- Date posted
- 1y
Hyper responsibility
Does anyone here with harm OCD feel responsible for everything? Like future events and commitments? Like it's a burden?
Does anyone here with harm OCD feel responsible for everything? Like future events and commitments? Like it's a burden?
Yes! But mine is more safety related!
Mine is safety but also everything. For example, my dad is the subject of my harm obsessions. He mentioned some future event and that makes me think he wants to go and now I'm going to agonize over it. I hate it.
What will you agonize about?
That's what ocd wants. It wants you to feel guilty and like a bad person 24/7 because it's easier to try and control you that way. You gonna let it do that? Remember, you are real and it's not. Remember who is really stronger here
Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.
I don't really know if it's OCD, but lately I've been thinking a lot and in a very obsessive way that every single one of my actions, words or even thoughts will affect on how God will make decisions about my life. For example, if I lie to someone or yell at them out of anger, God will make happen something bad to me as a "punishment". I know it might seem silly, but it really really freaks me out sometimes... Does anyone feel the same? And if so, do you do something in particular to feel better? Thanks for your understanding❤️
There are times my harm ocd has me convinced that my feelings of self harm or suicide and harm are real and that any moment I could commit the act on myself or my family. Is there anyone who can chime in on this. I feel like all the time I want to leave run away or avoid my family because of these thoughts. Like I shouldn’t be around my children and I don’t trust myself.
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