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- 1y
Hyper responsibility
Does anyone here with harm OCD feel responsible for everything? Like future events and commitments? Like it's a burden?
Does anyone here with harm OCD feel responsible for everything? Like future events and commitments? Like it's a burden?
Yes! But mine is more safety related!
Mine is safety but also everything. For example, my dad is the subject of my harm obsessions. He mentioned some future event and that makes me think he wants to go and now I'm going to agonize over it. I hate it.
What will you agonize about?
That's what ocd wants. It wants you to feel guilty and like a bad person 24/7 because it's easier to try and control you that way. You gonna let it do that? Remember, you are real and it's not. Remember who is really stronger here
I'm really struggling to figure out where my OCD ends and where I begin. I’m scared of most things—not in a panicky way, but in a deep, cautious, worst-case-scenario kind of way. Example: I haaaaaaaaate my spectacles. I’d love to do Lasik, or even just wear contacts, but the idea terrifies me. I’ve heard about the tiniest risk of blindness or infection, and once that thought is in my head, it takes over. I picture the worst, and then I don’t act. TRIGGER Also Lasik involves cutting TRIGGER which petrifies me. I’m stuck between wanting change and being too afraid to make it. The same goes with wanting to travel but being scared I'll be trafficked or someone will plant something in my bag & I'll get arrested overseas. No amount of praying will fix it. Does anyone else feel like their OCD makes them freeze in everyday decisions? Like you can’t tell if you're just being practical or if it's the OCD gripping the steering wheel again? Maybe it's just me. Maybe it's not OCD but my personality, that's what I'm trying to figure out.
I went out with my partner today to spend the day together and try and do some ERP. the whole time I linked my arm and had my phone in my other hand. I would purposely move out the way for children or notify her so she could see I didn’t do anything. Please tell me I’m not the only one with this type of harm OCD. I’m really panicking and it’s making me feel sick. I had that feeling where my stomach drops and I’m scared of my thoughts
Does anyone ever feel like you know you have OCD, but at the same time you think it might actually be you connecting to a higher consciousness or vibration that is trying to control your decisions so that the outcome does not turn out bad kind of like the butterfly effect. It drives me crazy because I know I’m conscious that it’s OCD but at the same time I overthink and feel like it might be a higher power trying to warn me that I’m not doing something right, like example; if I flip the trash can lid a couple more times it’s going to pervert something bad from happening and that why I’m sensing I’m not doing it right, because if I spent a little more time there and if I would have left earlier the outcome would’ve been different. Or say I just fight through it and choose to ignore it, but then I’ll carry that negativity/worry of not feeling like I did it right and will project it out into existence because the thought won’t leave my head and in a way your seeking it out into existence since you keep thinking about it, kind of like an affirmation?
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