- Username
- Ishil
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 48w ago
Torture
Ugh I wanna cry. ERP therapy feels like torture. I know I need it but I wanna cry. I’m tortured
- Username
- blazedblazed
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 48w ago
I’m so sorry. It’s really difficult isn’t it :( what exposures are you currently working on?
- Username
- IshilIshil
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 48w ago
@blazed The “what if I have crush on ___” and “what if I’m a bad person for not feeling scared that I have a crush on ___ as if I don’t care if I do”
- Username
- blazedblazed
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 48w ago
@Ishil Are you working with a therapist on this?
- Username
- IshilIshil
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 48w ago
@blazed Yeah. I’m just feeling intense because this is my first time
- Username
- blazedblazed
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 48w ago
@Ishil The first time is always the hardest. But you took the first step towards recovery and you should be proud of yourself! It takes time, but it will get easier. You’re doing a great job and keep on pushing forward. You got this!
- Username
- DSXDSX
- Date posted
- 48w ago
I dunno maybe it’s just me but I felt tortured before ERP anyway, so for me I just felt I might as well do the torture that’s designed to help me
- Username
- Lucy Van PeltLucy Van Pelt
- Date posted
- 48w ago
I understand 100%! Sending hugs! You’ve got this!
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- jakemen20
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Guys I’ve been working my butt off at ERP and getting my reassurance down to 0. At same time, I feel so awful and am so worked up over the fact that I’m not feeling better yet. I’m so worked up. I feel like this will never get better. I’m so sad. Idk what to do. I love my therapist and believe in my erp plan, but I don’t feel results yet after so much hard work. I’m drained and want my life back.
- Username
- maddison5
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
therapy
I started ERP therapy yesterday and had my second session today. During my session of trying to do an exposure, I started crying, and became very anxious. I know that this type of therapy is hard, but how do you know this is just some thing that you can’t do? I have been anxious all day and my exposure has been the only thing I’ve been able to think of. I want to get better but I don’t know if I’m able to push myself this much.
- Username
- emilytravels...
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Exhausted 😭
Just got off a call with my new OCD therapist and ERP is so exhausting 😭 Intentionally triggering the anxiety feels so wrong, I know everyone says it’s the gold standard but ugh. My body feels like it’s run a marathon. I just want a vacation from this sh*t. I’m not giving up. Just needed a place to vent and knew you all would understand. Mad respect for those of you who have been doing ERP for years. It’s so hard 🥺
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