Lost in the sauce
- Date posted
- 1y
Hocd
Everyone on here keeps saying they know they re str8 but the ocd is making them doubt it. I’m breaking down because i dont even know anything anymore so that must mean its not ocd
blazedblazed
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Not true! OCD can show up in all sorts of ways and make you doubt everything about yourself. I too struggle with knowing if I’m straight, bi, or gay - I genuinely have no idea. I decided that I don’t need to label myself as anything and just let whatever happens, happen. It’s hard bc I don’t want my fear to be true, but I know I don’t have control over that. It’s very distressing, I feel your pain. You’re not alone in this ❤️
Lost in the sauceLost in the ...
- Date posted
- 1y
@blazed I dont want to accept the uncertainty bc i just dont want it to be true..
blazedblazed
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@Thaliaa I know, it’s not easy :( taking the first step is always difficult, but you can do it. You’re capable of doing hard things.
maryb111maryb111
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
I feel the same way!
Carlos ACarlos A
- Date posted
- 1y
I have also been concerned about this, in some texts or articles they mention this and it is as if it seems that the example is people who the only thing they have are intrusive questions although it seems that they can function normally and their only problem is the questions, really since The point I am at I would prefer that this was my case and that despite the questions it could work, but this has affected everything, now I am super sensitive to all stimuli from men, I get very bad and it triggers me a lot, although in the Deep down I know that I don't want to, I won't, I don't expect to act accordingly, I'm afraid of not being able to go back to being who I was or not being able to feel the way I felt, of being condemned, and I don't mean that it's bad, but that it's not bad. It doesn't mean that I have to love it, a while ago my condition wasn't so serious.
Lost in the sauceLost in the ...
- Date posted
- 1y
@Carlos A I relate to you on so many levels
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- Date posted
- 24w
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geodrimilis
- Date posted
- 24w
About hocd
This shit has to be one of the most confusing subtypes of ocd because no matter what you will never find clarity. When it started it wasn’t as bad and confusing because it was mostly anxiety. But when it started getting physical that’s when it got extremely confusing because I feel tension and fear when thinking of gay stuff but while testing I get arousal sensations so the big question is “if I am afraid of it how can my body respond as if I’m into it and if I’m into it how does my body respond with fear as if I’m not” and it’s endless. I wish I never started testing my arousal so I never started getting groinals to gay stuff in the first place. But there’s no going back now.
user74128588493
- Date posted
- 23w
hocd
i’m scared i’m bi and in denial and trying to convince myself im straight.
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