Ocd caused so many problems in my life

Writing this comment because my ocd doesn’t like plain comment sections and erp doesn’t work for me nor can I swollow pills

Can I ask how long have you had ocd and what are your themes? For you to write what you have written shows that you are really struggling and thats okay because trust me I know exactly what that feels like as im sure many others here have felt the same. I have struggled terribly with ocd for 4 years now to the point that I cant even walk into a room without stepping out of the room and back into it again. That is just one of the many rituals I have. I have realised that I have probably always had an anxiety disorder and it was life events that manifested it into this ocd. Erp and medication never helped me either altough I think the erp didn't help when I did it because I didnt fully commit to it. I am still trying to navigate myself out of ocd but I think that the main reason that many of us struggle is because we view it as a destination that we desperately want rather than a journey that we are on. I also don't think that it's possible to 'think' our way our way out of mental health problems and it is likely overthinking that played a big part and continues to play a big part in us having ocd

My theme of real event ocd is weird complex and depressing as well as problematic it all began in march of 2023 I always had ocd but this was the breakdown point I messed up in file created and typed random numbers I could not delete the files but I needed them to be deleted the staff of the place told me to be patient but I could not wait because my ocd made everything so pushy and didn’t want to wait so I got banned the files existing caused ocd for me but then I managed to control it using not erp which never works but acceptance and commitment therapy it took 9 months but it was manageable enough then yesterday I lost a pencil which seems very silly but my brain works in A sense that there can’t be too many thoughts and one thought was one too many

Also most of the people I’ve encountered were not the most understanding to ocd which made me angry which why is now I deeply hate humans that are not family to me and I wish there are some sort of event to wipe out the internet because I don’t want to live anymore the 2020s have been horrible

I think ocd must be one of the hardest things to try and reduce or alleviate but I honestly think that it starts with small steps of positive action that will raise our self asteem like for instance cleaning our teeth and making our bed in the morning if we have stopped doing that. Eating meals at the right times and trying to eat healthy and drink water. Going for a walk or a light jog. Reading a book. These things almost certainly won't make the OCD disappear but if these positive things are repeated every day for a good period of time then I do beleive that our self asteem will be raised and the ocd will be reduced. We might then be ready for erp. I hope my comment has helped you in some way.

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