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- 1y
OCDOliveOCDOlive
- Date posted
- 1y
These thoughts aren’t you they’re ego dystonic and are attacking everything you value! You are more than your intrusive thoughts ❤️
Ryan MullenRyan Mullen
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@bekind94 Take out a piece of paper and write down the thought you are having. Then say to yourself, what if I was a man and was going to rape someone. Then just sit with the thought. Don't ruminate dont tell yourself you have to go to the hospital just sit with it. This is the hardest part about ERP therapy but this is what you need to do. Maybe someone else can elaborate on what ive said.
OCDOliveOCDOlive
- Date posted
- 1y
@bekind94 The very fact you’re scared they’re real shows you you don’t want these thoughts so why would you be that person?! They don’t scare people that are actively murderers or rapisys and that’s why you’re not. My advice is say it out loud and ask yourself why would I be that person when it goes against everything I belive? OCD is cruel and feels so real but I promise you’ve got this
StoicGuyStoicGuy
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@OCDOlive Hi, actually that's reassuring yourself when you tell yourself you wouldn't ever actually commit your fear and it goes against what you believe. It will grow OCD so please don't do that. Deep down we all know we wouldn't harm anyone but OCD demands 100% certainty and thus creates anxiety to make sure you get certainty. The problem is we can't ever be 100% certain so the cycle continues. Living with uncertainty and the very small chance our fear will happen is the way to recovery.
Mitch4Mitch4
- Date posted
- 1y
Your not alone, I have the same problems. OCD wouldn’t be so horrible if it didn’t feel real, the anxiety manipulates us into making it feel real. Stay strong, there’s some great content on YouTube that give you ways to work towards recovery. “OCD and Anxiety” channel has some good tips.
StoicGuyStoicGuy
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Check your area for an OCD treatment center but working with someone on this app or locally would be the same treatment but probably a lot less expensive. It's scary but to get rid of the OCD thoughts treat them as just thoughts and not something as fact. Agree with the possibility they are true even though you know they aren't true. Tell yourself " maybe I am a man" OCD's weakness is uncertainty. Don't push the thoughts away, don't force them to stop, or reassure yourself that you wouldn't ever do that obsession. It will make OCD worse. Get to a point where you have those thoughts and they are just annoying instead of threatening.
acb26acb26
- Date posted
- 1y
Hello! Want to share? Sometimes it’s helpful to let it out too and know you are safe
acb26acb26
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- 1y
@bekind94 I get you. So mine are also harm thoughts. And I think the ones from weekend scared me because my mind went to “what if I kill my family” and this one to me is worse - “what if I’m Jeffrey dahmer” and it sent me into panic mode. Im still tripping off it today but trying to just breathe through it and try to accept the thoughts are just thoughts
kodyislandkodyisland
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
are you seeing an ERP specialist?
kodyislandkodyisland
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@bekind94 maybe try to find one if they take your insurance
OrtwinOrtwin
- Date posted
- 1y
I can agree with what the people said above. The thoughts feel so real because they are against the values you live for - they trigger emotions which causes you to react, making you ruminate about them. That is triggering a chain reaction and the more you ruminate the more „real“ it becomes for you. Only by accepting the thoughts to be just that - thoughts - and fully embracing any emotion which come up you will feel better and - in contrast to the immediate gratification of ruminating and trying to make them go away, which eventually just makes it worse - by sitting with the discomfort and learning you can handle it you will feel so much better. ERP is so effective because you train exactly that non-responding which will retrain your brain into not considering these thoughts to be as scary and life-threatening as they can be without treatment. I was scared to tell my parents as well back then - I was scared of being judged because when I was a child my mom always told me that its useless to go to therapy. But I knew I needed it and in the end she supported me throughout the journey. So what I suggest: Talk to her, explain to her how important it is and she will understand. Please seek out therapy, I am convinced it will help you so much! All the best!
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