Ishil
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Torture
Ugh I wanna cry. ERP therapy feels like torture. I know I need it but I wanna cry. I’m tortured
blazedblazed
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- 1y
I’m so sorry. It’s really difficult isn’t it :( what exposures are you currently working on?
IshilIshil
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- 1y
@blazed The “what if I have crush on ___” and “what if I’m a bad person for not feeling scared that I have a crush on ___ as if I don’t care if I do”
blazedblazed
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- 1y
@Ishil Are you working with a therapist on this?
IshilIshil
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- 1y
@blazed Yeah. I’m just feeling intense because this is my first time
blazedblazed
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- 1y
@Ishil The first time is always the hardest. But you took the first step towards recovery and you should be proud of yourself! It takes time, but it will get easier. You’re doing a great job and keep on pushing forward. You got this!
DSXDSX
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- 1y
I dunno maybe it’s just me but I felt tortured before ERP anyway, so for me I just felt I might as well do the torture that’s designed to help me
Lucy Van PeltLucy Van Pelt
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- 1y
I understand 100%! Sending hugs! You’ve got this!
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- Date posted
- 16w
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- 9w
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- 8w
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