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Do you have celebrity ocd/ obsession bea?
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You’re not a waste of time. You are important. You are loved. You are worth it.
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I’ll do the best I can :)
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I’m really sorry, I don’t know who I’d contact that you already haven’t. I’ve done the best I can. Have a good day.
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I don’t know you Bea but you are not a waste of time to me and not a waste of anything. You are worthy of everything that you see in everyone else
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no..are you gonna try help me?i dont think so ...i get it.. but i wont stop feeling like this
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if you would like talk at lest for a while.. my twitter is @mmartinezbead and instagram @bmarti_99
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I’m here to talk if you need to. I don’t have other social media but I’ll do my best :)
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an email?cause is a little long...
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Maybe you could post it on here so we could all help you?
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ok.. i will try do it short...I’m 36 almost 37 years ,spain. I dont have friends,my family ignores me,my father for me is like a monster,i have high anxiety and i cant sleep ,i eat so stressed isnt easy for me swallow. i think i told this once here ok whatever. A few years ago i discovered Glee one of the best show ever,everybody should see it . There were 2 boys Chris Colfer and Darren Criss and for different reasons they are so special and i feel they could help me at least listen and understand me first . i have tried write to different people too like fragile x associations on my country and in england plus usa where i would need live with my brother who is FX completely me too but its different cause i am a girl . Yes i asked help on my place to therapyst too and more. i have written letters to so many places like a bookstore i love in USA barnes and noble and i will tell you more if you would try help me at least to write someone to get Chris or Darren know about me . i write to trevor project too they use read me they are nice but i dont get answer me ?? what i need...And i could write more but i am gonna wait what you say...if its same i have heard always or not....anyway ....thank you?
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Maybe you could say something like this :)) Hi! My name is Bea. The TV series “Glee” fills me with gaiety! I find I connect with the characters on levels I cannot explain, especially those played by Chris Colfer and Darren Criss. I hold these actors close. If there were any way I could express my gratitude towards these actors I would utterly embrace it! Thank you, Bea” Maybe you could email Barnes and Noble? All the best! d a i s y
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i have done this by mail,twitter,instagram,letters...i think you like everybody wont try anything for me small or not i get it its ok we are not friends whatever...thank you and kisses?
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i know i am so stupid ...told you... ok i am gonna stop... and thank you?
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You’re not stupid. You’ve got this! d a i s y
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i wouldnt say is an obession i have thought about it a lot Its true i am not ok i know that i think i am the one i see it Its true i like chris or darren very much but isnt an obession its different really it is Besides i have try contact to so many different people associations too who i think they could do something for me
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- 22w
I’m really down and don’t have anyone i feel i can turn to. I’m just so tired of living as myself. I hate who i love with including myself. I feel so worthless. Having ocd on top of it makes me feel like im just a waste of space. I dont know how to stop feeling this way. Or if i deserve to. That’s all :(
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 16w
This is just a vent. Feels nice to just be honest about who I am and my deficiencies. Mental health advocates are always like "you deserve to live no matter what" and I'm like "bet lol" I am not a good person whose presence has any positive impact on the world. I'm not evil, just useless without having the excuse of depression or whatever (it's anxiety based but again who gives a shit). If I were to go away, I wouldn't be missed because I contribute nothing of note. If we did not live in the US where you can get by without being socially accepted as long as you have loving parents, I would either be dead or would have stepped up and might actually be a valuable member of society (like between being dead and pushing through my anxiety I would probably choose the latter lol). Interpersonally, I have no redeeming qualities. No I'm not one of those people who says that shit and then lists all the ways they're actually decent but just have low self-esteem, I'm genuinely useless. I'm unreliable when it comes to group projects and my job, usually doing the bare minimum or less than that. When it comes to my work in general, I tend to drop the ball, often waiting till the last minute to get started on it, turning it in late, or simply not turning it in at all. I make promises about the things I will do and then don't do them. I also lack initiative and just follow orders. Socially, I don't have any friends and don't make an effort to try to gain any - I tend to act distant in social interactions and don't join in when people are having group conversations. I'm a talented artist, but the only work I've ever shown others in the last few years has been shoddy, amateurish, and completely unreflective of my abilities, and I've never been complimented for it lol. How do I feel about all this? Pretty freaking bad, yet I make no effort to change. I'm afraid of most things so I avoid them, screwing up my own life and negatively affecting other people's as well. Despite all this, I have this desire to be accepted by someone else as I am. The fact that I accept myself shows that it's possible, I guess (you could argue that I don't have a choice but I definitely chose to be okay with myself after years of self-loathing). I have a shit-ton of flaws and nothing to really offset them - I mean I'm self-aware but I think self-awareness is completely useless if you don't do anything about what you've observed in yourself, and less self-aware people are able to take more risks - and I just have this fantasy of someone showing up and looking at all that I am and being like "you have contributed literally nothing to society and you have no redeeming qualities but I accept you as you are and love you, for no reason other than I just do." But based on the comics I've read this can only happen if you're childhood friends who've known each other for a long time lol. No reason someone's gonna want to be friends with some random person who leaves a poor first impression and doesn't do anything to further the relationship. The plus side of this is that I have a /lot/ of room for growth, lots of things to change that could make me a better person. The negative side is that it is still just as hard to not be avoidant af as it was yesterday
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- 7w
I feel like if I spend time with anyone im always failing everyone else. A lot of people depend on me and want my time. I feel like I can't be enough and it makes me feel like I deserve to be alone. Does anyone ever feel like this?
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