt happy and controlled for once. Now Schiz OCD is back , and it seems worse then before. I can’t sleep, eat, work, or even socialize. I constantly feel insane. My two biggest themes are Harm OCD and Schiz OCD. And these themes work together to cause me constant anxiety. It’s hell. I can’t even think straight. I’m currently dealing with DP/DR, command thoughts/voice, internal voices/thoughts that I can make not sound like me or my inner monologue, “What if” delusional thoughts,hyperviligance,checking if I hear or see anything externally(auditory and visual hallucinations) and many more. I question my insight constantly. I even went to the hospital the other day to get evaluated and make sure I don’t have psychosis. Everything I fear the most seems to be coming true. Constantly asking my parents and therapist/professionals if I have schizophrenia. Constantly looking for reassurance. Feels as if I’m thinking my way into psychosis and schizophrenia. OCD knows exactly what you fear and will try to one up you on anything. OCD will CONVINCE you everything that’s happening to you is true , all your biggest fears. OCD is trying to find new things to keep you stuck and hold you in fear. This experience has been horrible and I am convinced I’m going insane. But I’ve been through this once and I’m going to get through this again. STAY STRONG. Reach out to professionals, Resist compulsions, step into the fear, and relax a little bit. You’re not alone.
I can't live at home because I'm afraid I'll stab the neighbours with a knife. I've spent basically all year in a psychward. I feel suicidal at the moment. I see this therapist and I'm learning some strategies but I'm afraid it's not enough. Please tell me your experiences with harm OCD? Have any of you been able to beat it?
I have had ocd my whole life… recently for the last year my ocd developed into harm ocd. Four years prior to meeting my husband, I was in an abusive relationship that left me with PTSD and trauma. I have had fears of hurting my husband for almost a year now. My ocd shows me images of me stabbing him or suffocating him. I have tried exposure therapy with an OCD therapist but recently she recommended that I try medication. I went to my PCP and tried Fluvoxamine with bad side effects of anxiety and paranoia (I am off of this now for at least two weeks). Now my ocd has “evolved” as I call it. I’m afraid of my husband poisoning my food, afraid of hurting my animals and the people I love and even now random strangers… all I feel everyday is fear and anxiety over doing something wrong. Today, my PCP called crisis on me as I expressed to him what I also did to my therapists (I’m transitioning to a weekly therapy instead of monthly with a new service) and I was placed in an in patient facility for a few hours before the psychiatrists discharged me. I still don’t know how to process this situation and have been on edge since returning home. I had ocd thoughts again tonight being worried about giving into the harm ocd thoughts and am now in a hotel room in order to feel safe (the OPPOSITE of what I should be doing, I know). Moral of the story is… I have gone through a lot in the past month and it has left me more broken and hurt then before I was on medication. Sorry for the novel to read but hopefully one day I will find relief.
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